Do You Get Sad Suddenly And Your Chest Starts Hurting And It Takes All Of Your Energy To Move Even Slightly

i dont have the strength to recover. im going through the motions at this point. i gave up long ago, now i breathe because i dont know what else to do.

oh u got the metnal illnes?

“I mean, sometimes remembering can really destroy you.”

— Benjamin Alire Sáenz

What hurts is that he was capable of love. Of caring. Of kindness. But I wasn’t good enough or worthy for him or that love.

— but she was

maybe you meant a little too much to me, and maybe i meant a little too little to you

“It’s tough to get out of bed; I know that myself. You can lie there for an hour and a half without thinking anything, just worrying about what the day holds and knowing that you won’t be able to deal with it.”

— Ned Vizzini, It’s Kind of a Funny Story (via thebookquotes)

i’m the problem. i’m draining to be around. i turn everything good into something toxic. i can’t stop myself from ruining everything, no matter how hard i try. i’m the only one to blame. i’m poison to everyone around me, i destroy everything i touch

my brain saw the slippery slope of unhealthy coping mechanisms and grabbed a fucking sled