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9.36 20th jan (understanding + observation)

— I think what’s important with art + automaty really is the understanding. right now: getting that hands like when they bend from the palm side, yes while the knuckles part is covered my skin: what I got wrong is that it doesn’t completely disappear under the fingers but rather it folds over as they bend… also I noticed that on the back side that it’s more angular when it bends…

also observations is really super important, whether it’s just seeing how things work while you’re not writing: observation in life or through videos/picgures/comics whatever how art is done then: how how posing/anatomy works but I guess for that stuff is impotent to know what to look for like the spacing or the general angle of things. angle is a really important part.

😐 man… a lot of recent art is highlighting on my weakness and there are Many. such as legs. mainly legs,.. side view…… profile face angle…. neck..,, arms…. arms again..,. (mainly drawing in arms.)….. for leg it’s really everything :/ man. and the problem is that I can’t be bothereddd to learn legs :/ I did do a more in depth study learning of muscles and shit …. and I think it deepened some level of understanding but not deep enough tbh…..

insane. as soon as so woke up… add this dream of art.,.. so obviously I got out my iPad and IMMEDIATELY went to drawing. the bright light of my iPad killed me.

I spent so much time on that face in the last one 😌 I like that time of art moment… just working… looking at refs…. Refining….. 5.39

But…. One thing I’ve been sadly about lately is well…, sIGH…. How I feel like my figures don’t look all that nice…. It’s just kind of disheartening I suppose….. like it’s not bad… at this level… I GUESS…. But I want it to be better…. Ahhhhhh SIGH….. I have to a lot of practice and studies I suppose 😞 but nothing man. I’m getting better at Creating stuff, I think. IDK!!! it’s honestly hard to gauge my progress level. It’s not really a straight line…..

waaa….!!!! so many comics made!!!!! im so<3333

and heh… majority from today…

oh jeez. here’s comes the highlight of the day n the biggest/crazy part. okay well it’s not really crazy but feels like TO ME.

THE GAA PIECE!!!!! REMMEBER HOW I WANTED TO WORK ON IT!!!!! I FINALLY DID!!!!!’ WHOOOOP WHOOOOPP. how fitting it is that I do it, one day before the d-day ahaha ♥️

—I had like general idea of focusing on the guy with him bending like to get some kind of present and bending poses are like. the bane of my existence ngl. so I had to find refs and ha……..as I knew that refs didn’t exist. like I mean I couldn’t find it. where hell is my “bending slightly” ref pose?! none that’s where. so I just had to start it without it.

—so. the pose. 😐 I tried many attempts (it was two/three) and while while it looks kinda bending over. it felt too much or just — was off. but THEN…. OMG… I don’t even know where it came from (wait I think it was from general idea of robo/bean method I saw on proko vid) I just used two circles that are overalapping and made sure that one was more bending over and that fixed it???! I GOT IT IT???????? im freaking awesome that’s what. ahahah

—yeah yeah as you can see from my notes the pose wasn’t perfect felt off and stuff but anyways. yeah intially I had the idea of him actually bending to receive the present and it would be maybeee ambiguous who it is or maybe it’s the son. and like had floating ideas of sibs being there. but when I got to drawing the going to recieve the present, I was like hmmm. maybe it’s best that he’s already received it and has it in hand kind of scene? and I decided to just go with the son being in foreground (large) who is the one whl gave it.

—here is (above) my rough first sketch of the idea where I redraw the pose (using heh new method to do bending pose….!!! <333) and this time he’s like holding the present or whatever and did scribble of the son in then foreground. I couldn’t be bothered for actual trying to draw in son in foreground like that. like no.

—after that I went over to drawing over and doing the clothes and more finalised sketch and I was really liking it!!! it was coming along VERY nicely. but well. yeah there was a lot to do and focus as I did the notes there. but that was for future me….. sigh I think I knew on some level that this wasn’t just gonna work out. but well it doesn’t hurt to try you know.

—I came back after a bit, procrastinating really cuz I did NOT wanna draw this guy in foreground…! I knew how it’s gonna be like. but yeah I did get around to doing it. practice n shit first. well it’s not really practice lol.

—it was just trying to get an overall feel for how things should be placed/be like and it was just blocks that I was working with to help figure stuff out and yeah I don’t think I knew what I was doing but thought I gist of it (yeah. No. I didn’t 😔)

—yeah and then I drew pose for the son so I can get a feel for how the pose would be like and lololol it did feel… for the gesture… so stiff… I think it might have to do with how there’s no diff angles. I guess. and hey… you know what. looking at this now. it’s not actually bad…….? I think maybe there should be a more an overlap but not bad and I do think lol gaa is looking super awkward with his posing. looking at the sketch of the pose I can see it might have to do with how weirdly out the pelvis is…? when it feels like he’s not really bending over in this one hmmm. but anyways im happy to know that I can still came back to this one.

—anyways I did do a draw over the son pose and my GOSH was it hard to even try to find 💀💀💀💀 ref… I don’t know how to draw the stupid back of his or his clothes. and well. I guess that he would be wearing more casual clothes anyways but well. whatever.

—yeah after doing this I realised. yeah no sadly this is Was not going to work out 💀💀💀💀💀 (but like I said looking at this now from the future it’s the not bad??? I think may haps be too much distance between them butttt??? Also yeah the son’s pose looks weirdly stiff but yeah.)

—I was initially going to for a similar thing (going to reach for presents/holding presents) but well. I did try to doodle something after that but I was like. maybe I need to step back and think properly and stuff……

and so came the second idea….!!!!!!

you know for this one im not even gonna say anything. it was one hell of a trip to madness though. that I will say. my gosh. I freakin hate you angel boy…..

I don’t even want to say anything. but funny how I was like oh I wanna see if I remember how to still draw him. tried to draw him. goes “hehehe I still remember” decides to check the trace and compare and ah: here’s where the madness starts. at at point I realize there’s no point to this. who the fck cares, also looking at the series, I don’t think he’s drawn the same constantly but kinda changed but I think it’s the sense of colouring and similarity that carries over. whatever. I just give up.

Even when I tried to draw another character it didn’t go well. im just. throwing in flag. but I. Guess I do want to at least study his hair in a bit. man just looking at this makes me want to punch something. I cannot.

back to poses…<3

back to poses…<3

30sec poses + hands. Mainly hands. :/

—I had to go upstairs for something and so I got opportunity to grab pen n paper…!!! I just started with random pose from imaginary… and I was gonna do just poses from ref but remembered the whole 30s pose thingy and did it and OF COURSS it immediately 💀 started with a super hard pose….! man I felt like this session of 30s was infinitely harder than 16th… I was just quickly scribbling it in. ah right I remember. of course it was harder because of the set up. my stupid glasses that kept falling down (I really need to get it properly fitted) and how I placed my iPad so I had to keep looking up. yeah that didn’t help/do any favours lol.

—also portions got skewed that lol all the poses looked like younger than I was hitting for. but oh well.

—I def didn’t want do another timed session… and did debate on a longer timed session but I didn’t want to… so I thought to just focus on a pose of the day for posemanic.. and randomly picked this one. holding chest out, proud pose. and I tried it: the angle it was on alright was one that covered the other hand and yeah from first v, I could see that I didn’t bring out the chest as much as it could been….! also cries I have no idea what the f I was doing with the legs??? like I felt completely lost??? (I realised later that’s cuz I was doing the whole sectioning of the legs into two parts and working from there. im not familiar with legs at all to try and just do it lolll. (Yeah I really do need to brush up on my leg knowledge and stuff. I mean I know some muscles and stuff but not really bones that much except some and gist…not like im getting to know the arm/feet and I should change that…..One Dsy…. I just don’t have that much of motivation to work on legs like that… lololol)

—I should def get back to that poss later on to properly study . helpful it was on digital then, since I feel like the limitations of traditional were not helpful in that regard.

—but even so about limitations of digital… oh no… im feeling sleepy (not surprised) but it’s a btch while trying to write this up. and i hoped to be done within the day. ahhhhh. Wait there’s like few hours left of the day. I can make it. Anyways so where was I: yes limitations of tradition yes there is but like. Also. Strong points and did like going back to pen and just drawing which is good… my new rip off Apple Pencil has no pressure sensitivity :/ so writing with some that does is so so soiooo nice skiskkkjj. Lmao I was sleeping here but im normal again now. anyways as I was saying… it feels so nice to pen stuff!!! but also kind of annoying! I should do more traditional stuff!!!!

—working on that chest stick out pose reminded me of the skkr/karin wip.. so I went to draw it just to get a feel for it since I honestly don’t like how I did it before I want the shirt to be BIG and FOCUS and yeah this one didn’t go well. like I said about pen + traditional, I accidentally made the arms too close in and not further as it’s picking it up so I was like ehhh alright and had to deal with it lol.

—hands!!!! and more hands!!!! okay today really is the Hand day. I was focusing on like figuring out how had works and draw it and imaging the way it bends and it was I think at first working for me I think I was all getting it. feeling like I was getting closer and well… later on I do draw more hands on digital. and these do some look better but also my GOSH

—my fingers… :’ also i just think at one point i just got be like. i had enough of hands. I tried to do a bit of figuring out to make sure I remember the length of fingers or whatever anyways hand is so complicated n hard because of the fingers and how everything moves and they all do stuff relative to each other and it’s just so annoying. and it doesn’t help I can’t roughly draw it in as it freakin looks like it makes no sense that way so i have to think of each pose of finger before I put it down and yeah hand was just getting to be super annoying and I couldn’t anymore

—but here I did draw a nice hand in that upper part. it was supposed to be initially more stretched out like the ref but well. no space so I just made it uknow more curled up.

—this one I redraw one of the poses I did for the 30 sec quick poses that I thought came out well and I think that it was nice to draw. I thought the arm didn’t come out as well and considering how I was supposed to be better at arms now even a lil bit. (ha…….) I had to try and redraw it to look more nicer and happy…!!! because hey. it looks like it is more nicer..

—and ah before I forget to mention. I did this lil thing. I was honestly. Bored and i didn’t know what to fill more the page but wanted to continue to just do that. so I kinda did boxes or whatever? and it turned into a more bringing in character into environment. and well. it was well. you know what it was. but I redrew it again, remembering to add a lil more perspective to the box thingy (making it feel like it’s going towards somewhere (a vanish point)) and it def did add depth! thank you that one video! I do want to draw more characters in environment. it’s a weak point of mine and one the things that.. I just like ?? to do. it’s just so cool (idk if that’s the word) when you able to ground a character to an environment like it’s just. SO COOL.

WORKING TO CRACK ON THOSE ARMS…!!!!!

