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Ed and Mustang’s relationship is really funny because Ed thinks they’re in an equally-matched battle of wills and it’s a matter of time until his inevitable victory and Mustang thinks that it’s an unfair contest and also that he’s the winner and the truth of it is that both of them are losers because one of them is a thirty year old man in a years long feud with a teenager and the other one is a teenager whose second biggest preoccupation in life is getting one over on his boss

A little bit more of Jack and Claire being siblings and going on hunts together 

- AIRBNB BY AIMEE VANT

Prompt - “use your words, baby”

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hello! Using this prompt for my royal trans buck au that should be out in Nov (praying that the days I've lost don't fuck me up)

Eddie ducks his head down, kissing up his neck and then along his jaw. He lets out a shaky breath, hands still glued to the wall. 

“Everyone talked about what a charmer you were, how you had all these people falling over you from just a glance in their direction. So what is about me that makes you so nervous?” Eddie makes eye contact with him again and he tries to chuckle a bit, playing off his nervousness, but it comes out as more of a whimper than anything. Eddie leans back into his neck, teeth lightly scraping there. 

“Use your words, baby.” And Buck lets out a ragged moan he’s never heard from himself before. He wants to clasp a hand over his mouth and prevent something like that from happening again, but Eddie is smiling into his neck so he assumes something is going right. 

“Not sure you really want me to answer,” Buck tries to save face and play it cool. 

“What’s that supposed to mean?” 

“The way you’re touching me… right in the hallways where anyone can see…” Buck tsks, “it’s indecent, even for a king, my lord.” His heart hammers as Eddie grinds forward, hips probably searching for a bulge they won’t find and so Buck turns around. It’s not the smoothest transition because Eddie is so close to him, but he allows Buck the space to move once he realizes what’s happening. 

“Well I could also say the way you look has filled me with indecent thoughts for days. And I would love for the chance to act on them. 

Losing my mind over “If I can help ease this burden for them why would I not do that?” because Buck’s constantly questioning his worth and his purpose, because he thinks he’s never been good enough—so to justify his existence he thinks he has to be the best—he has to save everyone even at the expense of his own safety—he has to be uSEFUL.

But despite all of that he’s mulling it over with one of his best friends while they’re both three sheets to the wind because deep down he knows he can’t go through with it adjsksks

This is stunning!! I just want them to have one soft moment. All of them.

just give them a hug.

Weighted blanket is not enough I need someone to do this to me

So, we all know that Eddie hated Buck so easily saying he was the one who should’ve been shot.

But can we take a minute to acknowledge how much it also hurt him? He’s not just exasperated. There’s a reason he’s so emotional talking about it later.

It’s absolutely gut wrenching to hear someone you love talk about themselves like they don’t matter. Like their life doesn’t matter. And Eddie has been listening to Buck’s self-deprecation for a long time.

This was just what finally broke him.

the way causal intimacy has me on chokehold ........ a gentle nudge, hand on thighs, knees touching, leaning towards you, legs intertwined, gestures that scream i love you without saying it .... yes pls

and to remind you that you have a family to come home to.

so, um.

i've been thinking about "pilgrimage" for a while now. and about how we still haven't reached much of a consensus on what we're expecting from that episode.

pilgrimage. definition: a journey, especially a long and difficult one, made to some sacred or important place, typically as an act of devotion, or in search of deeper meaning, healing, or understanding.

the way this show works, i'm expecting to see all the characters on their own personal pilgrimages. some of them are easier to imagine than others.

maddie and chim taking jee-yun on her first beach trip, maybe. maddie, reconciling and processing both her harrowing, terrifying time in the ocean and her fear of jee near water. chimney, there to support her. both of them anchoring and grounding themselves in each other's presence, in the security of their family, and in the comfort that comes from teaching jee-yun to swim. watching her safely doggy paddle and splash and play in the shallow water, a lifejacket on her shoulders and a smile on her face, with the knowledge that she's safe and happy with both of her parents.

