“What Hurts The Most Is Having To Pretend That None Of This Hurts At All.”

I don’t want to hurt people with my death

Instead I hurt myself with my existence

“I really need you to pick me. I really need you to stay. Please just pick me. I don’t have any dignity left at this moment, I’m swallowing all my pride and I’m asking you to pick me. Please just stay.”

— can’t you see how much I love you

Forgive yourself for catching feelings for the wrong person. Forgive yourself for chasing people who did nothing but make you feel like you weren’t enough, people who hurt you over and over till you accepted it as a way of your life. Don’t beat yourself up for wanting to love or be loved. There are worse things in life to be harsh on yourself about. Loving someone isn’t one of them.

Things I wish someone had told me.

i don’t know why i feel sad, but i’m tired of feeling this way

Someone said "Are you really so stupid to think that Africa has the same technological advances as us? If they did they would probably have clean water and not live in houses made of sticks and mud. Get over yourself and stop being so ignorant."..... Below is a tiny collection of images of the Africa they refuse to show you..

ches

I’m sorry you’ve been made to believe that the whole of Africa is poor, I really am..

“I wanted to.. I wanted to tell you how much I’m hurting, how badly I just want it all to stop.. but all I could get out was “I’m fine” and force a smile. But I wanted you to see that I’m not really fine, I wanted you to take me into your arms and tell me it’ll all be okay while you rub my back, even if I don’t believe it.. I just want you to notice..”

— (J.A.L 5/5/17 10:45 pm)

The way I loved you wasn’t normal and the way you broke me wasn’t either.

*goes to sleep so I don’t kill myself*