Doing some observing since im just sitting around… and I realised it was hard to do observing in like and thought I might as well do screenshots and draw over even on phone but problem is that while I think it might be helping me…? With trying to figure stuff… it’s not really penetrating my mind… so maybe I really need to draw smth even on pencil n paper but I don’t really want to. So I think I should do more deep mental drawing. Like taking a moment to construct the stuff in my mind like im actually drawing there… with each stroke and see how it goes… 6.39

—6.40 one thing I just realised as I was doing this is heh… wait… the torso/pec muscle are literally connected to top part of the hand… wow… it really puts a lot of this into perspective. like when I was drawing hands and trying to understand how it freaking is when drawing it just like. next to torso. it’s hard to guage how close anyways. I feel like I knew (well yeah I knew cuz lmao I wouldn’t have came to this if I didn’t) this but it’s not knowledge I keep in mind and forgot to… so that’s important… to realise. It makes the arms feel less floaty and more connected. same with remembering how arms are slanted and not perfectly in align…. 6.42

I THINK IVE GOTTEN???? ARMS????? AHHHHHH (was watching el or whatever name’s video and I was repeating it for another reason I wanted to see what brush he was using and then I think how he does part of arm got inbrained in my skull… kinda funny how I never watched it all for what I wanted (the BR muscle) )

MAN DO I WANT TO REALLY DRAW ARMS SHIT NOW… BUT I CANT BE BOTEHRED TO GO UPSTRAIS TO GET PAPER/PEN OR IPAD…. this is why I should have paper n pen downstairs to be able to draw in… I will keep this in mind for later. AHHHHHHHH ID BE SO FREAKING HAPPY IF I ACTUALLY GET IT :’ also lmao the slighting bending over ref was supposed to be for ⏳ bday art… I really want to draw him… every time I lmaooooo see that red drawing I did I want to so badly draw him…… and considering his bday is tmmr…!!!!! I WILL GET TO DRAWING HIM!!!!!!! 7.23

One thing I will say today is fck arms like seriously… :’ they are the bane of today. I WILL CRACK ON THEM CUZ OH MY GOD —-

—like wtf :/ from yesterday okay so i wanted to focus on arms… and i think from videos i kind of watched what helped was the shoulders… i think i forget them…. And one thing i have trouble with the bend or whatever….??? I feel like I didn’t have this much trouble but whatever……………….

but lol instead of doing arm stuff I went into pose studies….? The first one I wanted to change the ref n make it more dynamic etc and wtf is the torso tbh… but happy with it… also looking at it now lol the arm portions suck. yeah another part that is :/ to me…

—anyways for the second one…. It was fun…. Trying to create stuff from the ref I saw… using it a base for pose idea but I wanted to add more personality and shit…. Anyways I think the arms was kind of fine….? Here….? But hard to draw tooo sIGH. anyways after that I just went ham in doing just arm studies. I had ENOUGH. and I wasn’t really doing it in a constructive or effective way tbh… just whatever… I figured maybe I drew arms for enough times I would get it………no that didn’t happen…… :’

so I went to do the bones and hey….?! maybe these might actually help…?! I see that from the bones… it shows how the shape of the arms be it is… with the wide point of the front… like wow… and and so I tried a pose in bones where it’s like bending arm above and I feel like I was getting it…? (especially helps to see the confusing mess that’s hard to draw of traps n deltoids bunching over when the arm twists up….) I drew over it and well. Yeah. Lololll not the method but does help in seeing stuff

—and I thinkkkkkk after this one I watched a video….???? Just to refresh some parts I might have finished and at this point I still didn’t have no fcking clue to how to approach stuff and did literally whatever. and see how it goes…and SIGH I don’t think some of it is bad but I give up honestly. I had enough.arms fck u. it’s so difficult with bending shit and I just don’t get it:/

—but taking a break….from this…. I realise that I HAVE A PAIR OF ARMS??? And I can do more obersvation and tracing; since the problem is portions and the bumps of arms and shit and bending in diff posss that get to me. So then: I should do more observational now and just observe and use my arms too like right now: how my arm is bending when im holding my phone. just thinking and being aware of stuff like that: my upper arm resting against my torso… bending upward in that kind of angle… and just being aware of that and visualing helps a lot…!!!! and it’s a good exercise because it’s quite literally my arm and I can just feel it out even I don’t see it. and one things I do even if im not art’ing physically and especially did a lot during the early times of this serious art journey is trying to imagine and construct the pose in my mind and how I would draw it in my mind. since my visuallinh is really good, I can draw stuff in my mind and think deeply and I think that observating other arts I can see and just photos and also feeling out how my arms work when i do stuff is how I should go about this for now. when all feel like it’s failing, falling back on observation is really helpful..!!!!!

productive??? day??? 😳

—I wasn’t gonna do more art…., I was tired but know what I watched some videos and came back to this artist that helped a lot and I think thinking of legs of like wrapping forms… helped instead of drawing the individual parts of leg but just thinking about the two parts wrap… helped… I just wanted to first get down how it was like (and did so initially roughly with finger) and kind of… helped start a figure session getting out the pen

—main things I wanted to keep in mind and think about was wrapping form and the way the body parts (rib waist pelvis) stack on top of each other… im still weak in the area of waist/pelvis but I did like this session. also focused on the hands too like the video helped a lot. like instead of trying to construct the hand with fingers from knuckles but instead… drawing where thumb/index/pinky come out from the hand helps so much more. still need to practice more on that but felt like hands were more easier that way…

—I did get bored of it and wanted to do other stuff and so it came to mind to go to the 🧊 terrible day comic… and yeah I needed to ref back to the manga to see how things looked like (the setting) but honestly I couldn’t bothered so I decided to just focused on the pose that was there and draw it more better(?) and ah…. Problem I had was like I didn’t know how to draw this hunched over position well… with hands in pocket. But one thing I realised was that the head is more lower and the traps/shoulders start to the ear but was just completely lost on how to get the legs right and gave up decided to look at some refs for later lmao.

—and then well I wanted to see how the other pose would fair now… and I think main thing is thinking about how the arms would look like if I a person was tied up like that. like would it be more in or just very close to body but more straight to show that it’s being bound… and then well I did want to scribble in the other panel more but ehhh I think I still need to work on that posing stuffs But yeshhhh.

—and then I went to the hina+boru idea…. I did want to have a specific idea but the posing or whatever I didn’t think of yet so time to scribble in stuffs… the first idea was fine but felt like I didn’t know what to do with boru? so I went with another idea but this time while it was good it didn’t convey what I wanted… I think it’s best that I think of more scenarios of what the vibe is cuz I know what like a “younger mom who isn’t mom yet meets future son” but not like an actual time travel thing but just having them interact…. So I think it’s good to think on it before doing this

—also it was kinda fun to just scribble in stuff… and not mattering how it looks just getting in the pose and stuff… and mannnnn trying to get posing of legs was hard once again. I lol haven’t spent time on them so that makes sense but still 💀💀💀

—also it was a bit trying to figure out the proportions of 🔩 and I think I made him more childlike than I wanted in the second pose idea….? But well. At least it’s a cute image to try to try and draw properly later (by later I mean sometime in the long future lol) even if it’s not wanting I was going for.

—okay after that I was still wanting to sketch in character ideas and this one came to mind…. Originally it was a comic idea but my gosh while I do have all of the comic kinda scrippted out in my notes I could not be asked to do all of that. so I focused on the part that was the intial idea anyways and what the comic was born from.

—tried to get the feel of what I wanted and it was mostly trying to get closeness of him leaning over 🦋and was a bit lost on the arms since they aren’t an important part of the scene so I tried to for mitsu… get like something where it feels like he’s leaning over so his arms would probs in that direction to balance and for her it was hard cuz ha….. i had no idea what to do with her arms? I knew they were eating… ahhh I got already an idea for his arms(1.37) since they were eating maybe it’s already on the table… I think it would help to get an image of what they’re already doing like in scene which helps in knowing what the arm are doing before he leans over

—i think the direction of her face feels off but something to work on along with perspective too.

—it felt really nice when I added in more details to the scene to feel like they are in a scene and I think I might scrapped the comic idea after all. since it was never intially meant to be a comic and I think it’s unnecessary…? If I wanted more scene I think I can have be more loose… instead of establishing an entire moment with having lol panels of them just in the burger place. too much trouble and not interested in doing so right now

—also tried to add in the other characters that would be in the scene (which I think might be playing games) but ehhhh I think they should be probs more overlapping? Them? And the perspective on them… I thought that you’d see more of their hands so more of looking down so I probs need to fit the 🦋🐍 to fit it more… but also I don’t think the other characters matter so I think it would be fun to a composition where the other characters are completely in foreground so you can only see their large arm or whatever and in between that you can see 🦋🐍 … I think that would be fun to try…! 1.42

—I did want to do more character posing stuff/ideas but too tired for that and ahhh really want to try colouring and the whole ⏳thing back again (might just make a bday illustration then thinking about pose) (since it’s what shit… tmmr. lol) also want to drawwwww ss + skkr since i saw this art that GOT ME REALLY EXCITED also made me think ahh… I do want to draw skkr more like her canon design but not like completely? like that’s the vibe I want. and also I want to try colouring her hair and the pink right now. but that’s for later if I get around to doing it.

but mainly im really happy i got to sketching/doodling some character stuff since that’s WHAT I WANT…!!!!! YES!!!!! 1.45

—3.13 im really supposed to be sleeping and want to sleep… but also I can’t be bothered to and watched some waist videos and found this leg video that looks good but don’t have attention span for it so I think I will watch it later… but I think I’ve got? A sort of idea to tackle waist stuff but also too tired right now to try and draw stuff… or more like I don’t have energy to get up and draw lol

—yeah I didn’t do any of that. I went offff and well then the time came to be like evening when I realised I haven’t done any more art stuff and was like right okay I don’t think there’s any more for today but then…!!!! while lookin at fanart stuff on x…!!!! I got sudden urge to prac…figure….!! I wanted to get better<333 but I just couldn’t be bothered to do…. but then when I got this idea while browsing through the 🔥🔵 discord… and I just wanted to draw…?! and heh thankfully as soon as i opened procreate, what I saw was the figure session I left on… heh… so I just thought might as well get some figure practice in first…!

—one thing to say is that wow… I can really feel my improvement. to be able to see a pose and then draw in diff way.. trying to make it more dynamic…. just…!!! yo!!!! and also to see how I did balance wrong first and to be able to fix it…!!!!!! im so improving heh.

—saw this other pose I thought was interesting and by interesting hard too lmao. I think I got that the neck was important point… and I just the legs??? yeahhh. Also I thought I got the way the pose felt more relaxed in the ref…. I should get back to this one to study later day….

—and lol as usual me telling my self to prac arms 😔😔😔 i did do some lil hand studies in the corner…. and have to say they don’t look completely so that’s a win in my books. I was following this tip I saw in a video to draw the outer most fingers first (thumb, index, pinky) and like it def helped a lot with spacing but much need to work on, still ahaha.

—and then hehehe for the highlight of the day…!!!!! man I had this idea for it and went to doodling immediately for the pose and yeah I wasn’t at all satisfied of how it was and kinda did an adjustment seeing if it was because they weren’t closer and I think it still felt off…? and so I looked the mental image that I had and I realised ah. well. it’s cuz the one in my mind is so much more dynamic and fun and focuses on 🦩’s face rather then the actually pulling. so. then it did help pausing down and jotting down stuff to more better actualise stuff (also trying to draw the arm coming from neko’s shoulder back view was so???? also I did have a plan on having two panel thingy where I do a reveal of neko’s face so I thought it would make sense for this to have back view of his head.

—and so this time..!!!!! yes it came out soooo much better as you can the third attempt. also this time I realised while drawing that it would be better to not have the arms as the focal point but it’s actually 🦩’s face…!!!!! and I wanted some pull/push action like it looks like he’s actuallyyyy reeling him in you know and I think having the hands there is good decision for that. and I don’t know if I was gonna have legs in there at first but I think it adds to it…!!! also ahahah tried to make it look like one of his legs were going backwards like he’s actually pulling him in. many thanks to saito-sensei in that one correction video that helped so much ahahahh. but I did feel like something was still off

—so i made another adjustment of trying to bring Neko closer and hey!!! I think that made it feel much better. also before i forget to mention when initially redrawing the pose and doing second attempt for dynamic stuff… i had the arms much lower intially…!

