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Omg I'm here wanting to cry. Why? Because I'm hearing lo-fi & eating nutella. Somehow that's cry-inducing to me now.

And you can't even say that it must be 'that time of the month' cuz I'm not a woman, technically. What's wrong with me. WHY does lo-fi makes me want to cry. What do I even hear if not lo-fi to relax?? I tried 3daysgrace, for hours, then Bullet for my Valentine, then back to 3daysgrace, now I got no idea what to listen to. Also, I have to work, so I can't just go home and bury myself in a tower of blankets like I'm rebuilding Babel.

Never gonna hear lo-fi again.

(Make a bet on how long it takes for me to listen to it again.)

TCIK Original Book Update #4

Give your book time.

This is the best advice I can give, really.

With just a few days of... not working on my book, at all, and doing other writing stuff, one character changed and became completely different than what I was going for at the beginning.

Frankly, it's WAY better.

I think I'm also grasping now my main character's feelings and actions, too. At another update, I said she read as this foolish girl that I was beginning to hate with passion. Now, I think she's found her footing at last, and the dialogue I'm tentatively putting out makes more sense, feels more in character with her.

a world without trans people has never existed and never will

prints

C&D Original Book Update #2

Oooh things are going good.

I'm rereading all the book again (cuz of course) and I'm picking up all those little big problems. It's headache-inducing, but I'm satisfied in finally seeing my book flow better with all those changes. Way better.

I changed a lot of stuff...

As for the last chapters, nope, I noped. I simply can't write them down right now. They're too emotional. I think I'll manage... in a month?? Maybe??

And I'm still hoping to launch it in September...

Fingers crossed <3

A must-see for all writers

C&D Original Book Update #1

Things are going great! I had this big problem with how I was going to introduce the letter exchange system between my protagonists because it was messy, with all these section breaks that I hear don't work well in kindle, too much repetition (like their addresses), it just didn't read right. Now it does...

Here's how I did it:

Transcript of the letters between:

—(Character's Name). (Address)

—(Character's Name). (Address)

(I put this at the beginning of the chapter)

Then before each letter, in bold:

(Character's Name)—

Voilá!

And at the first few letters I make clear who the character's writing.

This is the best system I've found... I researched all over the internet and no other system worked for my story.

Now, reading the chapters months after writing them, I've also cringed hard over some stuff, but oh well, I have enough time until September to fix them up. <3

Being Bigender (to me) feels like swimming: someone mixed paint in the water, but you give no fuck at all. You. Are. Just. Swimming.

*Fortunately

My mind is like the Joker's on Love Triangle fic by randomplotbunny

"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there

TCIK Original Book Update #2

It's already soooo much better!

I'm still working on the end, though...

Each arc is more fleshed out and flows better. I feel the first kiss is =waay better too. Among other things.

I'm working now on connecting the ideas, foreshadow things better, make things feel earned, sorting through the rest of my notes (and my cellphone notes too, I had forgotten them).

Many things are lacking though. I need more ideas... My structure as it is wouldn't make a good book, at all. I admit I must have only 1/3 of a good book right now.

My head feels full and I'm tired of trying to make things make sense, but they ARE making sense, finally. It's like, I want X and Y to happen, but these events contradict themselves, so it's like trying to solve a really fun (but head bashing) puzzle.

Also, my playlist is really helping. I got many ideas just by listening to it.

Anyway, I couldn't have found a better hobby. <3

TCIK Original Book Update #1

Finally, I have the structure of the story complete! Like, the main ideas in each arc.

I'm still drowning in my notes. I have at least 200 pages of it, and the worst laziness to sort them out. Some of the ideas are already outdated, but some are gold. I'm organizing them all in this new document, and it's going well, even though it's a very slow process.

I'm still not satisfied with the ending. It has already morphed into something brand new in the time I've been thinking about this fic (like, one month?), but I find something is still missing… I'll keep thinking about it and trying to figure it out.

Another challenge is making the romance feel earned. I wrote a bit of it already, and I'm not satisfied. The protagonist feels like a dunderhead, and the main love interest a creep. I feel this is something I'll end up figuring out at the last moment…

Anyway, despite hating crosswords and puzzles, I find book-puzzles like those fascinating. Hurray!! Another day of slaving over my book <3

My ideas always go like this:

Oah, cool, fine, that shows promise

Nah scratch that, something better came up

Wow another new idea, this one actually makes 1 and 2 make sense

mindblowing

omg I'm weeping, EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE NOW

Over and over again, project after project

You just need to give it... time. No really, time and eat proper food

First morning I don't edit a chapter before breakfast in months. I'm feeling weird. Like there's this burning in my throat that just won't go away. I don't even want to eat anything. What is it I'm feeling? I always was horrible at being self-aware, so I guess I'll keep wondering...

