I Should Eat… But I Can’t Eat Anything For Another Few Hours Or My Mom Will Know I’m Not Sleeping

everything is going to shit

I let myself get swept up by the first person who looked my direction instead of waiting for who I wanted to be with and everything is ruined. For both of them, and for me.

Ch almost died today but he made it through the surgery. I’m so glad he’s still alive.

He’s a great person

I won't stop here. I'll keep doing everything I can to get better.

And I promise I'll stop letting myself get hurt.

...the marks on my arms look suspicious but I promise they're just scrapes.

I might be stupid and angry and cruel and mean and an absolute idiot, but i care, i really do.

I was barely thinking during any of what I did. I’m not sure if I was even actually happy.

Sometimes I wish you were able to stay that night.

And sometimes I wish I had said something sooner.

yeah im a jirai, the ladies (and gentlemen) call me the bomb 😔

you're a real fuckin jirai boy, aren't you

music makes life not feel like nails on a chalkboard

at least not only to me

i'm sorry to everyone involved i hope you know

Do what’s best for you, please.

One of my best online friends is dying in the hospital right now.

He has a brain tumor and he's going in for surgery. He might die and he might go braindead depending on how the surgery goes.

His parent's don't care enough to be there with him so the only person with him is his therapist.

Please don't let one of the good ones die, God. I know he'll go to heaven, but he can't leave yet. He has so much ahead of him.

Ch if you die I don't know if I could handle it.