—as you can see the first version was sooo much lower and I was like yeah no that wouldn’t work and did it higher and ahahahah in final version it got to be around 🦩’s ear since I felt like it best pushed the action of pulling. (And lol in my other adjustments, I made it even more)

—alright while I was happy with this final-ish version hmmm. I thought maybe it would be better to have neko be more 3/4 back view and tbh yeah I didn’t really know what I was doing here but I went to diff page and tried to redraw over it since it was soooo difficult trying to erase and get that more 3/4 view and it just wasn’t working cuz I realised it wouldn’t make sense either???? I’d have to change 🦩’s pose too??? I think??? Anyways instead it just turned into a redraw cleaner version…? Of the pose and yeah I didn’t like it at first since with the redraw I kinda just did the overall silhouette which made it flatter

—but I did do adjustments to neko’s other arm. making more out there so it adds to more of the fluid gesture and ah I think the reason the overall body felt flat was because it does straight…? and so like I made his legs more out so it looks like he’s being pulled it. and I think I did it? also tried to draw in the back a bit but my gosh do I need more practice with that stuff kinda treading adding in clothes over back… hmmm… I need to practice some more hahaha. backs are HARD!

—anyways there was lil time of day left so I thought to get in the other part of the idea in… and wellllll. Last one is the more finalised version. Had the idea of having neko’s reaction and intially trying to draw pose from diff angle is harddd but I think the way I approached it was like not the best? I just went to drawing it starting from his face and was terrible decision since I was like ??? and yeah it was def all falling apart but i still kept on scribbling it in just wanting to get the overall down. and i do think it’s funny seeing it in comparison to the other version lmaooo. like???? what is even happening in the pose. trying to draw from diff angle is hard and even more especially when you don’t visualise stuff properly and just go straight into it especially LOL when this is a character interaction pose honestly.

—also lol i did have lil character more expression face but deleted it cuz i was just????? on how to do the pose from diff angle i probs should have realised here that starting from face was terrible idea ahaha. but overall heheh best way to end day. I felt soooo accomplished n nice heheheh.

at least we ended this day on good note about mm angel boy face :’

—I didn’t think I was going to figure stuff, like I did want to but I couldn’t be bothered to get up and do it… and then I saw this art video that was going on about time posed poses and I got to somehow to doing it and these were really fun…!!!!! It was good since it brought up poses I don’t usually do… like a lot of back ones ahaha… and interesting angles….

—and glaring thing I noticed is man im not good at quick proportions like that…. :/ and so I wanted to focus on that and lol my legs was abysmal as usual. so things to work on:

—I honestly was doing that. ways to quickly find portions but it quickly just went into another time posed and I forgot to mention but I was trying to also look at center lines… since it’s establishes the pose quite quickly… also in the corner I tried to just do a pose from imagination and ARM!!!! ANOTHER PROBLEM!!!!

anyways I kind of wanted to focus on legs properly… but really………….it was all over the place…………..ha……………

—as you can see I tried to focus on the satorius(?) or however you spell it muscle but kinda gave up on that after a bit and went back to pelvis lolllll. this session wasn’t very successful djfjfjjf or even going in any direction it was very ??? but I guesss i was trying to find a way to draw the legs and it’s rhythms based on videos I watched but ehhhhh.

—with the pelvis it was a disappointing you couldn’t move the 3D models so like it was at an angle at in front view… but I found a way around it….? where I take a pic of the front of view and angle it…. and well I tried tht…

—and very funny how I thought this was some kind of breakthrough but like lol it’s just too much work….. but I do want to keep it in mind I guess… it’s something I work back on when just checking stuff or etc.

—we’re back to our guy. and okay around 12 I did go to him to draw a bit and immediately gave up ahahah. and when I came back 2200 I was like fine time to bring in the tracing shit and helpppp it was still terrible 💀💀💀💀💀

—BUT FINALLY… THIS PAGE…. I DID IT!!!!!!! MANAGED IT!!!!!! Did a first trace over and tried to try myself and saw what I was doing around and how he typically has a more narrow and wider face…. and he has big pupils and how the outer part of his eye shape is larger then instead… and finally got the whole small mouth and how from mouth the jaw kinda starts and the POINTY!!!! CHIN!!!! and afterwards I tried to fix a prev art I did to this knowledge I had now… it turned out eh the fix since lol it’s hard to fix already finished stuff like that…! but wow I was so happy and like fcking FINALLY that it worked. like look… :’ he looks more like Ian now ahhhhh finallyyyyy. IT ALL PAID OFF!!!! THE TEARS N BLOOD!!!! :’ and I think that what really helped is that wide to narrow chin to remember since I typically draw my faces more narrow and straighter…

alright I have to say it’s kind of funny that I have been wanting to do some lil art like figure pracs but honestly couldn’t be bothered to try to, just no energy/want for it. but as soon as I opened MM to reread for fic purposes…. I got the urge to draw them….!

—okay to be honest… I already wanted got urges to draw the characters before while reading but I was in my Art Needed Break then sooooo. time to do so now and OH MY GOD. I want to squeeze Ian cuz my guy why the f was so diff to draw :’ I wanted to cry at one point but also I do like how pretty he is… n that eyelash… I love drawing his eyes… too… and I think(?) I’ve finally got the hang of drawing him…

—and HA…. the problem really lines on how tch this art style (not really trying to copy the artsyle but get close to it to get more likeness of characters….) and yeah it is hard to get… also it doesn’t help the hair are like complicated shit. well more complicated than the scribbles I do 😫 I think I might have to actually study to do the hair properly 😔 but I at least I got the gist of it……?

—also I do think it’s funny how it took me more than one face drawing to try and get Ian sort of right but lol with sliver boy, I drew him once and was like…?! I already felt like I got the likeness. that was pretty funny. I mean I kinda did feel like I got likeness sort offff for angel boy but hmmmmmmm. it was yknow not enough. also I think it was hard trying to capture for him the feeling of his which was like “narrow/pointy/small” and not to mention the bumps that the artists likes to use…

—also his eyes are pretty hard to get down, I mean I kinda got the gist but it’s different when drawing it with the face. I feel like my separate lil eye studies were better… either way. looking at some fanart, I realised that it’s fine…?! anyways if I don’t get it alll right. it’s cool. I think I just need to get the hair exactly right or more right and that’s fine 😌. I drew him without looking at the source and yknow I think I got him somewhat down also I do think it’s so funny seeing the both of them in together since angel boy looks more finished/pretty then sliver boy LMAO. I guess it’s obvs which one I like drawing more despite how harder it is…. BUT I WILL GET TO YOU SLIVER BOY….

—anyways I think this was fun to do anyways. I don’t usually draw in this style (lol im influenced a lot by naru), but it was fun… and I really do like how the eyes look…. it’s so nice drawing in them… they’re soooo pretty. while🍥 artsyule holds my heart, I have to say ft artsyle is genuinely one of my faves. every time I see it I want so badly draw all the characters!!!! (especially want to get down to drawing dragon fire boy and armour girl!!!!!! ahhhh they’re gonna be so<3 cuz honestly I think that im getting well I wouldn’t say bored but I think that my recent juv stuff isn’t really sparking the same funness as it was in the beginning… I don’t think I’ve really captured what drew and made me love her design so freakin much and just makes me kinda sad ngl… but I WANNA GET THERE ONE DSY!!!! also man I really have to draw armour!!!!!!! girl!!!!! her design is just. idk WHAT it is but second fav… I think it’s just her general vibe ahhhhhh… also weirdly. I love dragon fire boy for his hair 💀 me? wanting to draw something? for hair? yeah I know NDJDKKD but I really love how hair…… I honestly did draw these two (dragon fire boy n armour girl years ago but ah sadly I lost those art but I remember drawing them…..) anyways yeahhhh….!!!!! im excited to get them I mean. I did doodle in dragon fire boy during ft doodle session but it wasn’t really proper stuff.

—to not get derailed: I’ve been only drawing MM faces to get used to it and it’s been really just straight on to…. Like yeahhhh I drew side view and 3/4 which uhhhhh wasn’t great but yeahhhh I probs should prac that but cba too. Also I kinda want to more draw them in poses…… I kinda have general idea of a scene to draw….. but also cba to do that right now. my energy is low. I probs should get back to rereading and lol to that fic’ing idea… 8.44 also ahhh I do want to get back to my onoe face prac (I WILL GET HIM DOWN) so I can draw one of my fav otps ever hehehe and be the only person in fandom lmaooooo. 8.45

alright I have to say it’s kind of funny that I have been wanting to do some lil art like figure pracs but honestly couldn’t be bothered to try to, just no energy/want for it. but as soon as I opened MM to reread for fic purposes…. I got the urge to draw them….!

—okay to be honest… I already wanted got urges to draw the characters before while reading but I was in my Art Needed Break then sooooo. time to do so now and OH MY GOD. I want to squeeze Ian cuz my guy why the f was so diff to draw :’ I wanted to cry at one point but also I do like how pretty he is… n that eyelash… I love drawing his eyes… too… and I think(?) I’ve finally got the hang of drawing him…

—and HA…. the problem really lines on how tch this art style (not really trying to copy the artsyle but get close to it to get more likeness of characters….) and yeah it is hard to get… also it doesn’t help the hair are like complicated shit. well more complicated than the scribbles I do 😫 I think I might have to actually study to do the hair properly 😔 but I at least I got the gist of it……?

—also I do think it’s funny how it took me more than one face drawing to try and get Ian sort of right but lol with sliver boy, I drew him once and was like…?! I already felt like I got the likeness. that was pretty funny. I mean I kinda did feel like I got likeness sort offff for angel boy but hmmmmmmm. it was yknow not enough. also I think it was hard trying to capture for him the feeling of his which was like “narrow/pointy/small” and not to mention the bumps that the artists likes to use…

—also his eyes are pretty hard to get down, I mean I kinda got the gist but it’s different when drawing it with the face. I feel like my separate lil eye studies were better… either way. looking at some fanart, I realised that it’s fine…?! anyways if I don’t get it alll right. it’s cool. I think I just need to get the hair exactly right or more right and that’s fine 😌. I drew him without looking at the source and yknow I think I got him somewhat down also I do think it’s so funny seeing the both of them in together since angel boy looks more finished/pretty then sliver boy LMAO. I guess it’s obvs which one I like drawing more despite how harder it is…. BUT I WILL GET TO YOU SLIVER BOY….

—anyways I think this was fun to do anyways. I don’t usually draw in this style (lol im influenced a lot by naru), but it was fun… and I really do like how the eyes look…. it’s so nice drawing in them… they’re soooo pretty. while🍥 artsyule holds my heart, I have to say ft artsyle is genuinely one of my faves. every time I see it I want so badly draw all the characters!!!! (especially want to get down to drawing dragon fire boy and armour girl!!!!!! ahhhh they’re gonna be so<3 cuz honestly I think that im getting well I wouldn’t say bored but I think that my recent juv stuff isn’t really sparking the same funness as it was in the beginning… I don’t think I’ve really captured what drew and made me love her design so freakin much and just makes me kinda sad ngl… but I WANNA GET THERE ONE DSY!!!! also man I really have to draw armour!!!!!!! girl!!!!! her design is just. idk WHAT it is but second fav… I think it’s just her general vibe ahhhhhh… also weirdly. I love dragon fire boy for his hair 💀 me? wanting to draw something? for hair? yeah I know NDJDKKD but I really love how hair…… I honestly did draw these two (dragon fire boy n armour girl years ago but ah sadly I lost those art but I remember drawing them…..) anyways yeahhhh….!!!!! im excited to get them I mean. I did doodle in dragon fire boy during ft doodle session but it wasn’t really proper stuff.

—to not get derailed: I’ve been only drawing MM faces to get used to it and it’s been really just straight on to…. Like yeahhhh I drew side view and 3/4 which uhhhhh wasn’t great but yeahhhh I probs should prac that but cba too. Also I kinda want to more draw them in poses…… I kinda have general idea of a scene to draw….. but also cba to do that right now. my energy is low. I probs should get back to rereading and lol to that fic’ing idea… 8.44 also ahhh I do want to get back to my onoe face prac (I WILL GET HIM DOWN) so I can draw one of my fav otps ever hehehe and be the only person in fandom lmaooooo. 8.45

okay all I have to say today was super insane???? wtf…..

