Jaxr3l - 🎀Jaxrel CN🩰

Blood on my wrist, i wanna die (I couldn't resist i just had to. I said only one cut and got carried away, haha! Not only my wrist, i did my chest too, and maybe next time, my stomach and legs)

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One thing that is unique and what you prolly didn't know about me is i have naturally elf ears ♡

Never thought that I would be this hurt. I think we broke up, I just didn't think that they would do this to me in a most painful way. I really did love them I really do it does hurt. Now I have no friends at all it would still be nice to at least have a stranger comfort me for a second. Tho I will remember them for the good times and happiness. It hurts but I wanted to say thank you. Thank you❤️

4/8/24

I'm crying really bad, I need to cut, vomit, masturbate

I hate to ask... what's a really good razor or something to cut with?- I have been cutting with a razor to shave, but that's not enough I used a knife and it's just not what I'm looking for. Any recommendations? Please thank you!

♡I don't want you feeling ignored♡

Although the thoughts of suicide haven't left, i think about them every day. It's a bit of a turn on to think about and at the same time, I want to experience the pain and death. When I say Death I laugh at the word. Because I feel aroused and I think about my death and other things that come along with it. I know I'm strange I'm sorry but it's true... by the way I still plan to cut and sadly shamelessly masturbate... just to get my mind in the clouds.

ALMOST THERE!!! #anorexia

Im Sorry for yapping and venting... but I think it's just me or if there are others who feel this way... I like to abuse myself. Not sure if it's from trauma in the past or something I know it's so unhealthy but I can't help it I like the pain and it's the only thing I know to make myself feel loved... sadly. I'm so alone I want to experience relationships and be in a relationship not sure if it's going to make a difference for me what love truly is I really don't know... I just want a boyfriend hahaha~... he's out there somewhere in just have to wait for my moment for that man. Again I'm so sorry for ranting alot today!