I So Bad Wish I Was On Hormones/testosterone. I Want That Beautiful Male Voice I Hate Staying Quiet And
I so bad wish I was on hormones/testosterone. I want that beautiful male voice i hate staying quiet and trying to deepen my voice i hate this voice i want a adams apple to show my neck off. I hate living in this fantasy that I am, I hate taking medication that makes me think it's testosterone. I hate cutting my chest/genitalia and trying to sew it. I hate crying myself to sleep every night hoping i die and be the boy i am in heaven or somewhere else. I truly hate myself. #vent
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I feel stupid
They
Don't
Love
You
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Why am I always the blame for everything? Am I an easy bunching bag? Does your verbal abuse really know how to humiliate me? I guess I know why I always saw myself so low and ugly
Don't you just hate when your family talks shit about you even tho you never seen them nor talk to them sense you were born, like I'm sorry I never did anything but exist, sorry if my existence bothers you that much ill just try to kms or something to get out of your way ig. Tbh I don't even want to be here so.
ALMOST THERE!!! #anorexia
Same Kanato same~ How i be like with food, literally me *stab stab* 🔪💜
I just wanna say, if anything happens... to me. Thank you. All these thinspo pictures and photos are so motivational and inspiring and so very beautiful. But I'm slowly dying and might go to a hospital for force feed. I don't want to go to the hospital nor i do really want to die, the doctors said for me to open my eyes and change and get my head screwed on because I'm in danger to myself. Haha! Trust me, I know what I'm doing. i don't need you guys to yell at me because I already know what I am doing to myself, but nobody will understand, but myself. I'm not sure what will happen later, tomorrow, somewhere in the future, but I'm not going anywhere (I hope) again. Thank you.
Although the thoughts of suicide haven't left, i think about them every day. It's a bit of a turn on to think about and at the same time, I want to experience the pain and death. When I say Death I laugh at the word. Because I feel aroused and I think about my death and other things that come along with it. I know I'm strange I'm sorry but it's true... by the way I still plan to cut and sadly shamelessly masturbate... just to get my mind in the clouds.
Just thinking about my death is so... mortifying. Thinking about getting hit by a train is so... so difficult. Jumping off a cliff is scary but yet all a slow painful deaths. I can imagine my whimpers in pain. Idk #vent