—uhhhh so from yesterday, i just thought after a while id continue drawing…….. and you know i looked at my prev art stuff and saw how I’ve been drawing srda… especially her eyes and i just wanted to try that again…. also since i saw I used to draw in that water brush i thought why don’t I try again you know… and yknow. the first srda was…….fine……. but not really a fan ITS ONLY WHEN I TEIED COLOUR!!!! THAT WOW….. IT REALLY GOT<3 I think i did try colour in this brush before but i didn’t intially like it PROPERLY BECAUSE I DIDNT FULLY DO SOMETHJH IN IT!!!! anyways this was the start of something<3 i went ham ahahah. like the second srda wasn’t the best either (man i need to work on my face angles) but MY GOSH the third srda is fave 💞💞💞 (seriously i want to forever draw like her like this!!!!!) (it’s so perfect…..her hair…. expression just. Yes) I also didn’t want to go out of prac with figures so i just drew in a redraw of panel and pleasantly surprised at how she came out….? hehe…. <3 I did realise I see figure small lmaoo…. I wanted her face to be bigger but oh well and of course as soon as as I be drawing her I get the urge to draw the two… srda + chou… I wanted a lil peck idea… and man it was kind of hard to get profile and also wondering how to draw her from side profile and to keep the chubbiness…. but yeshhhhh it was a good prac. speaking of the eyes, i meant like before i used to had in some lower eyelash or whatever and it looked so nice i gotta had to add it back in also lmaooo the side profile one i was drawing (the peck) got a lot skewed since i wasn’t really putting in a lot of effort anyways and lol her eye turned out really big than i wanted it to be…. anyways yeah.

—anyways after that… I wanted to draw more 🦋 and uhhhhhh this one wasn’t really going well… I botched up her face and tried to fix it anyway cuz of that im really meh over also lol I tried to make her arm do diff lol… or smth since I just keep the arms straight in bust shots… I really need to practice bust shots lol… btw heh the blue background was a homage to my old drawings… I always tended to just add a blue background (if you can’t tell, it’s my go to colour for a lot of things) (honestly my fav colour at this point but I wouldn’t really say fav… it’s like a Homebase fav. that n pink/purples I like to really draw in…) (once I discovered drawing in purple I was a goner ahahaha)

—anyways of course I had to see how 🌸 looked in this brush…..! wait… didn’t I do juv first…? man this is why I liked to do a write up on thoughts as I do it but I was lazy… I have terrible memory lmao. anyways right I did do juv to see her and then skkr… idk if I liked the juv so when I tried to compare her to the normal procreate pencil brush I use… I actually liked that better than the pencil brush lmaooooo. also did other juv in diff brushes just to comapeee… and just to draw her lol… I do like her in more textured brushes….

—and then!!!!! 🌸 I had to get her in…. And im really liking it….? the first one was skewed as obvs… im bad at trying to get her hair right lmaooooo…. but then I wanted to do a redraw of manga from gaiden just to see and cuz I wanna get her more right and I do really like it….? def one of the best skkr I’ve drawn….. but hmmm at the same time it’s not really the type of skkr I want to draw I guess… but I’ve been thinking I wanted to draw that type of skkr but I guess I realised I don’t …. anyways these came out well and did make me very happy in realising that i can draw her in a way that I do like…. :’ I guess major thing that helped was the eyes since I looked at prev art that I drew with srda i realised that I didn’t used to draw the eyes in one line go… and makes sense since when I’d try to draw eyes in one ago… it didn’t really look good… also what’s so hard about skkr was her damn pupils… it’s hard to draw pupils as dots without it looking scary after all or super off but I think im getting hang of it now… it helps to have a good brush too…

—I wasn’t going to draw anymore and take a break but I guess I am just on a roll this morning lmao …. the urge to draw is Real… anyways so since I was playing homage to some of my old drawings I THOUGHT I HAD TO DRAW SOME ⏳!!!! since SEEIOUSLY!!!! I drew like a bunch of him in Feb I think.. 2022 let me check.. no it was in 2024!!!! seriously I think it was the most I drew a character in a freakin day… got obessed with his design and needed to draw him and now kinda sad that I got over that…!!!!! but seriously!!!!! drawing him was what made me discover some of my fav brushes ever…..!!!!! and since it’s his bday month i had to draw him in…. i really was liking the diff colour drawing for each character so i wanted to get that in too…

—and hello????? why is that one so good…???? I’m seriously shocked!!! I don’t really like the first one I drew like lol why his face look like that lmaooo but second one….?! since I had especially just scribbled in his clothes…?! I think it’s cuz the face was so fun to draw in… and I made it more intense than the anime screencap I ref’ing… in comparison the third I drew was so disappointing lmaoooo. it didn’t even turn out to look like him… but I do think it looked more like him before I ended up trying to shade in some colour… also this red colour is super fun to colour him in…….

—anyways I decided to colour in that one…. and hey….?! it’s coming to look really nicely….?! what the…?! I tried to add some shading too but intially didn’t like it and remembered from that colouring session like days ago… that this artist used some diff colouring for the shading like teal/green and I went with green to see how it’d work and tried to make sure it was darker than the skin so it’d be shading but I think it’s when I used the multiply layer and lowered the opacity that it went YOOOOO. I’m really liking it!!!! the colours look super fun together…. im not completely satisfied with it… maybe if i darkened the overall picture… hey wait let me try that now… (20.10) yeah………No. even when I changed the blue to be green multiply. nah didn’t work

—-anyways that ⏳ drawing REALLY MOTIVATED ME… To Want to draw a proper piece for him but honestly I had like no ideas and then remembered I could borrowse through stuff to get ideas but I haven’t…. Really…. I don’t think my browsing was the best and it’s still on my mind but oh well. I do hope I draw something since it seems like a waist not to…

—I did get around to doing daily figure pracs….! this session kinda sucked though lmaoooooo. like I didn’t really have a general idea of what I really wanted and it was kinda boring… I worked on shoulders since I figured it’s something I needed to work on and did some hands (which uhhhh I think I need to study back hands properly urgh…..) and I was kinda basically all of the place and lol I attempted doing figure prac in that water brush and uh yeah. Didn’t like. Anyways wasn’t feeling it really after filling this page so I didn’t…. But I do like with some of the arm prac I tried to add on face later and that was kinda fun even if portions was sometimes skewed… since it got to doing poses that I don’t usually do if I start with torso and stuff

—this is making me wanna do an exercise where I draw the hand first….. hmmmm. that would be fun and I do want to get a gist of how things are portioned to each other and work in relation so I can jump around in my drawing and draw things from different places and ahahah anyways this session making me realise how weak I am honestly in just everything in knowledge and stuff and I think it’s best to practice the bones and urgh the leg especially since while I have a gist. a lot of my figure drawings feel like guess work which I don’t is working that much for me

—-after this!!!! I did so much video !!!!! watching!!!! found this good in depth anatomy stuff too… that I just watchedddddd. a lot. and I think honestly I just want to watch a lot of anatomy videos to just see and get more in depth and then more closely study the bones in a general way so I have more awareness of them and then try to apply knowledge in my figure pracs….

—-one thing I have to say it’s a shame!!!! I didn’t draw ssk today!!!!!!!!!!!’ :/ I wanna draw him but also I really can’t be bothered right now………. Hopefully before day ends (now:20.22) I will get to doodle him and get some idea for a ⏳ drawing….. I do have some ideas but it gets in other characters and honestly can’t be bothered trying to learn how to draw his sibs too… for a drawing but I make it make it an idea for me to draw hmmm. anyways yeah. I think I will just go into more videos right now and just. get myself immersed in everything….!!!!!

—ah well I didn’t do anyhhhbg else today but I was getting more immersed in trying to study poses/figures and I think I got an exercise that will help… I really want to learn how to get angles right and the relation of pelvis n ribcage so I think it’s good to study poses and try to get how the pelvis would look like in that angle and help using 3D model of a pelvis that I can move around… cuz I really need to study tilt and shit… want to get more in depth study of knowledge so that all left is the drawing part…. Ah well didn’t explain this well but who cares

DAY DIDNT START OFF SO GOOD… 😔😔😔😔

—since I was already drawing from last time I thought I might as well continue into next day and do some figure prac and sIGH. watching the time lapse of my fix redraw honestly bothered me. it felt like I was better than…. and I don’t think how I adopted drawing the ribcage lately is something im a fan of. it’s just something I picked up and I don’t think I like it…

—anyways from that and seeing how my first figure prac wasn’t amazingggg well. it just got to me and then when I tried to draw in my second figure using the way I used to draw in ribcage and stuff it really wasn’t going in great and ahhhhb I was really started to feel depressed about my arts again and all sorts of sad 😭😭😭😭 but I persevered and yayyyy things picked up REALLY nicely in the third one……

—I was drawing from ref but got an idea for how pose could go and so changed it to the idea and oh mannnn it came out so nice ♥️ im so happy ♥️

—but yeah the other two just sucked so I gave up and mannnn it got me sad about my art. maybe drawing character art would cheer me up but idk man. I couldn’t just draw more stuff. I think it’s cuz I feel like I’ve regressed in my art which make me sooooo sad. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 it doesn’t help that I want to draw more nicely but am not at that stage and I just feel frustrated I guess and want to just be more good at art…. SIGH…….

—-oh well. we’ll see how things are a few hours from now. I think I just should just take break from art right now. I did want to focus on my writing lately but haven’t gotten to. maybe I should do that hmmm.

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okay I did have a strong moment where I was really gonna give up on art and everything and then towards end of the day I realised how ridiculous that notion was, considering how I still partially was thinking about art and stuff and cuz I know myself and how many times I wanted to draw my stuff so I know I will be crawling back to art eventually. either I didn’t feel like drawing any more stuff today OR SO IT WAS…

—until I came across this animatir(?) Art of boru+his mom and I had the sudden urge to draw them together now and so I got my iPad to satisfy this bizarre urge and… end up doing some more figure pracs.

—okay tbf, the figure pracs were… already there when I opened procreate and so I just got down to doing it. had realisation I just like.:..? doing these kind of poses () and also man legs are hard and I think I forgot how pelvis looks like and where they are placed and man im terrible at stuff where pelvis justs out… and also at angles where rib is more angled or whatever…? I have struggled with that

—also lol at one point I gave up properly doing these and turned really into more scribble-ly fun… also I was trying to shrug off these being serious stuff and just have fun drawing…. I think I needed that

—I got bored then… and went off to draw the boru+mom idea I had… I didn’t really have an actual idea tbh….. but then I realised I probs should get in some face pracs since I haven’t really drawn hina… and uhhhh yeah it’s been a hot while since I drawn boru and I have been thinking of prev art that made me feel sad when I think of it cuz I feel like my art has not been as good at drawing faces and so I thought to go back to prev brushes but before that in the naru folder I saw some gaa+love face doodles and these weren’t bad….?! anyways after one hard brush face doodle that wasn’t bad (but man do I need to practice drawing shoulders/bust up shots. I went to this other brush that I can’t spell…. And THIS IS WHERR THE MAGIC HAPPENED!!!!!! YES THIS WAS IT!!!!!!!!!

—and well of course not all the drawings were good…. and ahhhhh yeah I need to practice on side

—I wanted to do some skkr practice as you know what happened……yesterday…. I wasn’t gonna do it since it seemed a pain to switch to my ss folder but I just did it. And at this point the better in my pen was fighting for its life so I was quickly trying to get it down and hello??!??? while this is still not reaching the idea way I want to draw her. ITS SO MUCHHHHH BETTERER THAN PREF ATTEMPTS….. IM SO HAPPY…… also I think issue might be her longer narrow face…..? but I am very very pleasantly pleased at how she turned out overall. So happy. These day really turned around in the best way ever and im very happy heh.

surprise….! I actually went and did it lollll and I was only planning to just prep it for future me to do… but since I was already there… I thought I might as well and hmmm. there’s a lot im dissatisfied with.

