Bpd Is Spiralling When They Don’t Respond And Beginning To Strongly Despise Them, Only To Return To

i can’t do it anymore. i just want to give up on everything. i have nothing left to give.

Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?

Is it even possible for someone to love someone like me?

I’m done, defeated. Some of us aren’t meant to be loved. Today is the day I will try to accept that. Keep to myself. It’ll hurt. A lot. A lot. But I’m done. My life has been agony and my fragile heart can’t take this anymore. I’ll always be an object. To be used then thrown away. I’m not good enough or worthy of being loved.

You know you’re fucked when……..you’ve accepted that your life will end by suicide, and you’re okay with it.

That is where I am right now.

I need him but he doesn't even want me.

I'm literally in an abusive relationship with myself, I constantly belittle myself, and put myself in situations intentionally to be harmed.

questioning bpd culture is being in a downward spiral for weeks and matching almost every bpd symptom, but the MOMENT that I go a whole day without feeling awful I immediately think that I've just been faking it this whole time and clearly must be actually fine

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