I Love When Someone Is Drawing Themselves With Me

Me when i feel like i am going to die.

Goes to the fucking doctor.

*Symptoms magically disappear.*

Well great guess I was just overreacting.

*Leaves doctor*

*Symptoms back in full force.*

I swear the bitch ass Symptoms know that they're about to be caught.

*showing visible symptoms* oh my god i need help desperately

*symptoms go away for one day* what if im just faking it

In another universe, I'm kind to everyone I know and myself. In another universe I am no longer frugal with love. In another universe when I pick up the phone, I answer it with "I love you" instead of "Y'ellow!"

In another universe I don't feel bad for asking for a hug. In another universe I don't infect everything around me with how awful I am. In another universe I reach out and hold your hand and you hold mine back.

"Who want me " I say as if I'm not extremely picky with who I obsess over

jirai media recommendations (feel free 2 suggest more)

some r still ongoing btw

-Young Adult Matters

movie (2021)

tw: sh, substance abuse, bullying, violence, gore, prostitution, death, sa, homelessness, sexual content, abuse, profanity, unwanted pregnancy (prob more im forgetting)

-Tomorrow I’m gonna be someone’s girlfriend

manga (2019-2024) and tv show (2022-2023)

tw: sh, profanity, sexual content, violence, substance abuse (again prob more im forgetting)

-Kairiki Bear

musician

song suggestions: darling dance, bug, failure girl, villain

-Isana

musician

song suggestions: Menhera Janai Mon!, Loved Smoothie

-Sensitive Boy

manga (2022-2024)

tw: sexual themes, sa, sh, violence (prob more i still need 2 read it ngl)

-Sentimental Death Loop

video game (2023)

tw: death, partial nudity, sexual themes, profanity, sh, suicide, violence, gore,

-Needy Streamer Overload

game (2022)

tw: sh, sexual themes, violence, substance abuse, blood, profanity, death, cults, vomiting (prob more that im forgetting)

-Strawberry Painkiller

musician

song suggestions: Bloodsucking Dreams, Grave Skull, Thousand Knives, Sugar Truth, Pharmakeia

-Candye Syrup

musician

song suggestions: idol of death, sweet suicide, C♡S.I.S

-Hookah Haze

game (2024)

tw: death, terminal illness, stalking, substance abuse (its just hookah im pretty sure but still gonna include the warning lmao)

-Magical Girl Site

anime (2018) and manga (2014-2019)

tw: bullying, violence, suicide, abuse, blood (prob more i havent finished it)

feel free 2 suggest more! out of all of these i suggest young adult matters, kairiki bear, nso, and strawberry painkiller the most!

wake up, rot in bed all day, fall asleep, repeat. such a miserable way to live, but i can’t do much else. i’m entirely useless.

everyone says "taking mental health days is totally fine!!!" until those "mental health days" end up lasting months

for some people a warm bubble bath and a few nights of binging Netflix can bring them back to a point where they can be a functioning member of society again

but for me, my mental illness has denied me the right to feel like a member of society to begin with

this world isn't meant for people like me

Being an adult in jiraiblr is so funny bcs I'm seeing these teens act jus like how I did and it's like "huh. That's why no one liked me - i was really annoying"

Maybe this therapy shit is working

sometimes i just get hit with the feeling

i wasnt supposed to make it this far

also what do i do now