—I did enlarge the redraw fix (also while looking through the Timelapse I noticed my initial first drawing wasn’t bad at all…?! it was only when I was drawing in legs that somehow I skeweed it up)

—but I realised that the redraw fix was good but it wasn’t what the pose I wanted… I wanted the focus to be the large tshirt… and even if I had made the drawing bigger so her leg was cut off it still didn’t feel right…

—and so I realised it was properly the angle or smth…. so I decided to just go ahead and do a redraw over and man…. the arms were difficult to get… when I remember before with the redraw fix it didn’t at all take me long to scribble in the arms sigh….i need to prac my arms some more. I think it’s cuz lol I kinda forgot to add in the arms when I was doing the body.,. so I did it like last…. a bad habit I need to fix… it did help having the ref my prev drawing…

—also I def do think that I did the pelvis too high this time so I need to fix that when I go back. anyways I drew in the shirt, looked a bit of ref of how over shirts are like and hmmm it does still feel a lil dissatisfying but I at least fixed the angle problem I had before….

—also oh yeah I had problem with the legs.,.. so I need to practice that more. the shape of legs also I think that it would have been helpful if I drew the overall pose and then cropped it to how I liked it… also I do think I might have also had trouble with the legs cuz I did the pelvis higher than its supposed to be lol.

—also lol it’s def noticeable that I drew this at an angle cuz she looks so off so that’s something to work on too but overall happy that I drew it down… I do need to practice faces man though… the faces I drew aren’t as nice looking as I want them to be…. also I do really do practice her hair some more…. but yeah. overall im satisfied with the progress I did. <3

DAY STARTING OFF STRONG….!

—okay I saw some super cute comic from diff fandom and it really got me fired up. I wanted to draw comics of MY otp. 🥺🥺🥺 and I thought going for a more simplistic style would help with my high expectations of likensss that I can’t meet right now 😭😭😭 and so I got to sketching!!!!

—had some kind of idea and it was a very simple one and I just went….to do it. it did seem very ambitious too (with lol a big panel of holding…..hands…….)with the FOCUS but ehhhh just yesterday I was practicing hands I would be fine. they thought<3 lolllll

—I had thoughts of changing the comic to be different but I was like nahhh this is simple let’s stick with it! just go for it! I didn’t want to over complicate stuff or anything

—and so I got to overlarging the sketch and making it big so it can be the size I want it to be… and so I got to drawing over it and that’s when I immediately hit a block….

—the thing was the first rough sketch I did was so much cuter and better…. I feel like when I tried to draw over it….i tried to more capture likeness and then it just didn’t turn out as cute or as good as the rough sketch… so obviously I had to redo that. I did try to fix it at first (seeing the diff:larger eyes extra but ehhhhh it didn’t work) so I just went to redoing it. And ah!!! this attempt was def better!!!!

—also ha………drawing bust shots are Hard……….so I tried to (during first redraw over rough sketch) to also include in bits of torso etc to see how things would look like. I remembered this video I watched that said it’s best to draw things that aren’t in the shot so you can know where things are or smth. my quoting isn’t the best. anyways! it def helped…. also initially wasn’t even gonna include the bit I drew to help imagine the rest so I can draw bust shot… but I ended up including… I think it was good to hand in bits of the arm… also I remembered that they’re were supposed to be holding hands so I had made sure to make the hand their moving to hold hands looked like that

—I don’t even wanna talk about ssk’s hair it was so fcking annoying. clothes…….im so glad that ssk’s clothes is very simple in this era… lol… just a cape…. and I tried to remember to add in wrinkle since hand was moving…. sskkr clothes were simple too…. I’ve gotten used to it while drawing a lot of Srda who wears similar to her mom 💗

—I went straight to lining it… I didn’t even redraw over the hands… was impatient lol and just wanted to get to lining the characters…. and so I went! and did! and lol it’s obvs I started to loose the patience lmaoo. I didn’t take that much care when it came to skkr hair and roughly lined it like I was sketching. I didn’t mind. it looked okay.

—also crazy that I just went into lining the hands like that. my rough sketch of the hands was super rough sketch too lmaooo but somehow…?! it turned out well….?! this is the one im almost surprised at. I thought it’d turn out way worse. I mean yeahhhhh skk’s fingers over hers make no sense but skkr’s turned out better than I’d hope for…..im really proud of them…. so djjdjdjd I just didn’t want to cover up with ugly skk fingers so I made his fingers still continue to not make sense 💗

—finished the line art and honestly at this point…..I wasn’t feeling great about the art………….. which made me feel sad…. anyways I thought to add colour??

—and my GOSH do I need so much practice with color like wtf….picking the right color can be so hard wtf………it was turning out worse and I didn’t likeeee ittt. one bitttt. but I decided to just continue and go to ssk and do his hair and THIS WHERR THINGS CHANGED!!!!!

—like okay I was thinking what color for his hair…..since I did the line art dark purple….black made no sense. I usually just scribble in lines for darkness so I just decided to do the purple line art color for the hair and WHEN I LOWERED THE OPACITY A LITTLE… SO I CAN BETTER SEE THE LINEART SO I CAN COLOUR IN MORE ACCURATELY… TAHTS WHN THE MAGIC BEGANZZZZ

—-I realized I can do this in MONOCOLOUR!!!!!!!!! omg I forgot that so much and by gosh, was I so happy by this discovery!!!!!!!!!’ ahhhhhh I love monocolor so muchhhhh. my fav shit. it turned this into super fun drawing. I had much fun in trying to decide the diff opacities/values of diff stuff and really —when I was doing his cape for the hand…..that’s where the magic really flourished…. ah it made this drawing a very happy one for me… <3333

—it did still a lil empty so here I was just adjusting and trying to figure what to add and how to not make it too much and now looking back this version is totally fine……ahhhhh…..I kinda wish I kept the hearts. I did like how I scribbled it in…..they looked fun….oh well.

—also seriously lol I gotta stop posting stuff as soon as I finish it…. There should be something about looking at stuff with fresh eyes but also man…. I’m just pretty lazy abt that lol.

—RIDING THIS HIGH!!!! I WANTED TO DO ANOTHER SS PIECE!!!! THIS TIME MORE LOOKING LIKE THEN!!!!! I had this pose/idea in mind and just went straight to sketching the idea and very happy with it…. it feels so nice too to just have an idea for pose and get to sketching it and be able to doing it ahhhhhh. also felt very nice when I roughly sketched it in and cleaned it up a lil like the face and stuff… properly adding in some features n stuff. also hmmmm i probs should do something with ssk’s other arm….

—also lmao I really have neglected the feet too much. I need to do something about learning them but also ahhhh I really don’t want to. also did have some struggle with trying to find out if they were sitting or what they were lying on… or kneeling or whatever. floor or actual sofa/chair…. I need to better visualize stuff like that… also I think for me, ss in side view I think im the best in… also man I really need to work on her hair a lot.

—anyways as I was doing this I had started to get a better image of like a story so I kinda wanted to turn this into a comic and while I was drawing the hair that kinda turned into a redraw of face too… I ended up trying to draw the comic bit that I wanted to include and ha………..this where things started to fall apart….. 😭😭😭😭 my problem of deawing ss faces came back to me 😔😔😔

—and ahhh seriously I don’t know what it is. I thought maybe the nose…? So I tried different way but nope. it’s not that. it got me so frustrated n sad I just stopped the wip there. I was already planning to pause anyways since I was getting tired… and plus trying to think of clothes was also too exhausting but sad to have to pause the wip in that moment…

(now looking back at this as I am uploading the images on to here… I think it might be the mouth of her face that’s the problem…..? also lol noticed problems with her side profile face too it looks a bit off but eh well I can always fix that later)

—-ahhhb seriously I need to do ss face sketches…. I looked at the manga to see what it is that im just getting so wrong that feels so frustrated…. and I think maybe the eyes…? is a big one…? and maybe nose???? anyways I just really need to practice!!!! but forgetting that part. today start was very good!!!! im pleasantly surprised!!!!

—I want to go back to the comic sketch that I drafted yesterday…. and also I want to do lots of figure pracs so I don’t go out of practice…. yeah….! and more hand studies… feet I can’t be asked to do. BDJFJKFKD. im just not interested into doing it and don’t care to right now even though I probs should be….. 5.56

6.00 I kinda just wanna do the ss face prac right now but also I really am too tired for more art stuff… Rn…. I just wanna take break….

DAY STARTING OFF STRONG….!

—okay I saw some super cute comic from diff fandom and it really got me fired up. I wanted to draw comics of MY otp. 🥺🥺🥺 and I thought going for a more simplistic style would help with my high expectations of likensss that I can’t meet right now 😭😭😭 and so I got to sketching!!!!

—had some kind of idea and it was a very simple one and I just went….to do it. it did seem very ambitious too (with lol a big panel of holding…..hands…….)with the FOCUS but ehhhh just yesterday I was practicing hands I would be fine. they thought<3 lolllll

—I had thoughts of changing the comic to be different but I was like nahhh this is simple let’s stick with it! just go for it! I didn’t want to over complicate stuff or anything

—and so I got to overlarging the sketch and making it big so it can be the size I want it to be… and so I got to drawing over it and that’s when I immediately hit a block….

—the thing was the first rough sketch I did was so much cuter and better…. I feel like when I tried to draw over it….i tried to more capture likeness and then it just didn’t turn out as cute or as good as the rough sketch… so obviously I had to redo that. I did try to fix it at first (seeing the diff:larger eyes extra but ehhhhh it didn’t work) so I just went to redoing it. And ah!!! this attempt was def better!!!!

—also ha………drawing bust shots are Hard……….so I tried to (during first redraw over rough sketch) to also include in bits of torso etc to see how things would look like. I remembered this video I watched that said it’s best to draw things that aren’t in the shot so you can know where things are or smth. my quoting isn’t the best. anyways! it def helped…. also initially wasn’t even gonna include the bit I drew to help imagine the rest so I can draw bust shot… but I ended up including… I think it was good to hand in bits of the arm… also I remembered that they’re were supposed to be holding hands so I had made sure to make the hand their moving to hold hands looked like that

—I don’t even wanna talk about ssk’s hair it was so fcking annoying. clothes…….im so glad that ssk’s clothes is very simple in this era… lol… just a cape…. and I tried to remember to add in wrinkle since hand was moving…. sskkr clothes were simple too…. I’ve gotten used to it while drawing a lot of Srda who wears similar to her mom 💗

—I went straight to lining it… I didn’t even redraw over the hands… was impatient lol and just wanted to get to lining the characters…. and so I went! and did! and lol it’s obvs I started to loose the patience lmaoo. I didn’t take that much care when it came to skkr hair and roughly lined it like I was sketching. I didn’t mind. it looked okay.

—also crazy that I just went into lining the hands like that. my rough sketch of the hands was super rough sketch too lmaooo but somehow…?! it turned out well….?! this is the one im almost surprised at. I thought it’d turn out way worse. I mean yeahhhhh skk’s fingers over hers make no sense but skkr’s turned out better than I’d hope for…..im really proud of them…. so djjdjdjd I just didn’t want to cover up with ugly skk fingers so I made his fingers still continue to not make sense 💗

—finished the line art and honestly at this point…..I wasn’t feeling great about the art………….. which made me feel sad…. anyways I thought to add colour??

