genderschmender

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sometimes i remember i exist and i’m just like oh fuck

I've gone through today just feeling so bored I want to stab myself to death because it'd be less boring. Maybe.

Please please please I just want to fucking kill myself so badly I want to bash my head against a wall until I die

there are so many different fun little hobbies i wanna try for myself but depression/autistic burnout ruins it all

Prev: Sparkle (Honkai Star Rail), Tsukasa (Toilet-Bound Hanako Kun), Monokuma (Danganronpa), Miu Iruma (Danganronpa)

I'm not too familiar with all of them (so I'm sorry if this is wrong/annoying!), but I've at least seen most of them, so my take is that you tend to obscure things behind a facade as a coping mechanism. This persona is probably a little chaotic and cheeky (bordering on concerning/abrasive at times?). The inclusion of Monomuma is particularly interesting to me, since from my understanding it's more of a puppet than anything, so I'd like to add something about you being scared of having nothing behind your facade, or even a lack of control over your own performativity/actions. This would also fit well with Sparkle since she seemed somewhat deterministic (in her devotion to her Eon (?)) to me from what I've seen.

My continuation:

Nikolai (Bungou Stray Dogs), Kashiki Yuno (MILGRAM project), Hoshino Ai (Oshi no Ko), Furina de Focalor (Genshin)

Making a tag game cause I can

Rules: post 4 fictional characters you relate to and assume something about the person you reblogged from based on their characters

No pressure tag! @sidneyoftheblackwoods @mqstermindswift @stars-and-birds @zenilvar @forever-chained-to-myself @themidnightarcher @skeelly @thepencilsnameissteve @thislove-taylorsversion @thislifeissweeterthanfiction @swiftieannah @a-pessimistic-swiftie @catastrxblues @jellycanon @what-about-wendy and anyone else who wants to join<3

compilation

my brain: meow

also my brain: woundfucking

also my brain: kill yourself you dumb bitch

i’m so fucking disgusting i don’t deserve to live someone just fucking kill me

[tries to stab you and misses] [tries to stab you and misses] [tries to stab you and misses] dude stop moving [tries to stab you and misses]

god i’m so fucking easy to manipulate and abuse just need a man to beat the shit out of me and tell me to kill myselffffff

tell me i could never hope to be anything even remotely close to useful to you. tell me all i’m good for is being beaten and broken over and over and over again to the brink of death everybody knows it’s true so just fucking SAY IT

i’d shoot myself dead without a second thought if you told me to. blood and gore spewing out the back of my head all pretty just for you <333

I am in pain constantly. I am overwhelmed by my emotions constantly. But at the same time I feel so empty all the time. How is it even fucking possible to feel everything and nothing all at once? How is it fucking possible that I feel like my emotions so fucking intense they cause me physical pain, but also feel so fucking empty? What the actual fuck is that? I just want to be okay, all I want is to not be so fucking miserable anymore.

why the fuck am I the way I am

Why is everything so heavy? 😖

Trying to not be jealous of people who actually cut deep challenge

"lmao" "lol" "haha" "ok" "k"

okay cool lemme just-

Can somebody please beat the shit out of me? Till i am fully bruised and blooded and aching.

So that i can finally feel this pain.

So that i know i can still feel.

try to be gentle while tearing me apart

Kissing is overrated, stab me.

*puts the tip of my sword in your mouth* enough, you will only talk when I tell you t- stop sucking on it

hanging from the meat hook all by yourself, handsome?

You know how to love someone, but you don't know how to believe that someone loves you, and that is your tragedy.