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i don't really ever talk about relationship problems its always so personal my boyfriend is so good with words but wow đ
idk what to even say or think or anything
he doesn't even know about the really bad things about me too âšď¸âšď¸âšď¸
he went back to being sweet and everything but I don't know what to do about it at all
PLEASEEE HELP ME
how can I tell if I have bipolar disorder
I reeeeallly think so but It feels fake because I haven't been diagnosed. I've read about symptoms and everything but idkkkk I get so unstable and then I'm fine idk what to do and I don't know if I should get diagnosed because then my mom would know and I'd have to take meds and I don't want that
Idk I like the picture
Something really hilarious is how people think telling me to âcalm downâ will help??? Like naw if anything itâll turn my anger on whoever said it lmaooo like itâs the funniest thing bc itâll just backfire đpeople are actually really fucking stupid. People in my past have done that and spoiler: it doesnât work Lmaoo
I know Iâm randomly rambling on this account about just everything but oh well
I can smell when tone changes are coming and thatâs when I split lmfaooo. It took me time to actually notice this too đhow truly sensitive tone changes make me lol. I was just thinking about it more randomly because I think about a lot of random shit
The Cat has its Heart on the Outside
Available as a fanzine in Swedish with a translation note here.
Until you live with bpd you'll never know what it's like to be too much and not enough at the same time.
Am I the only one who doesnât improve because they refuse to try.
I always say âI donât like deep breathingâ. âIt doesnât workâ I say. But I donât even try.
âI donât like meditatingâ I say, âit doesnât workâ i say. But I donât even try.
âI canât journalâ I say, âit doesnât helpâ I say. but I donât even try.
Why? Because it canât be that simple. If itâs that simple than Iâm not as traumatized, or as damaged, or as far gone as I thought I was, and it almost feels like all of this was for nothing. I feel like I donât have it bad enough and therefore I donât deserve help, nor do I want it because of that.
It almost feels as if when I heal, all this suffering was for nothing, all this time struggling to get better was for nothing, all those panic attacks and dangerous driving and self harm, when it was always justâŚthat simple.
So I donât even try. Because if it works, itâs been too simple all along and I have suffered at my own expense for nothing.
please i want to be someone's priority please answer my texts eagerly, cling to me, kiss me, be desperate as much as I for contact, call me and let's talk for hours (what was the last time someone called me?), please i want someone, superficial friendships aren't enough i want more, i want to know you'll always be there no matter what and that you know i will be there for you too, im begging, i am on my knees, i want reciprocated, unshakeable devotion
im so tired
If I didn't get attached easily life would be soooo much easier, I need a lobotomy
FP: is gone for 5 minutes
my brain: they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me I'm being replaced I'm being replaced I'm being replaced
I'm so tired of everytime one small argument or inconvenience breaks out I want to end it and self destruct, it's so draining.