—and my GOSH do I need so much practice with color like wtf….picking the right color can be so hard wtf………it was turning out worse and I didn’t likeeee ittt. one bitttt. but I decided to just continue and go to ssk and do his hair and THIS WHERR THINGS CHANGED!!!!!

—like okay I was thinking what color for his hair…..since I did the line art dark purple….black made no sense. I usually just scribble in lines for darkness so I just decided to do the purple line art color for the hair and WHEN I LOWERED THE OPACITY A LITTLE… SO I CAN BETTER SEE THE LINEART SO I CAN COLOUR IN MORE ACCURATELY… TAHTS WHN THE MAGIC BEGANZZZZ

—-I realized I can do this in MONOCOLOUR!!!!!!!!! omg I forgot that so much and by gosh, was I so happy by this discovery!!!!!!!!!’ ahhhhhh I love monocolor so muchhhhh. my fav shit. it turned this into super fun drawing. I had much fun in trying to decide the diff opacities/values of diff stuff and really —when I was doing his cape for the hand…..that’s where the magic really flourished…. ah it made this drawing a very happy one for me… <3333

—it did still a lil empty so here I was just adjusting and trying to figure what to add and how to not make it too much and now looking back this version is totally fine……ahhhhh…..I kinda wish I kept the hearts. I did like how I scribbled it in…..they looked fun….oh well.

—also seriously lol I gotta stop posting stuff as soon as I finish it…. There should be something about looking at stuff with fresh eyes but also man…. I’m just pretty lazy abt that lol.

—RIDING THIS HIGH!!!! I WANTED TO DO ANOTHER SS PIECE!!!! THIS TIME MORE LOOKING LIKE THEN!!!!! I had this pose/idea in mind and just went straight to sketching the idea and very happy with it…. it feels so nice too to just have an idea for pose and get to sketching it and be able to doing it ahhhhhh. also felt very nice when I roughly sketched it in and cleaned it up a lil like the face and stuff… properly adding in some features n stuff. also hmmmm i probs should do something with ssk’s other arm….

—also lmao I really have neglected the feet too much. I need to do something about learning them but also ahhhh I really don’t want to. also did have some struggle with trying to find out if they were sitting or what they were lying on… or kneeling or whatever. floor or actual sofa/chair…. I need to better visualize stuff like that… also I think for me, ss in side view I think im the best in… also man I really need to work on her hair a lot.

—anyways as I was doing this I had started to get a better image of like a story so I kinda wanted to turn this into a comic and while I was drawing the hair that kinda turned into a redraw of face too… I ended up trying to draw the comic bit that I wanted to include and ha………..this where things started to fall apart….. 😭😭😭😭 my problem of deawing ss faces came back to me 😔😔😔

—and ahhh seriously I don’t know what it is. I thought maybe the nose…? So I tried different way but nope. it’s not that. it got me so frustrated n sad I just stopped the wip there. I was already planning to pause anyways since I was getting tired… and plus trying to think of clothes was also too exhausting but sad to have to pause the wip in that moment…

(now looking back at this as I am uploading the images on to here… I think it might be the mouth of her face that’s the problem…..? also lol noticed problems with her side profile face too it looks a bit off but eh well I can always fix that later)

—-ahhhb seriously I need to do ss face sketches…. I looked at the manga to see what it is that im just getting so wrong that feels so frustrated…. and I think maybe the eyes…? is a big one…? and maybe nose???? anyways I just really need to practice!!!! but forgetting that part. today start was very good!!!! im pleasantly surprised!!!!

—I want to go back to the comic sketch that I drafted yesterday…. and also I want to do lots of figure pracs so I don’t go out of practice…. yeah….! and more hand studies… feet I can’t be asked to do. BDJFJKFKD. im just not interested into doing it and don’t care to right now even though I probs should be….. 5.56

6.00 I kinda just wanna do the ss face prac right now but also I really am too tired for more art stuff… Rn…. I just wanna take break….

I really did mean for break and DID have it. Just not as large of a break that I thought but did feel enough of a break to be one…I think I said break too many times I’ve lost the direction of where I was going with this

—ANYWAYS. it was very meaningful and very good for me. like I tried to not at all think about art and enjoy other stuff and well yeah I came back to art eventually and did urges to draw but I didn’t succumb to it mainly because I didn’t feel ready but I did start to just…watch videos.

—a lot of informative anatomy videos and stuff and like got around to wanting to draw then….and this time I really just wanted to scribble thingies in

—and just ehhh I forgot my main first thoughts as I was doing it tbh. but I know that I was focusing on the arms and stuff and I wanted to do it like in drawing circle for elbow first etc and then I wanted to focus on the pelvis. I did an overdraw for one of the figures too of how the pelvis would be like and then draw over it how the legs and stuff would connect cuz the first one looked like ??? what was that lol

—but I still didn’t feel like I really how things are structured and how legs are connected to it and so videos helped a lot in that 😌 I had like geneallllk understanding but it wasn’t enough and like looking at pelvis diff angles and stuff wasn’t enough either and I felt like I didn’t understand properly how leg was connected but I think I got it now….? I say that but I still feel like I need to strength my knowledge some more. it’s not as strong as it can be.

—anyways after that I was doing other stuff but still wanted to draw so I got out the pen n paper

—I didn’t have any real goal….i just had urge to draw smth…. Did some random doodles and kinda focusing a bit on drawing boxes and stuff I saw around me. Practicing my lines too (and lol I feel like my line on paper is so much better than line on digital….. idk if it’s just the texture of paper… rather than the glass or iPad but it feels like? my line control is so much better lol maybe it’s the knock off Apple Pencil that’s just bad) (sigh why did my pencil have to break 😔)

—also Drew juv n srda for a bit since I was getting bored of doing random stuff and ahhhh honestly just kinda feeling upset cuz I felt like I completely forgot everything 😭😭😭 on how to even sketch in a decent figure pose… 😔😔😔

—and I forgot what happened in the middle lol…? but I think I watched more videos and stuff and then tried to contrast the figure pose again after some time and this time…? I think I got it…! also one thing I realised with the arms is that lollll I’ve been forgetting to draw in deltoid…fjjfjfjdj. anyways very happy with the lower part of this page. I feel like that’s when I started to Get It

—I’ve been wanting to draw hands better but I think the problem with how I’ve been drawing/kinda practising hands before is that when I tried to draw what I saw in refs the problem was that I felt like my knowledge of hand was insufficient like I knew general/gist stuff but like… I didn’t feel like I had the best understanding so I watched a lot of hand anatomy stuff (thank you proko…) and it helped in getting more understanding of what’s going on with the hands and stuff and so when I was sketching in this time… it felt more fun and I liked this session of drawing hands to any other even if they didn’t turn out well cuz I felt like my understanding was much better.

—also added in some finger single studies since that’s what im very weak in also I feel like I need to better understand the fat/muscle sides of the pinkie and stuff since I don’t think I get that well.. I’ve been using method of drawing in the knuckle/joints of where figures would be after drawing in palm and it helped really great with getting the spacing and stuff down.

—like example when I say I didn’t get the understanding of hand before: like I knew how hand works and stuff but like I feel my understanding/structure of the hand was like…. very not fresh? but now I can imagine better and know what’s there. that I just need to focus on how to draw it and feel for how it all connects and stuff…. that’s what I mean

—I think the best hand kinda turned out to be the one where I didn’t do the whole drawing in the joints for hands… it was the second last hand I did and I felts like I had general idea of where the fingers go so I just drew in the general shape and it was much easier to clearly draw in the bend of the fingers that it turned out to look better… idk how to put this into words but yeah…

—I honestly did have plans to do more figure studies and stuff but I got swept by things and it didn’t come to be but yeah. very happy n satisfied with how this day turned out to be. the break was very well needed<3 it’s kind of funny since it doesn’t seem like a break but for real. I usually think of art 24/7 and even when im not drawing im usually thinking about it or watching videos about it. and well taking this break where I purposely drew my attention away from that was very good. I need that break. I think from here things are gonna go slow and stuff. Which is a pace I probs need. to ingest more construction/understanding information that I can then apply/strength my figure prac drawing….

—one thing I do want to focus on is the heads. like I noticed when I draw heads…..like for normal angles the problem is that I don’t have a structure and stuff for chin/jaw etc and it’s kind of….a lot of fumbling.? so I think I just need to get better understanding and think of way to draw it in a way that’s less more fumbling lol.

mannnn im getting slight urge to draw but refusing to give in 😤

ahaha I wasnt actually any more stuff but welllllll

—I was watching videos and i wanted to just try drawing and this time just focus on scribble and gesture and whatever. and I think it helped a lot in just getting myself to loosen up and not think at all even tho that was a bit hard since I was slowing down in scribbled to get things right. anyways I realised that I was doing arms last so I decided to then look at the ref for a while longer than draw with knowledge of how the arms are supposed to be like that.,, and then I redraw the same poses, seeing what I did wrong (drawing elbow low and too far out) and then

—I wanted to draw over it in more finalised way and ahhh… that’s when it clicked. the way I started to feel actual struggle over my arms is when I was drawing character stuff and that’s like — it requires more detail? to arm? I guess. like character drawing is diff from figure prac.,,. while I might have ref to work from, I have to adjust and it’s about getting ideas across… too.. and well. the drawing has to look more finished too. and since I just draw arms for figure prac I don’t focus on it as much but when I drew character drawings….

—anyways this exercise was good for just loosening myself and quite fun that way…

today’s art:

—okay so I just did really VIDEOS!!!! and then went to through this rabbit hole and found.. well I guess first I should start with. I really needed to learn how arm connects to the shoulder asince I think I just forgot????and my gosh I found this super good comprehensive video that did demonstration and everything. it was really good

—honestly after that I went through rabbit hole of seeing his other videos and then well… I found this super long skull video and was watching and then it started to do a draw with me sides of skull and I did want to follow through so I just decided to do that later when I could draw with… and well then.. I just went off to do other stuff

—i don’t plan on drawing today and if i was, probs just general studies but ahaha i was on x and it really inspired to draw my otp and SO I PLANNED TO. but then it turned into redraw of someone else’s art and then into prac ahahah.

—the first one wasn’t great at all… and I just wanted to focus on the pose instead!!! and see what I was doing wrong etc. One of videos I watched made me think about that. Talking about focusing on analytic and like looking at what you drew and finding out what you did wrong and etc. And I do think that was good thing to be aware off and so I did that… and well even if I don’t think the last one turned out amazing or anything I do think it made me realise stuff. like how in the pose it was the arm that was stretching out to the knee…

—and so since I liked doing this n thought was fun/nice I did another pose study! And oh man the hands were HARD tin this one I still have no idea on how to fix it and just gave up in the end lolllllllll. Arms. Arms were hard. Why do I keep saying hands when im talking about arm lollll

—but one think I did realise that I was doing wrong was when drawing lower part, in trying to get the legs right, I forgot about the butt that was actually sitting down. and cut it off since the crouch wouldn’t be visible… and so it was helpful in remembering stuff like that. and trying to visual posing better: like it made next time to remember to think of whole pose and how it interactions with whatever it’s doing and even bits that can’t be seen. like being aware of stuff like that is really important.

—and well after that wasn’t feeling like doing any more pose studies and well… I SKETCHED IN THE IDEA FOR THE COMIC I HAD???? very happy about that

—okay lol I did think of doing some kind of script but cba to and was keeping in mind this comic tips/tutorial I came by that stuck with me yesterday. for first panel I very obviously can’t draw backgrounds and just couldn’t be bothered to look up refs and just scribbled in general idea I had for it. and for the next one I tried hard to make sure my figure was reading well (to me) like the general idea I wanted for it and later in did feel in general idea of background which im happy about.

