𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚎𝚕𝚜𝚎 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚝 𝚜𝚘 𝚋𝚊𝚍

Aaa i am so bad at blogging damn. I have been neglecting my tumblr so much im sorry :((

I need to loose 5kg in 10 days or I will feel like I failed myself yippee!!

I wanna rip my stomach out ♡♡

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 5.

As happy as I was in the morning, I broke my fast of 42 hours because of a bowl of pasta and few pieces of broccoli. Then later my mom informed me that we are having pizza for dinner, even tho I deliberately asked her not to tempt me and allow me to get weak when I say I crave a certain thing.

In the end it was fine, I restarted my fast an hour or two later and now I am fasting through friday and the majority of saturday.

I am still really weak when it comes to certain food and that's fine. I know that my willpower is not the best but it's getting better.

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➀ Plain black coffee - 0 cal

➂ Slices of pizza - 612 cal

➀ Spagetti pasta and broccoli with thousand island dressing and hot sauce 225g - 272 cal + 108 cal

➀ Hell energy drink 250ml (ginger & lemon) - 47 cal

Water - 1,7l/2l

Full - 1042 cal

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Steps - 8335/10000 - 335 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 335 cal

I love my wrists because they are not thick and I can see how much I have already lost but every damn fucking time i look at my ankles I wanna cry because they are so thick.

For what reason??? Ugh...

Someone please keep me in check when I am fasting

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 1.

Weekends with family is always much harder than just normal weekdays because my mom likes to keep tab if I ate or not and she ususally wants us to eat together, which is fine because it was an OMAD day anyways.

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➁ Hell energy (ginger & lemon) - 117.5 ≈ 118 cal

➀ Sweet bun burger - approx. 524 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (strawberry & lemon grass) - 0 cal

➀ Green apple (side to the burger) - 82 cal

Water - 2.4l/2l

Full - 842 cal

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Steps - 7190/10000 - 288 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 288 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ NOVEMBER

I decided that I am kot gonna date things lmao. Kinda feeling mentay frustrated, so I hoped a break would make it better. It, in fact, did not.

I am in one discord server and people are really really nice, but I feel like I abandoned that server and I just dunno. I'd like a community where I can ramble about my silly things and people motivate eachother to push through things. Don't get me wrong, like I said they are really nice, motivating and everything. I just feel like I didn't connect much, but that can be just me.

Anyhow, a gaming-ana server is what I wanna make. For sillies that are like me idk. I might just need more friends lmaoo.

Also I have been fasting for two days now but my period just decided to come, so ugh. Fortunately whenever it happens I don't feel much hunger, so I can just fast and be happy. I am planning on going til saturday because I am meeting up with a friend that day and we already made plans to visit a café. Im sure he will make a suggestion to eat something somewhere too.

So yes yippee. That is for this update. I might restart the logging.

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ DISCORD SERVER

I made a discord server for 18+ @n@/m1a/3d peeps who like anime and games!

There are lots of stuffs there already lmao. Gaming channel, anime channel, vent and a bunch of 3d related ones like th1nspø, m3alspø, tips and shared mesdia! You can reccomend your favourite music, movie that triggers you.

There is not a lot of people on it, and it's still under "construction", so suggestions are welcome!

Link:

https://disboard.org/server/1174491466287030303