but sometimes I am also a narcissist and am afraid everyone is in love with me
I have bpd, of course I assume everyone hates me until proven otherwise
Sometimes my anger is too much
The way it feels like the way I imagine it might if you smashed all the glass in your house from screaming and then used those shards to construct new eyes by digging them into the already existing ones.
The same way i imagine it might feel if I pressed nails into every inch of my skin
Like open heart surgery without any anaesthesia
Like constant electrocution
I’d rather any of those than to feel my own anger over the fact that you never text me back.
honestly i dont need therapy i need a machine to go into my body and manually stretch all my muscles and crack all my joints and then i need the machine to go into my brain and deep clean it with soapy hot water
I thought I felt this way because I miss you but I probably just have a disorder. Maybe it’s both.
Feeling evil (just wanna be loved by someone that only has eyes for me)
I hate how I want him to miss me.
do you know what it’s like to crave a person?
life with bpd is always trying to fill a huge hole in your chest. you spend your life looking for a cure that doesn't really exist
To avoid the sick feeling I get from talking to people about my feelings I am vomiting them out here, enjoy.
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