hen, finishing med school. becoming a doctor, finally, after her long journey of stress and studying and sleepless nights. she worked so, so hard to get here, and it was worth it. she doesn't necessarily have to leave her job and her home at the 118- she could be captain there someday, after all! but she's armed with so much more knowledge now, knowledge and training that will help her save even more lives, whether that's in a hospital or out in the field. and that medical license? it will help her advocate for every patient she treats, especially the ones overlooked by the medical system- her mom comes to mind. it forces everyone to take her seriously, to give her the respect she deserves, from the moment she introduces herself to them. and above all else, she will have proven to herself that she can do it. that she can chase each and every one of her dreams, at her pace and on her terms. just like she quit her pharma job, just like she became a firefighter despite eva's lack of support- only now, she has the support and encouragement from all her family and friends.

bobby, taking a trip to minnesota. maybe athena's with him, maybe may and harry. or maybe not. the fire at dispatch brought back a lot of old pain for him, even as saving may helped heal some of his oldest wounds. a karmic balancing of the scales, in a way- we know bobby tends to see things that way. but may isn't brooke. bobby buried a wife, a son, a daughter. and visiting their resting place to pay his respects, to tell them about his sobriety, about his new family, about how he creates families everywhere he goes now, about how much he misses them every day but despite it all he hasn't stopped living- that's a pilgrimage. and one i think he sorely needs to take, in order to heal.

for a while, i thought buck might take a trip back to hershey in this episode. but now i'm not so sure. eddie's already been back to el paso, and aside from that, i wasn't sure what a pilgrimage might look like, for him.

but then it hit me.

buck and eddie, going back to the site of the shooting. together. talking about it, processing it- as frank put it, "maybe you should talk about your pain with someone who shares it. think about your trauma. and then talk to someone who can understand exactly what you've been through."

that would be a pilgrimage, wouldn't it?

there's this scene in survivors, that i don't think we talk about enough- understandably, considering everything else going on in that episode. it's a quiet, blink-and-you'll-miss-it little moment between bobby and athena, that takes place only a handful of scenes after buck hauls eddie into the fire engine and desperately tries to keep him from bleeding out. and it goes like this:

athena: you know, after i was attacked, we never really talked about it.

bobby: well, i always got the sense you didn't want to.

athena: no, i mean... we never talked about what it was like for you.

bobby: there's that thing people say... 'i don't know what i'd do without you'. because losing someone you love is such an alien concept. you don't want to imagine what it's like. and i was sitting in that engine thinking i was listening to you dying. and i didn't need to imagine anything. i knew what my life would feel like without you in it. and it scared me.

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so, yeah. pilgrimage. i'm a firm believer in buck and eddie having their first kiss in the kitchen- i'm ready to tell you that i'm in love with you, so i'm telling you now, because i need you to know how loved you are, but i also know you need more time, and i will wait right here until you're ready for me too.

but when it comes time for a mutual display of commitment, that we're really doing this, i'm all in if you're all in, for better or for worse moment? i can't think of a better spot than the intersection where everything changed. episode one gave us a call where a man was shot by what looked to be a (large caliber) bullet, but was revealed to be a symbol of gay love and commitment- life saving for one man yet simultaneously life threatening for another. the thing that hurts is sometimes the thing that heals.

remember the funny little thing eddie said to buck in survivors, right before it all went south?

should have gotten here sooner.

pilgrimage: that street corner, no blood in sight. foreheads pressed together, leaning close, shaky hands on each other's faces, teary eyes. a kiss, maybe, or maybe not- the meaning's still the same.

buck, to eddie: nah. we're right on time.

You know I cannot get over the whole Will thing. But do you think that Buck knows what Eddie was really doing there in that moment???

Cause Eddie was literally handing Buck his heart, in the form of his son the most important thing in his life. But does Buck know that Eddie was handing him his still beating heart and telling him to be careful with it.

