Aya Takano, Hot Banana Fudge (2000)

sometimes the tragedy of distance is very simple. i want to get groceries with you

i have this distinct need to make myself the smallest in a room because i always take up too my space with my loud voice. i talk loudly and flail my hands around because i don't know how to control myself in front of other people. so maybe, if the bones in my body shrunk and i lost more than eighty percent of my fat then my voice would shrink with me and i would match the tone of the normal people in the room. maybe then i can not only look at myself in the mirror and be happy, i can also listen to my own voice and avoid wanting to claw out my vocal chords. i'll feel normal i think

i know i was meant to live near the ocean so i could sit on the sandy beach, talk to the waves and walk into the water when my time is done

ohhhh i get it now. the little seed of loneliness i’ve carried with me since i was five will never go away

Yohji Yamamoto Pour Homme AW1995 Floral Turtleneck

having bpd and constantly hurting people around you with your anger issues is so painful and the guilt is worse i hate myself

BEFORE SUNRISE (1995) dir. Richard Linklater

walking my turtle

finding old accounts is like finding proof u really did exist two years ago which is like yeah i know i did but that me from two years ago was me and i was her and that makes it so disgustingly weird yet endearing yet everything wrong with the world because i hate to be perceived and who else to judge u harder than ur future self who is wiser (slightly) and knows more (not really)? so i feel a little sick but also, she was such a silly girl. just a silly lost sad angry girl

nadia waheed, "after rego," 2022, oil on canvas