—the initial idea that started this was the next two panels. ahaha I really just wanted to draw him being tied. can’t believe they did that. I mean I can but still lololol. and I do like the close up in next panel from diff angle. also this made me concious of how expressions ain’t my strong suit lmaoooo.

—and well after that is where things started to fall apart. like I had general idea in my head of what I wanted but I feel like the pacing n etc wasn’t great at all but I think it was good to get the general idea and everything tdown… so im happy that I actually sketched in the idea for comic. soooo happy. ^^

—and welllll remember juv art from yesterday. I realised after a bit that she doesn’t like she was sitting at all lololol despite that being intention. cuz I feel like I was so focused on getting the length of leg correct that I forgot that she was sitting so her knee would be higher. and well. I just wanted to fix that.

—added a bench because why not. and honestly im…..not sure that I did fix it completely. It still seems off…? but ehhhh i got her to look like she was sitting so that’s a win.

—I wasn’t planning to draw anymore but while taking screenshot for this post…I ended up just drawing some figure pracs and ahahah these didn’t go well at all. it was alright. But like mabnnnn even while keeping in mind what the video said (the dots around the arm meaning to represent scapula so just to keep in mind while drawing the arm) but ehhjhhhb I feel like like my arms isn’t at alll good. like I feel like I just forgot everything. so I think it’s best to watch videos of people drawing …. that always helps.

—and well but I didn’t want to end it there and wanted to draw something nice……to finish the the day with… something that would feel nice about. and yeah no that didn’t happen. 😔😔😔

—I thought while it’s been a while since I drew my lil srda too<3 I should do it but yeah no. it went horribly. well that’s kind of an exaggeration. more like I just…? don’t like….? I think it might have to do with the brush and how out of prac I man with drawing her hair… cuz man I have def drawn better srdas in my time. I feel like it might be her expression so. I changed it but it wasn’t. So I did an overdraw just because but it wasnt lollll. and I do think it’s funny how her expression gets more sadder. like the way I felt (more disappointed) when drawing it LMAO

I actually like the first one drew the most…… 😔😔😔

today’s art:

—okay so I just did really VIDEOS!!!! and then went to through this rabbit hole and found.. well I guess first I should start with. I really needed to learn how arm connects to the shoulder asince I think I just forgot????and my gosh I found this super good comprehensive video that did demonstration and everything. it was really good

—honestly after that I went through rabbit hole of seeing his other videos and then well… I found this super long skull video and was watching and then it started to do a draw with me sides of skull and I did want to follow through so I just decided to do that later when I could draw with… and well then.. I just went off to do other stuff

—i don’t plan on drawing today and if i was, probs just general studies but ahaha i was on x and it really inspired to draw my otp and SO I PLANNED TO. but then it turned into redraw of someone else’s art and then into prac ahahah.

—the first one wasn’t great at all… and I just wanted to focus on the pose instead!!! and see what I was doing wrong etc. One of videos I watched made me think about that. Talking about focusing on analytic and like looking at what you drew and finding out what you did wrong and etc. And I do think that was good thing to be aware off and so I did that… and well even if I don’t think the last one turned out amazing or anything I do think it made me realise stuff. like how in the pose it was the arm that was stretching out to the knee…

—and so since I liked doing this n thought was fun/nice I did another pose study! And oh man the hands were HARD tin this one I still have no idea on how to fix it and just gave up in the end lolllllllll. Arms. Arms were hard. Why do I keep saying hands when im talking about arm lollll

—but one think I did realise that I was doing wrong was when drawing lower part, in trying to get the legs right, I forgot about the butt that was actually sitting down. and cut it off since the crouch wouldn’t be visible… and so it was helpful in remembering stuff like that. and trying to visual posing better: like it made next time to remember to think of whole pose and how it interactions with whatever it’s doing and even bits that can’t be seen. like being aware of stuff like that is really important.

—and well after that wasn’t feeling like doing any more pose studies and well… I SKETCHED IN THE IDEA FOR THE COMIC I HAD???? very happy about that

—okay lol I did think of doing some kind of script but cba to and was keeping in mind this comic tips/tutorial I came by that stuck with me yesterday. for first panel I very obviously can’t draw backgrounds and just couldn’t be bothered to look up refs and just scribbled in general idea I had for it. and for the next one I tried hard to make sure my figure was reading well (to me) like the general idea I wanted for it and later in did feel in general idea of background which im happy about.

—the initial idea that started this was the next two panels. ahaha I really just wanted to draw him being tied. can’t believe they did that. I mean I can but still lololol. and I do like the close up in next panel from diff angle. also this made me concious of how expressions ain’t my strong suit lmaoooo.

—and well after that is where things started to fall apart. like I had general idea in my head of what I wanted but I feel like the pacing n etc wasn’t great at all but I think it was good to get the general idea and everything tdown… so im happy that I actually sketched in the idea for comic. soooo happy. ^^

—and welllll remember juv art from yesterday. I realised after a bit that she doesn’t like she was sitting at all lololol despite that being intention. cuz I feel like I was so focused on getting the length of leg correct that I forgot that she was sitting so her knee would be higher. and well. I just wanted to fix that.

—added a bench because why not. and honestly im…..not sure that I did fix it completely. It still seems off…? but ehhhh i got her to look like she was sitting so that’s a win.

—I wasn’t planning to draw anymore but while taking screenshot for this post…I ended up just drawing some figure pracs and ahahah these didn’t go well at all. it was alright. But like mabnnnn even while keeping in mind what the video said (the dots around the arm meaning to represent scapula so just to keep in mind while drawing the arm) but ehhjhhhb I feel like like my arms isn’t at alll good. like I feel like I just forgot everything. so I think it’s best to watch videos of people drawing …. that always helps.

—and well but I didn’t want to end it there and wanted to draw something nice……to finish the the day with… something that would feel nice about. and yeah no that didn’t happen. 😔😔😔

—I thought while it’s been a while since I drew my lil srda too<3 I should do it but yeah no. it went horribly. well that’s kind of an exaggeration. more like I just…? don’t like….? I think it might have to do with the brush and how out of prac I man with drawing her hair… cuz man I have def drawn better srdas in my time. I feel like it might be her expression so. I changed it but it wasn’t. So I did an overdraw just because but it wasnt lollll. and I do think it’s funny how her expression gets more sadder. like the way I felt (more disappointed) when drawing it LMAO

I actually like the first one drew the most…… 😔😔😔

think I’ll take a break now from art’ing and brush up on my knowledge of how things work and connect… specially arms… urgh…..

SIGHHHHHH today was certainly a day I guess. like it started off great…? I got sudden surge of wanting to improve and it was alright. liked the few figure stuff I did in the beginning…

—it started off STROVG!!! like look my first page of figures and the legs.,,. way better than I usually draw it. cuz I was paying special attention to them and was proud of it.,,

—I lol also did try to lmaooo do rib cage studies but gave up after a bit and the bit of the guy torso in the page was me following YouTube video. thee one I said that I found and was excited to follow in the future since it’s what I was looking for and welllll. I think I jumped the gun there. I do like the way they drew ribcage and the way their method of drawing felt like it was 3D but idk how to explain it when I followed it but like…? yeah idk how to explain but I do think I got something from it I guess.

—I also tried hands too but yeahhh my god hands r just too much. 😔 I need to practice them…….

—-and ehhhh the second page idk what happened but it felt like it wasn’t going well again but I did like the lil character interaction figures I did though so after a bit just gave up on that.

—-juv time!!!!!!!!! I wanted to draw her and so I did and that doodles of her face really and I do like how some of these turned out and I was just also seeing diff brushes and stuff…

—AND SO I WENT TO DRAW HER…. picked a ref that I thought would be perfect pose for her and that’s when things started to fall apart…. 😐

—I didn’t like it at all 😭😭😭like I just didn’t now what it was??? yeah I knew the pose was iffy but I think it had to do with her face or whatever and well as you can see I went back later to redraw it and lol I think I butchered the pose a bit again but anyways I think I got the face a little better? Since I kind of like it better but ehhhh still wasn’t satisfied also. I wasn’t sure as to what outfit to put her in either but just remembered this one cover where she wore that kind of outfit or similar from what I remember and just put her in that….

-anyways it did really bother me how i just couldn’t get her right so i did some more practices focusing on that… i was cooking something at the time and so ahaha i didn’t want to bring my iPad down and lol as you can see on the paper there’s stains of oil fjjfjfjfk. and honestly?! I don’t think im satisfied with this session at all… I mean some of them turned out great but ahhhh so annoyed I can’t reproduce it. i also tried changing her nose a bit here n there and mmmmh don’t know if I like it.

—well after that I just wanted to draw her to see if I got it and just to draw. and welllll. I certainly need to work on sittibg poses cuz wtf this was hard also ahaha I wanted to adjust the pose of ref so she’s leaning on her hand and lollll that was hard like I had a feeling of knowing what I was doing wrong but it was somehow hard to get it down?! I even in the end just took a pic of myself in the pose and tried to doodle it in but ahhhh still haven’t got the pose right but at least I think…? I got the gist of it. one big issue was I think the way her legs was that way that’s why it didn’t feel like she was leaning on her hand…. and I do kinda like how the top initial one turned out even if her pose doesn’t make sense. also man I really shouldn’t use this pencil for sketching in the lines… of pose… yeah I realised that a part of why I didn’t feel like I wasn’t getting her right is cuz I wasn’t using this brush. idk what it is but the roughness of it just seems perfect for her but problem is I can’t use it while doing poses since I have tendency to just scribble or to work over my lines and it’s a bad habit that I don’t like since it makes things harder, I feel like but also cba to go to the other brush… since I was just already using this one lol

—freaking heck…. This one…. alright man the pose the one that freaking drained me of everything ahahahah….. alright…. so I wanted to draw more and found this ref that I changed a bit… and my GOD was the hands so freaking hard to get. just look at my struggle below 💀

—honestly it’s a miracle that i managed that turned out actually good…?! im so surprised tbh that the end result wasn’t so bad… but also lololol i think i did have general idea for what the pose was meant to convey but lmao I didn’t do it in a way at all that conveyed it properly and it just doesn’t make sense now lololol. and man I do feel like not using that pencil brush here would have helped a lot more. also im proud of myself too, the way that yeah it was a struggle and annoying but it… didn’t feel so frustrating to point of quitting? more like wow after this I don’t want to do art for another 100 years. im. TIRED

—i mean yeah also I was sooo disspirited. like I thought I was lil better at this ahhhh. I feel like also I was getting lazy at drawing out structure for pelvis which is dangerous habit to fall on since it’s helps to reinforce what’s that and how the legs and whatever work… I think that’s what happened with my arms like I had general idea of what happens with arms/shoulders but because I just drew it out like whatever. yeahhhh things started to fall apart since I didn’t reinforce shit.

—and well yeah. after that I did draw in another juv but ahahah I was so exhausted by this point I just didn’t want to finish it or whatever and gave up on it lololol. exhausted!!!!