Couldn't write anything with my damned and awful sound system. It just refused to work properly. I had to buy a new sound box and now I'm hearing "Control" by Halsey. Thank goodness yodo yodo I'd actually go crazy without proper music

My fav mangas

Gravitation (way better than the anime)

Like the Beast (love the author)

Saint Seiya (I hoard my full collection!!)

Hetalia (I can't believe there's a mafia!Hetalia coming up!)

Ao no Exorcist (most enjoyable angst for a queer teen)

Deadman Wonderland (I enjoyed it so much!)

Cherry Magic (cute cute cute)

07 Ghost (I loved it very much when I was a teen, but I remember nothing now)

Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles (I was in only for the gays, Fye and Kurochan)

When I was younger I also loved Bukiyou na Silent and Skip Beat, but I got no idea if it's any good anymore, really...

Cursed be the writer that posted a 'and everybody died in the most gruesome way possible' chapter on April's Fools.

🤬

When people think I'm a man they treat me better than when people think I'm a woman.

It brings me back to that one time I was on this school show, acting as an old, male historical figure. I welcomed the incoming kids from other schools and taught them this one little song. We all had a good time. But some of them (mainly the adults) kept asking me: are you a boy? Or are you a girl??

Like, the hell should they care?

I had short hair, kinda deep voice, just a teen, but my voice was high enough and my face feminine enough that it made them doubt.

And does that even matter?

Yes, it does. Because when I tell people I'm technically male, they bite their tongues and don't say nasty shit.

And while being nonbinary myself (and I can't care less about what other people think of my gender), I can't help thinking:

What horrible world for my sister to grow up.

I wish we can all make it a better place for women, one day.

I used to think I had nothing to offer to the world. That my writings were shit. Lacking in pretty much everything. That no one would want to read them in their right mind. That I'd be better off dead.

Fuck that.

I'll carve my path in blood if need be, if even one person feels heard by a word I wrote.

(I'm just being poetic, policeman)

Three ways to spark story ideas

Dance like crazy to your book/fic playlist (while obsessively thinking about your characters and your plots)

Just live and breathe (it can do wonders)

Read the whole book/fic again (and the notes)

Talk to a friend about where you're stuck

Think outside the box. You do it when you stop trying to fit your book/fic into your first expectations of it (my first concept of this entry was about three ways to find new ideas, but as I wrote, more stuff came out! Embrace ~the new stuff~)

Pet an animal

Have a proper meal

Do something good that you used to do when you were a child

Read your fav books/fics again (or watch movies, series, you got the idea)

Accept the unknown. You'll always lack, you'll always struggle. When stuff gets really shitty, accept that sometimes you can only write a phrase. But try anyway. It's the small victories that win out, in the end.

Tried the Picrew thing

I was kinda surprised the nonbinary flag was even an option. Nice. Shockingly, I could actually portray how I look right now... (Gotta do something about that beard, though. Yesterday I was too lazy...)

This image was created with Picrew’s “makowka character maker II“!! https://picrew.me/share?cd=kpeHhy3iHq #Picrew #makowka_character_maker_II

Best thing about music:

When I have no clue what to write next, I just throw on a carefully curated playlist, hit play, and dance so silly the gods cringe from the heavens.

The ideas come.

Every. Time.

(If they don’t, keep dancing. Sometimes it takes 15 hours or so)

My fav books

Wolfsong (TJ Klune)

The Lightning-Struck Heart (TJ Klune)

Hero (Perry Moore)

The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy (Douglas Adams)

Ariel by Sylvia Plath

My family insists I’m Kuzco, and my husband is Prince Caspian. The worst part? I can’t even argue. They’re absolutely right.

all time fav disney princess  💅 ✨

I found this song again... I true masterpiece.

WHY AM I CRYING??

Can't believe there's actually a finished version of the game! I'm so happy. Thank you so much.

playing hetaoni in 2024

@cookies-hetaoni thanks for your hard work on this, we had a blast

“The prettier the garden, the dirtier the hands of the gardener.”

— B. E. Barnes, Put in work.

hahahaha omg I'm 1) with sprinkles of 2)

There are two types of writers:

1. 'It's fiction, it doesn't need to make sense!'

2. 'I didn't account for the rotation of the planet and how that affects the constalations while my characters stargazed at different times of year, I have failed as a writer, and this entire thing is trash'

Back when I dabbled in digital art many years ago! 🎨✨ I don’t do that anymore, though—those days are long gone! 😂