Sometimes When You Are Aroace And Also An Autistic Human With Memory Issues It Leads To Awkward Situations

I have no idea what’s going on. Mostly felt like drawing chaos. Have fun lol

Reminder that executive function/ task paralysis isn’t force-of-will-able for the most part

Can you force your brain to think of a word on the tip of your tongue? Can you snap your fingers and recall the exact appearance of your first article of clothing? Can you tell the oxygen in your lungs where to go?

Who has complete control of their brain, their body, and the chemicals within? Not me.

You’ve been hit by,, you’ve been struck by,, [LOVE AND PEACE]

There is so much tired in my body plz help

The difference between cacti and all other plants is that cacti are invincible.

My cacti have survived being drop kicked off my window sill multiple times by my cat,

Emergency surgery due to similar circumstances as above,

My forgetting to water it for like a month because I moved it and the adhd brain threw that info into the garbage,

The toxic nature of my cake-plaster, single pane aluminum window room.

All other plants can be on a specific regiment with directions followed and still decide that life is simply not for them.

Opinion:

Ppl with loud cars n messed up mufflers aren’t cool like they think they are.

It’s like… if someone went around farting as loud as they could and laughing about it. Posing, even.

Never in my life have I met someone impressed with such noise. Just disdain.

Goblin behavior I (and perhaps u?) participated in in childhood:

- sat high in trees and sang lullabies

- hid in improbable places I only fit bc of hypermobility & would not come out till found or panicked the adults (usually meaning I hid for like 1/2 hr)

- gave store employees “super important” things they lost like fallen fake flower bits n those clothing sizes hanger cuffs

- would lay on the ground absolutely anywhere

- kicked bullies in the shins

- produced a dog whistle thru my front teeth n got slowly louder until someone noticed

- would walk around my house on my knees while holding my ankles to the sides like w sitting

- preferred to swim underwater only and had a large lung capacity

- always had pockets stuffed with rocks, roadside trinkets, shells, pencils & pens, makeshift self defense stuff (like a baggie full of thin dusty dirt 2 throw in an assailants eyes), smth to leave a trail so I wouldn’t get lost, pocket knife (unless at school), and a notebook

- would climb doorways and wait by the ceiling endlessly until someone came so I could startle them

Today I tried to buckle my seatbelt into my phone

I’m sORrY there’s an EYE???? What!??? Haha… uh, what’s one more sibling’s free will stolen by nai 😅

Yea, I suppose the element of surprise could be a reason for it. It’s still weird to me that he doesn’t even know Zazie? Kinda seems like he knows about the bug spies.

I am not sure what I think nai thinks of people. On one hand he has a visceral reaction to how they treat the plants on the last run, but also he’s not very caring as an adult. Was it pretend?

I. Listen. Listen. I do not approve of the plantcest. But I have eyes. And that was a lot. That. E u g h

Why. Why. Why.

Burning questions that have haunted me since watching Trigun Stampede:

-Does no one notice the difference between the pale stabby squid man and the fluorescent red golden retriever man?

-Is….. is the body suit attached? Is it not?

-what happened to Tesla after the crash?

-why does vash not know nai’s murderous employees by the time he’s like 150

-is no one going to acknowledge the incredibly invasive nature of what occurred in the last episode????

-what did nai do to vash’s gate at jeneora rock and why did he need diff tech in the last episode?

If anyone with more context or luck with research knows, or wants to theorize, feel free lol

Every day I find new ways in which to be disturbed

Imagine my confusion and disgust when, during a 2AM awakening from insomnia, I find a golf-ball-sized mass of s o m e t h i n g in my bed.

It’s half soft and half tacky and overall a very squishy and concerning organic shape.

It is my pain patch, which came off and balled up sometime in the night