Spectrespeaks - 🥀

fuck it im relapsing someone else unadded me after promising they would stay

I just wanted to feel like I was worth something

hello tumblr people in my phone im back and worse than ever

tumblr let me post my pics from my walk last night challenge

you know when you're talking to your friend who you also used to date and they're talking about their new love interests and it's all you can fucking do not to lose your shit and split on them and just listen and congratulate them because logically you love that person because they are your best friend and they also love you but shit just didn't work romantically between the two of you but now every time they talk about it you wanna put scissors in your ears because you feel so fucking lonely and disgusting and unworthy of the thing that everyone else has but you don't??

no me neither

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okokok so

its been almost 2 weeks????? since me and my fp last had an actual conversation. i tried reaching out but they just ignored it and keep sending me fuckin memes and instagram posts and ignoring my message 🙃

i feel like i've already gone through the fucking 7 stages of grief with this mf and now i don't know if i care what they choose to do, so now im just wondering:

do i attempt to reach out again somehow and if so what the fuck do i say? OR do i just abandon ship and give up the entire friendship and see what happens-

‘sorry for not replying i was talking to—‘

FYM IM NOT THE ONLY PERSON YOURE TALKING WITH??????????? you’re so bored with me you have to talk to other people huh??? well fuck you then i hate you go die.

so glad you have an entire fucking polycule to lean back on while im drowning for your fucking attention lolololol