Or does Buck think that his just the backup. That Eddie was giving him everything he wants, the family he’s dreamed off, but with the condition that he loses the love of his life, the condition that Eddie dies. Do you think it hurts him to think that Eddie will only consider him good enough to parent Christopher if he’s gone? Or do you think it amazes him to know he’s trusted with Christopher when Eddies gone, over literally everyone else?

I just want them to talk about the Will and the shooting. Please…

the difference between the kitchen scene in 3x09 and the kitchen scene in 6x01 is that buck and eddie know each other inside and out. before it was attraction. there was some heated flirting but there was too much still weighing them down. neither of them were in the right place for more than a cheeky “wanna go for the title?”. for more than a half-lidded glance and a hand on the belt. for more than a smirk and a chuckle and a sip from their beers. there was the lawsuit and the street fighting and they all had so much trauma they hadn’t worked through yet. but then christmas. and the skateboard. and the well. and a pandemic. and active coparenting. and the shooting and the will. and eddie’s panic attack. breaking up with ana. buck dating taylor. lucy. eddie’s breakdown. therapy. buck there every single day. when they flirt when they talk about new couches it’s not attraction, it’s love. when they finally get to a place where they’re ready to be together it’ll be real. they’re it for each other. they’re each other’s last loves. it’s not about going for something as temporary and competitive as a title. it’s about a couch. it’s about family video game championships and nights spent in recovery. it’s long term, it’s lasting, it’s part of a home, and it’ll be theirs soon.

i can't believe they did this in the loft kitchen. i can't believe eddie and chris brought home to buck

No cause seriously there isn’t a single song on the Atlas albums by sleeping at last that isn’t beautiful. Like each one lights up the soul and brings me to tears in its ability to capture and illustrate the wonder and beauty of the world around us.

Oliver emphasizing the term partner and then confirming he’s Christopher’s other parent. How important Eddie and Chris are to Buck 🥹

I have a thought… I know we’re all pointing out how unpractical Buck’s armchair is… but what if he thinks that he only needs that one seat because he thinks he’s alone?? What if he thinks that ‘why should I get a couch if I’m the only person here?’ What if he thinks he’s gonna end up alone again so isn’t bothering with getting a couch??

Like what if he thinks he’s gonna be abandoned eventually so why build a life around people (118, Maddie, Eddie and Chris) if they are gonna leave eventually??

Like Buck, honey, you have a family and they aren’t going anywhere. The 118 aren’t gonna leave. Eddie and Christopher are definitely not going anywhere.

We know that.

But does he.

Or is he spiralling and thinking that it’s only a matter of time. So he’s getting himself use to the idea of being alone and trying to find purpose in his job, despite the fact he already has through his connections.

the way buck is so proud about his idea to not buy a new couch and to commit to just having the armchair makes me just. so sad. like he’s so happy to finally feel like he’s making a good choice, the right choice, because he only ever seems to fail and this (committing to being alone and prioritizing his career instead) seems like finally something he is doing right. but it’s just so wrong and is obviously primarily coming from a place of deep anxiety about being a failure and never enough and im :)) not doing well

My favourite way of buck coming out to the firefam is someone bringing in LGBTQ+ badges in and buck just goes "sick!" And picks up a bi flag and walks away while everyone else just is shocked in a range of huh? To WHAT!

the transition from people needing each other to wanting each other is literally one of my greatest weaknesses that shit makes me want to walk into the sea and sit on the ocean floor for a thousand years

Mind swimming with thoughts

What if...

What if, instead of a "you guys have an adorable son" 2.0, we have the opposite of it?

What if someone comes up to Eddie to tell him that "Chris uncle is so good with him!" or that "Chris could never find a better godfather!", or some heteronormative shit like that?

What if Eddie blanches, freezes, because that should be what Buck is, right? An uncle, a godfather, a friend of the family?

But, then, why does all that sounds so little in face of who Buck really is?

