Yet Again Stuck In The Pattern Of

@wearewatcher I am begging y’all, please put the puppet history soundtrack on Spotify. There are so many certified bangers from that series.

I’ve been redrawing this same picture of my OC every year since…. 2018? I think? It’s still a long way from perfect, but I’m legit so proud of my progress. Practice make’s improvement, y’all.

Also I used the cup of hot coco as the light source this year which was???? An interesting decision to say the least.

For the record I do really enjoy yoga, but when my ADHD’s real ramped up the idea of pulling up a yoga video and spending ten minutes stretching and being alone with my thoughts is just not on the table. Like I need something I can do completely independently so I can pop on a really dumb podcast and stop thinking about being in pain for five seconds. And yoga is great but I don’t have the concentration to guide myself through it without instructions.

Really wish all the “low impact” exercise routines I find weren’t hyper focused on like squats and lunges and shit. Like bro, my knees DO NOT WORK. They simply do not function properly. If I do 15 squats today I’m not going to be able to walk properly for literal days.

…….but like I’m so tired and I NEED to work out to help with my fatigue, and I don’t have the attention span for yoga right now. So I do the five bajillion squats anyway.

And I’m stupid so I forget that that’s a bad idea, so when I’m in an incredible amount of pain just walking up and down the stairs for the rest of the week, I’ll be like

The duality of “I should get up and move around, it’ll help with my pain” vs. “I can’t move at all, I’m in too much pain”

Like yeah, if you struggle with chronic pain you should try exercise, because it probably will help. But in order for exercise to even be an option, you have to be in an at least semi-manageable amount of pain to begin with.

reminder: you are not a useless person if you can’t get out of bed today. there are days the best thing you can so is to rest. you don’t owe society to be productive all the time, neither it defines you worth. you are a person, not a machine, and you should be respected as an individual. learn to listen to your body and respect its need to rest.

Part of me is like “wow I wish we as a society would normalize prioritizing platonic love and accept that some people just want to build a life with someone they love without any expectation of sex or romance”

But at the same time I’m gonna keep being happy with my partner no matter what society thinks so like. Y’all can keep being weird about queer platonic relationships if you want, we’ll just be over here finding fulfillment and joy in each other’s company for the next several decades or so.

Elon musk has done a lot of shitty things but the one thing that pisses me off the most is he’s the first thing a lot of people think of when you mention Tesla now.

Like the real Nikola Tesla was SO cool. Nikola Tesla was a genius, and a weirdo, and he nursed injured pigeons back to life. But now when you say “Tesla” most people just think of stupid Elon and his shitty exploding cars. And it pisses me off.

Another mouse except I ✨don’t like✨ this one

Diary Comic #2 - 8.25.22