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Idm being ace anymore. I should've never had an issue with it but I did. I thought I'd feel empty. I'd never feel passion , I'd never get to experience the vulnerability of sex. I'd never get to show someone parts of me that I hide from the world.
I know now that being ace doesn't limit that. It just presents different ways of doing it. I'm not sure if I'll ever get into a long-term relationship anytime soon, but I think I can live with that. I get to daydream possibilities and look forward to it. Even if it never happens, I'll be fine. I like being alone. I like crocheting and listening to music. I like reading random books and writing essays on them. I like trying new recipes. I like myself and I wouldn't mind spending some alone time for a long time, yk?
This is just a random post lmao, idk what to put here
I love how when you first read Catch-22, it can be, well, kind of confusing near the beginning. However, at least in my case, since it was interesting and well written I personally didn't mind.
But slowly, everything sort of ties itself together. It also gets increasingly more and more serious. An obvious example of this would be chapter 39, 'The Eternal City.' But for me, one that really stuck out to me was chapter 32, 'Yo-Yo's Roomies.' It really did a good job of showing how much Yossarian truly missed Orr, no matter how many times Orr pissed off Yossarian.
At the same time, that chapter I also found notably funny in the way it's written. Especially the lines "They reminded him of Donald Duck's nephews," and "They had not brains enough to be introverted and repressed." and I just love how it's them being nice and friendly to Yossarian with overall good intentions xD.
Also rereading this makes things so much more understandable. All the random details mentioned, its even better when you know the context behind those little references, like "It was still more frustrating to try to appeal directly to Major Major, the long and bony sqaudron commander, who looked a little bit like Henry Fonda in distress and went jumping out the window of his office each time Yossarian bullied his way past Sergent Towser to speak to him about it." It's fun reading that actually knowing who Major Major Major Major is and why he does in fact, jump out the window.
I think that's kind of why some people dislike/give up on this book (well part of the reason) because it can seem kind of random the first time through, but for me personally, that was part of the beauty of it the first time I read it. Idk though, I just personally reveled in the beginning chaos.
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omg ima go on a rant now
so, I’m considered the ‘smart kid’ in my class, and yes i like to be acknowledged for it, but my social anxiety ass does not want constant attention on me just because of that and of course, when i do something way above average, the teachers have to CALL ME OUT FOR IT for example there was this 80 question math test one year, and i only got like 4 wrong (call me a nerd, idc, i love math) so the teacher yelled (not actually yelled) to the class that “_____ got only 4 wrong on that test!!” Or this year when i did an essay in english and did pretty good on it SHE READ THE GODDAMN THING TO THE CLASS and i was actually blushing so hard from embarrassment i had a high temp
so no, i’m not in theater, but yea i understand the stage fright 😅
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Im about as healthy as a horse
Except the horse is dying
and I’m dying
and you’re dying
and everyone is dying
because spring is starting and so is allergy season
I keep wondering why so many fans (including myself) were bitter about the jjk ending.
Best I can think of is that it's because of the collectivist nature of the narrative -
defeating Sukuna was a collective struggle.
Jjk narrative seeks to dismantle the extreme individualism/hero-cult.
For us - a society built on the logic of hiarchy, that's a hard pill to swallow.
Gojo "winning" by having played his part in the collective struggle and having no regrets and Sukuna "losing" and thus regretting his choices that were proven wrong, choosing for the first time ever to reincarnate open to love -
... means there are no simple solutions, people can change, love, and work together no matter their personal differences.
There is no solitary evil mogul that we can pin all the evil on, and no solitary hero that we can push our own responsibility for saving the collapsing society on. No, it's our own responsibility to carry on as the new generation.
Also, there is a point of how mundane were the last two chapters before this. As if to remind us that life goes on and that there must come a time when students fly out of the nest and pick up their role as the next responsible ones.
Ah.
...
(( But i still miss Gojo, man. ))