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Me :>

i don’t want a ROMANTIC PARTNER. i want a DEAR FRIEND i can use as a HUMAN WEIGHTED BLANKET

i hate how avoidant i be, ugh. the only way to fix it is to follow through but i dead just dont be wanting to be bothered or talk to ppl sometimes, even the ppl i love. what is that about? bc i damn sure be feeling like an outsider or not understood by most ppl 90% of the time.

I feel like I never see other jirai that are over 18. It's always 14-16 year old kids, and it's just... so awkward. I shouldn't be considered old yet, but even then whenever I'm in a space for something I like there are always so many children! and it makes me feel like a Total Creep!!! and all while I'm just here to see that other people struggle like me and love the same things as me!

needy streamer overload

I bought the game because it was on sale so I don't regret buying it.

and it reminded me of an app called virtual and how you can be a vt-uber and shit. so i said fuck it why not im bored and lonely and might as well be a cute anime girl too.

i redownloaded it

but for fuck sakes its camera is awful at tracking

and im so goddam awful at socializing and i fucking wished it had an app on the pc BUT EVEN IF IT DID MY SHIT INTERNET IS SO GODDAM SLOW AND I CANT DO SHIT JUST LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE

so im stuck here in my room doing nothing but be on my phone and laptop. seeing other people do things i want to do. why cant that be me also. If i can't do shit how am i going to earn money. my anxiety holds me back i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this.

the only friend i have are online but even that is a pain in the ass BECAUSE OF MY SHITTY ASS WIFI THE FUCKING PING IS SO DAMN HIGH SO IM JUST WATCHING THEM HANGOUT WITH EACHOTHER WHILE I JUST STAND BY AND WATCH I CANT EVEN DOWNLOAD FUCKING VALORANT WITHOUT IT TAKING THE WHOLE DAY BITCH ASS CUNT KYS

just had an experience

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I just want to be important, too.