Buck is his best friend, the best he's ever had. He's also Chris' best friend, and while he is slightly envious of the title, it's not bad. He isn't Chris godfather, though, much less his uncle, even though they do look alike, with the curls and all, almost like they're...

Like they're father and son.

Oh.

Oh.

When he put Buck on his will, so long ago (a lifetime, really), he was... Listen, both Adriana and Sophia are lovely to Chris. They never treat him like he's breakable, incapable of doing things on his own, they never prive him from his agency. When he still lived in El Paso, he was overjoyed whenever they stopped by to look after Chris. They knew his son was amazing and shouldn't be put down for doing his own thing.

Adriana had a degree in pedagogy and Sophia was a physiotherapist. If the worst came to happen, they'd look after Christopher, and they'd do it well.

But...

But.

Whenever he thought about Buck's place in his life, he never put him in a "friend" category. Not since he stepped up and helped Eddie get back to his son after the earthquake, or when he saw Eddie struggling and introduced him to Carla, or when saved him from a tsunami.

After that first year, with its highs and lows, Buck became family. He slotted into their dynamic incredibly well, helped juggle the duties when Eddie was getting overwhelmed, learned to take cues for when to take a little more than usual. They learned how to communicate from a single look, and, yes, for their incredibly dangerous job but also for things like "did he put sunscreen on?" or "just five more minutes of videogames and he needs to do his schoolwork" or "this movie is not appropriate for his age".

Buck looked at their little family and asked "is there anyone taking that spouse spot?" and didn't wait for an answer.

And, fuck, Eddie wasn't mad that he hadn't waited for it. Before now, before therapy, he didn't know if he'd accept it.

But right now? When he has his head coming into a good place, a place where he could see that he deserved help, he deserved good things, he deserved to be loved?

By all the gods and saints, Eddie was ready to accept everything Buck had to offer and strive to return it tenfold.

Buck was theirs, his and Chris', just as much as their were Buck's. He only needed to know how to say it out loud.

i finally realised why buck’s face during the “you act like you’re expendable…but you’re wrong” moment gets to me so much: he doesn’t look like buck.

he looks like evan

the face he makes is so similar to the way buck looks at maddie in the flashbacks in buck begins. young and wide-eyed and so, so vulnerable. like we’ve talked ad nauseam about how oliver managed to make himself appear so young in buck begins with his mannerism and idk how deliberately he was thinking about paralleling that in this specific scene but i think there’s something a little beautiful about it because well.

eddie isn’t saying that for buck’s benefit. he’s saying it for evan’s. and for those few seconds buck is able to be at his most vulnerable. he’s able to be evan again bc evan is safe with eddie, y’know?????? i need to go

Superman: Man of Tomorrow #12 - “Superman’s Day Off” (2020)

written by Robert Venditti art by Scott Hepburn & Ian Herring

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ravi panikkar + texts from the group chat

courtesy of: @tawaifeddiediaz @oneawkwardcookie and @bieddiediaz <3

okay but what if it's exactly chris growing up that leads them to finally talk about the Will? because chris will want to be more independent and yeah eddie will have an existential crisis about it but buck will probably be worrying even more. because eddie is still his dad, but what's buck's role now? does he still have a place in chris' life? will they still need him, now that eddie is healing and is also trying to fix his relationship with his parents? is there still room for him? what if buck worries that the Will will eventually lose its meaning and its purpose because chris is growing up so fast and they'll no longer need him. what if they talk about it.

y'all...buddie best friends era though. them going on silly lil outings together because chris is spending time with friends and eddie is trying to figure out who he is when he's not being A Dad and buck has all the free time in the world. buddie in street clothes just going out together buddie at the movies buddie on a hike buddie one on one time and them reaffirming the fact that they're each other's favorite person and only falling more in love

Idk about y’all but both Buck and Eddie learning to move on and learn things about themselves. Moving forward hmmm 👀👀 (x)