—I didn’t think that I would be doing any more art but I should know myself by now and yeah I did some general figure studies. but wow my heart wasn’t in it. also man…… the arms…… 😔😔😔

ahhhh came across other peoples figure practices and im so jealous…. It looks so good….

but at the same time i know that my practice now isn’t like an effective method. if o wanted to get better… i should study forms of ribcage n pelvis and how they interaction in diff poses/angles and the forms of the muscles on them….. but at the same I really can’t be bothered with stuff like that so my skill level makes sense but ahhhhh its gets to me some times fjfjjfkdkdk. I feel like best way to motive me is to just draw character shit and be like fckkkk if I want to draw this I have to be able to learn how to…… but also drawing character shit is takes Effort and I can’t be bothered either right now…. But to give myself credit I did a lot of character drawings (okay it was two recently but i also did a lot of stuff last month!!! so!!!!) im actually doing a lot 😌

and I DID get better!!!!!!!!!! like two months ago…. I couldn’t do shit…. as I can now 😌

just stuff I have to consistently remind myself when I get depressed about this stuff ahahaha

lolll I went to sleep and then well. after that I just really couldn’t bothered… like I wasn’t in the mood for the plan…..

but at least I got in more figure pracs fjfkfkkf

— I did want to focus more on character interaction figures but lol I figured it’s best to just figure doodle… since the blergh feelings was still there and I didn’t like any of the stuff I sketched but at a certain point^^ (23.34) the one I scribbled next to… I started to feel great about them!!!! like lol even if they didn’t look good…

—at a certain point I got bored and did some line practices and then some arm pracs too… since lol when I scribble my figures, I just do straight lines for arms.,. And I think today I just totally forgot how to block in arms at all… they looked worse than normal so I decided to do some arm pracs… just to get some feel for it… first two or three were refs and then I did none with refs…

—did a face study and then lol went back to figure immediately since I was still scarred from this morning n yesterday lmwooooo… I think I learned my lesson. doing face studies n figure studies side by side lollll. also lmao looking at these my legs/hips are atrocious 😂😂 I should really do a proper study but at the same time I can’t be bothered and plus I don’t really like to do isolated studies for the limbs….. like look at my feet fjfjfjfjjf. also wow im thinking that I forgot how to draw the shoulders I need to practise those closely

—I reallyyyy did want to character drawings or even continue those wips but ahhhhhhh I never get to doing them… I think it’s cuz I know they’re gonna be Effort that I just don’t want to….. 😔😔😔😔 it’s soooo annoying. COMON ME. DRAW SHIT!!!!

very blergh day to start…. 😔😔😔

—today surprisingly started to draw in the morning… ahaha I don’t usually… even took my pencil towards to sketch… and thought to start with heads from yesterday… and just not looking at refs to see where I am… and well that first one came really well… I Like… but ahaha yeah I def need to practice heads more ahhhhh… well at least they don’t look bad……?

—and then I went to do usual figure pracs but I don’t know if it was the heads that three me off but man…. I feel like I was stumbling and I didn’t know what I was doing 😭😭😭 everything felt so blergh…

— took a lil break and came back to see if drawing fav character to draw would help but omg I think her magic fell?! cuz it didn’t feel any fun to draw her wtf……. I was planning to lmao continue drawing other wips but that was too much work to try so I went to doodle her but even she… didn’t help…. 😔😔😔

—but looking at these doodles now I am feeling great looking at her….. maybe it would really help to try to doodle shit… even if the procress might feel urgh/not great I am sure I will feel a lot satisfied and happy to see myself draw a character drawing. maybe even a small comic for ft… since 😳 im getting ideas….?! okay so plan for next stuff!!! i don’t feel like drawing now…

ahhh… I want to cry :’ today art no good… arghhhhh

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COLOURRR TIMEEEE

like lol I did genuinely have a diff plan today which was to DRAW DRAW DRAWW character stuff!!! plus have some figure prac dibble in. since this morning n afternoon, I’ve been watching some videos. faces n clothes. and honestly didn’t help that much but the clothes one I think I got more better understanding…? And what I need to study I guess.

but ahahah while I did want to draw I didn’t feel urge to get pen and draw until… I came across this beautiful colour sky thingy on yt background for a song and wow it suddenly got me wanting to do colour studying!!!! so I got my pen and cracked to it.

— one thing I wanted to focus on is the ability to just pick colour and feel for the right one which I think…(?) I’m getting. still very weak on that especially that yellow one down there. not satisfied since I wasn’t able to get the overall genera colour scheme awww.

—like initially just wanted to see how diff colour picks would be easier or not against diff value backgrounds….

—for the person colour drawing I wanted to capture their overall skin colour and I think I went too overright with the Oliver. since they had more lighter skin. but at least my second attempt is better than the first which I think turned out overalll muddy because I used a green undertone but wasn’tttt entirely sure of how to use it.

— I do like how the blockage for the darker skin sphere turned out. I remembered these videos I watched a whileee ago and the more saturated colour picks and it def helped…!

— I stopped for a bit since I felt like this was starting to become aimless and I think would be better if I did a full colour for a character and then figure out my weakpoints to study on… also this was god since I was able to get in some figure study ^^ and something I realised/well more like reinforced is the drawing the legs….. and just understanding how it more less connects from the body. also ahahah I feel like it’s better if I start to work on studying the feet at one point….

— also I started to think that I want to do more comic focused today as well. it would be really good in realising what stuff I’m missing in gaps and just the prac down. I’m havin some problem in head just finalising vague ideas so I think it’s best to get something down… also do have some urge to just draw on paper today… also I really want to draw this character on motorcycle!!!’ it’s something I’ve never done so I know it won’t turn out amazibgggg and shit but. well. it’s best to try right!!!!! and ahhhh I really just wanna draw characters interacting man….. so many to-do…. piority is really that comic stuff since I can have character interactions and general comic prac which is what I need!!!!!! 15.07

ahahah… yeah I did say all of that. but I didn’t do it<3 :’

— honestly wasn’t feeling it but I felt like doing some figure pracs anyways so I just got to doing it. I wanted to focus on character interactions and lolll immediately came across this hard one… lying pose…. I honestly wasn’t feeling it so lol I put low effort into most of these… but I do think it was good and lil fun now realising doing more varied poses… also ahahah I do like the multi coloured look… I realised I still had the green from the colouring session before on when I went to do the figure prac and wanted to see how it would be like to do in all these diff colours and it looks fun to look at. but as per usual, I do like/prefer more brighter pink dark blues and black to draw in… purple when I’m in mood.

—I included hand studies and oh boy those are hard :’ ahaha…. like wtf is this under me…. Idk what I was trying lmaoooooo.

—also remembered to include some lil twisting bodies pracs since I remember I suckedddd at that yesterday ahahah. and I think I got it(?) a lil bit…. like the way the shoulder one one side is almost not seen and like doing that paper thing helped at first to see the twist…

—and well since I completed to fill the page I wasn’t really feeling doing another page but also didn’t want to stop drawing… and well remember how I said I wanted to do comic? Well I thought… what if I worked on stuff I already have…? And what do you know! That way worked! The roommate one… I didn’t actually start anything for it lmao but drawing some idea I had for poses anyways… so I just got straight into it. And uhhhh not bad. Actually quite proud of that first panel…. I did have some idea of them being outside and I don’t think I like how I filled the background since I wanted them to be more outside so something to change. also I’ve been looking closer at mangas I’ve been reading and they do tend to have panels with characters smaller and I wanted to try that. and I realised that it’s best to have a script since while I had vague idea of what I wanted in this scene it’s. kind of hard to think of the sequence just like that. but honestly cba to write out the script for this comic today LMAO so yeahhhhh

—but I did want to continue drawing and did have some urge to draw some srda and I did have this some kind of idea in my head for her pose but ehhhhhh lol when I put it to paper lmaooo it def felt so….?!?! like what was even the plan for the pose… nothing about it made sense?? why would she be doing that???? also wow I really suck at drawing the face I realise. it bothered me a lot lmaooo . like pls why does she look like that 😭😭😭

— I honestly didn’t think that I’d be doing other drawings and plus the prev one took all the drawing want to draw at all from me lmaooo. but ehhhh i got back to picking up my pen since i was back in my bed anyways… and this time i wanted to focus on faces… but i def did feel like this was super aimless… and just doing whatever and trying to get some faces in diff angles and i think the problem is that my understandings of faces structure is terrible…like i knowww the gist and general of the stuff. but well it’s more the jaw I guess and idk what it is i feel like im not completely understanding it like how im understanding and now the figure better…. so i guess its time to watch some videos and just also general videos of people drawing faces…. I feel like that would help I guess…. Also man it did feel super sad since how terrible my faces is…. I think it’s cuz I always prided myself on doing good faces and well, I know that now my “eye” has gotten better i wasn’t really that good at faces. maybe yeah for straight ones but ahh… still…. It’s kind of sad…..

Remember how I said I wasn’t gonna do anything for today welllllllll.

— like okay first of all, I thought not doing anything today for the sake of not doing anything was kinda a waste since I didn’t want to go out of prac for no reason. lol remember those days I took off drawing prac in dec and yeah ahahah it showed when I got back into it

— also I saw this vid of someone prac art and it got me really fired up; also man being surrounded by all these good art also made me so jealous and want to get better so. yeah<3

—one thing I learned today, while trying to get of drawing the rectangles, is to imagine the way the limbs are gonna be like before I put pen to paper. it’s really important and helps a lot. and also realised it’s really helpful to have stick figures or rough sketching to figure out pose or whatever but it also doesn’t mean that I have to draw over it, since it loooks better when I redraw it knowing how the pose looks like…

— also when doing my pracs from ref… I tried to adjust the pose in some way so keep practicing imagination stuff. and like to challenge myself and to see like where I need weak one. also realised that why some of this is getting boring is cuz I’m not doing more challenging angles and diff stuff so that’s def up for when doing prac for next time

— also tried to get in some clothes prac. I wanna watch some clothes/folding stuff to get better understanding of it all. I didn’t get to doing that since I wanted to leave clothing prac for when I’m ready/wanted to and well! the time is now ahaha… also while trying to diff pose prac I also realised I barely do!!! any back poses!!!

— so I had to get those in…. and ahahah yeah I’m def out of practice with those…

— while doing figure pracs, I really did want to draw some characters… but ehhhh o really couldn’t be bothered to change the canvas to diff folders… anyways I did end up going to this prev ideas I had and… well I wanted to try to redraw it and it’s nice before the redraw to see this art from two months ago and see already what’s wrong with it… and ahhh the satisfaction to able to just draw it… I even did figure scribble next to it to figure out how I wanted the legs and stuff… and ahhhh it really was so satisfying to see how quickly I get get it down and the way it wasn’t any struggle at all to draw compared to before. IM REALLY FEELING THE PROGRESS!!!! It made me want to look at other old stuff and wow yeah. But also mannn this is ALSO why I wanna draw!!!!!!! Cuz I can just see it and feel the greatest satisfaction of “improvement” ahahah

— cuz wow I def feel like I don’t have enough of this bad art!!!! I need to create more stuff!!!!! but i guess problem is that while I want to… I can’t also be bothered with steps to getting to the canvas lololol.

— I did end up, drafting some ss comic…

— I had some idea but realised quickly how vague it was, so i tried to scribble down some situations and got something… and ahahah this is good to get in background prac… and comic too…. after first draft my energy levels reached zero for this and I couldn’t be bothered to continue at that time…. I think this is cuz I wanted to keep those drafts and not erase and rub over it…,. so next time I think it’s best to already keep some kind of squares for diff drafts so I can just already draw into it… thing I wanted to keep in mind while drawing this comic: is to not keep thinks complicated while chasing that “perfect” comic I want… cuz I think it’s fine to have comics I’m not satisfied with… and to keep it “simple” too… its way I can learn and to not get caught up in details…

— I remember this redraw I wanted to do of the anime watch.,, and ahahaha I got distracted a bit and so there was like only two mins of the day left and lololol I quickly sketched it in… I feel like this will be a good prac for background awareness…. and keeping characters interacting with the background and well hmmm. I don’t think I wanna to a 1.1 redraw. I wanted something that would capture what I really liked of the moment and wanted to redraw but don’t know how to do that yet. I just thought they looked super cute n funny/adorable how they were peaking out from the stones ahahah… and as to how I would try to capture that feeling in my redraw… no clue but something to think on I guess

FOR TMMR!!!! I really want to get in more character interactions prac and I just wanna draw characters,.. and I want to get in some face/expression pracs in diff angles too!! I totally forgot about those….