04/15/2025

Something that made me happy today =)

Affirmation: I speak words of love and kindness 🩵

Transitions are hard...

Like I know I got diagnosed last year with ADHD, but I haven't felt like this in so long? Seriously, I don't know how I've functioned so well in college, and now in PhD, my brain is starting to give up on me.

I wish my school or someone had taught me how to use a neurodivergent brain growing up. Maybe it would be less difficult right now.

It feels like I make a plan, and then the next thing I know, my brain chooses not to follow it cause it's not exciting enough. I wish I could just work 4 hours a day and then rest and recharge using the remaining time. I know this is impossible with my current workload and commitment, but I can't wait for that day to come when I can create my schedule and I don't have to worry about not having enough income each month.

Good luck my pals who are also neurodivergent ~

Affirmation: Life is going to get better from here.

03/24/2025

I updated my semester planner over the weekend and am ready to refocus my time and energy to finish my 4th semester in this program.

I was caught up with time-sensitive tasks and reworking my planner again for most of today, but I promised my accountability buddy that I would work on my thesis at least a little. I need to remind myself that:

It is never too late to start a task; it is never a failure to revise a plan.

I can't say for sure that I come back stronger each time. But I know I come back wiser and more rested with every setback.

Completed

✅ Scheduled medical appointment (finally!)

✅ Read all school emails and replied

✅ Updated semester planner for the next 1.5 weeks (for 2 group projects)

✅ Updated calendar to work on group projects and thesis

✅ Wrote a personal article

✅ Therapy session

✅ Did laundry

✅ Find PPT slide for group project

Thesis Tasks

✅ Updated thesis writing schedule for this week

✅ Review advisor's feedback on thesis draft

✅ Made 1 correction (I skimmed through an article for this so I'm calling it a win)

Today's study concluded at 1:24am.

Study Music 🎧:

"The House of Wind | Magical Night Under the Starts with ACOTAR Spring Court Ambience" - Prythian on YouTube

Another day, another progress post 🩵

04/05/2025

I just want a freaking free day!!! 😤 Do you ever get so tired of studying and school that you don't know how you're going to last another 30 days?? That's why I am right now. I can't. I just can't right now.

I so want to just say f it and go take a break for a day, but I also feel like I can't. I also don't work like most people, and nighttime is my friend. But then, I can't even enjoy a relaxing night because I need to do work... Make it make sense. Why do I feel punished in society simply by being a night owl? That's not fair.

Grievances aside, only 1 more day of this workshop, and I seriously still don't know how much I'm learning. I'm not sure if this will feel worth it in the end. Maybe I need to reevaluate tomorrow morning before I decide to go.

Me feeling angry (also exhausted and frustrated) at the whole world rn:

Completed

✅ Full-day workshop ✅ Check and respond to emails ✅ Clinic note revision ✅ Grocery shopping ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Dinner and snacks ✅ Watch Me Before You (I cried my eyes out for this 😭) ✅ Phone call with parents ✅ Clinic notes x4 ✅ Add article summaries to class notes ✅ Read research articles for thesis (30 minutes - that's all the energy I have for today) ✅ Shower (finally!!!)

To-Dos

I cut out some original plans cause I overestimated how much energy I had lol. Full-day workshop is a energy-drainer... Time for bed 😴

Nothing better than having my dog next to me while I am working hard on my thesis 🩵

P.S. Technically I asked for a cat but got chosen by a dog. I call it fate.

03/21/2025

I had a medical appointment this morning so I didn't start my part-time job until the afternoon, which also delayed my time to complete some schoolwork.

I find myself gravitating toward tasks that involve clinical work and blissfully neglecting my class assignments like 10-page papers and group presentations 😅 I haven't even looked at my thesis progress and created a new timeline yet. I don't think I have the mental energy to do any of this right now.

Maybe working with my energy and passion right now is the way to go ~

Completed

✅ medical appointment

✅ part-time work

✅ walk my dog

That's it for now, but I might come back and update this before the end of the day if I finish more tasks =)

Have a wonderful weekend, lovely humans 🩵

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

This graphic is so real lol. I would also add "adulting" which takes up 10-20% of my life depending on the time of the year...

I had to go to a medical appointment this morning and it feels like I have already used up most of my motivation and energy for the day 🫠. But I know I can't (or should I say I recently decided that I won't) give up this easily, so I am hopeful that it will be another day I can celebrate at the end.

Sending love to all you wonderful humans 🩵

03/30/2025

Started the day with a nice breakfast and an episode of Earl and Fairy =). Now, let's get down to business ~

Anime atm 😍: Earl and Fairy

Completed

✅ Breakfast

✅ Watch anime

✅ Check school emails

✅ Pay bills

✅ Buy A Little to The Left bundle 💖

✅ Rewatch Kaichou wa Maid-sama!

✅ Group project 1 paper (2 hours)

✅ Dinner

✅ Thesis (2 hours) - I did it 😭

✅ Play A Little to The Left

✅ Group project 2 paper (30 mins)

To-Dos

NONE!

[Ended at 1:30am] I can't believe I actually worked on everything I said I would do today. This is the first time this has ever happened 😭. I am so proud of myself! Even though not everything got finished, I think this is a good start. I am building trust in myself to be able to work consistently.

Thank you for y'all's support. Thank you for reading about my progress. This has been the most helpful thing I've done so far to get myself back on track. Thank you x100000000000 🩵