Memory Creates Misery.

Pain is an Illusion

I’m a drummer so last night I had tendonitis from drumming too much but I remembered that there is no one inside the body to experience tendonitis, and this morning the pain is gone. You are everything, being an individual inside the body is a delusion.

How to see through the illusion of memories? I can't seem to drop them

You don’t need to force them to go away, just don’t identify with them when you see them and they naturally fall away from your awareness. Identification is always a choice.

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If you don't mind I wanna know how this seemingly reality works ik all this is illusion but my awareness behind it is controlling it right even if it doesn't feel so?? Whatever I decide happens but how are we deciding those things that it seems like we have no control over

Well you give consciousness life because when the body is seemingly unconscious you don’t experience anything. You are aware OF things in your consciousness, awareness doesn’t control it. It is something beyond both awareness and consciousness that is in control, called Brahman or the Supreme Reality but it is actually you. You believed thoughts that say you’re not in control so now not being in control is what you expect. Like if you’re a lucid dreamer you expect to be in control of your lucid dreams and that’s why you are.

I stepped away from tumblr for a while to really seek my Self fully and put into practice what I knew because I was tired of constantly re-identifying with the body. You can’t experience it a few times and ruminate over it 10x more than you experience. It’s only simple when you experience, NOT when you think about it. You have to experience it as many times as you need until it becomes your permanent identification instead of getting swayed by the body/mind again. So anyway I started doing guided meditations to release emotions first. Now I don’t really feel the need to do a guided meditation I can just acknowledge and release an emotion as soon as it comes up. Now I am more so focused on abiding in Self, consistently returning home, because when you return to your Self all the emotions and thoughts leave, even if just for a split second. Now when I start getting invested in storylines I’ll automatically snap out of the hypnosis and it’ll go quiet lol. And even when my mind doesn’t automatically go silent, I can just consciously observe it being noisy. It’s funny when you step back and observe, you realize the mind is like a tape recorder, just looping the same thoughts again and again, usually about the past or the future. When you realize the thoughts are just an observation and you are the observer, it really sounds ridiculous, like a broken record. Remember the end goal is complete surrender and death of personal identity.

"You've been somebody long enough. You spent the first half of your life becoming somebody. Now you can work on becoming nobody, which is really somebody. For when you become nobody there is no tension, no pretense, no one trying to be anyone or anything. The natural state of the mind shines through unobstructed - and the natural state of the mind is pure love."

-Ram Dass

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Earlier I was feeling anxious while out in public and I silently asked myself “who is anxious?” and I realized no one was there to be anxious, and I felt calm. The rest of the time while I was out, the person blended into the background, it was just part of the scenery. Emotions may arise, but they are happening to no one. Events may arise, but they are happening to no one.

Stop saying something is “out of your control” (a rant)

If you really believe that you’re God and the entire world is inside of you how can you look at a situation and say “oh yeah some things are just out of my control I can only change SOME things.” When will you understand that the ENTIRE WORLD is your “personal life” and you are CONSTANTLY in control whether you like it or not? I’m sorry but there is no such thing as “their reality” in your awareness it’s a delusion. Your crush, your friends, your family, your neighbors, famous people are all just assumptions in your mind they literally hold no power over reality.

Back in late 2023 and part of 2024 I was obsessed with non duality Tumblr. I was convinced that things were just out of my control and I was an “ego” that had to shed my sense of self in order to gain control to become “one with God”. Oh wait… there’s no difference between the ego and God since God is everything. 🙄 Anyway I noticed that during this time whatever I “believed in” kept getting reflected back to me and then I was like “huh maybe I’m already manifesting and there’s nothing I have to become in order to manifest.”

Later in 2024 I began to experiment with the law of assumption (with more determination this time). I was taking an English class so I manifested straight A’s in that class and I was honestly shocked by my own power. I was the best writer in that entire class and improved significantly by the end of it. My next big manifestation was going to see one of my favorite bands even tho everyone was saying they wouldn’t take me. Now I had actually said last year I was going to go to that concert no matter what (idk why but I had such a strong resolve for this specific thing) but later my mom said I shouldn’t and couldn’t go for various reasons and I was so upset 😭 even my bday felt like a drag. (But she was just reflecting my own doubts.) I got fed up and I told myself I have no choice but to go to the concert which was the day after my bday (2/22 😉).

Whenever someone told me I wouldn’t be able to go I would internally say “yeah sure buddy 🙄”. My sibling was making up their mind on whether or not to take me (cuz they didn’t rly wanna go at first) and I just kept telling myself I had NO CHOICE but to go and guess what? 😏 They texted me saying they would take me and it felt surreal when I got there tbh. Now you may be thinking “Seraphic it’s just a concert” but it meant a lot to me bc one of the band members is very special to me.

There were also more general things I intentionally manifested but with those things I wasn’t really even trying bc it was kind of a “no brainer” assumption if you know what I mean. Moral of the story is trust yourself everything will work out because everything is already turning out the way you say it will you don’t even have to believe it.

What do I mean when I say “illusion”?

I’m not saying you are hallucinating as if you were on drugs or you need to stop seeing things, it’s more like one of those drawings where you can see a rabbit or a duck, but in reality it’s just ink.

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Can I apply this to my appearance that I see seemingly? Will knowing that it's not my appearance can I seemingly experience a different one? Idk 😶

You wouldn’t ask this question if you knew the mind is an illusion. There is already no one here desiring and no one here to manifest. These bodies are empty. Have no desire to change because there is already nothing here to change, just a story in your head. All empty appearances. Once you recognize that the current story you’re telling yourself is fake, a new story may appear.

But right now your desire for a new appearance seems to be controlling you instead of you controlling it, let it go if you want to be free and unlimited.