Latest Posts by maxinenextdoor - Page 3

I'm honestly not feeling good lately. These past few days had been a roller coaster ride of emotions and I pushed a lot of people away. I put a barricade. I wanted to be alone.

But despite it all, as Hemingway quoted, “The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places."

I am still here. I am strong. I made it. I'm standing still.

“It was not witches who burned. It was women. Women who were seen as Too beautiful, Too outspoken, Had too much water in the well (yes, seriously), Who had a birthmark, Women who were too skilled with herbal medicine, Too loud, Too quiet, Too much red in her hair, Women who had a strong nature connection, Women who danced, Women who sung, or anything else, really. ANY WOMAN WAS AT RISK BURNING IN THE SIXTEEN HUNDREDS Sisters testified and turned on each other when their babies were held under ice. Children were tortured to confess their experiences with “witches” by being fake executed in ovens. Women were held under water and if they float, they were guilty and executed. If they sunk and drowned they were innocent. Women were thrown off cliffs. Women were put in deep holes in the ground. The start of this madness was years of famine, war between religions and lots of fear. The churches said that witches, demons and the devil did exist and women were nothing but trouble. As we see even today, there is often a scapegoat created, and the chaos escalated in Sweden when the Bible became law and everything that did not line up with what the church said became lethal. The Bible fanaticism killed thousands of women. Everything connected to a women became feared, especially her sexuality. It became labeled as dark and dangerous and was the core of the witch trials through out the world. Why do I write this? Because I think the usage of words are important, especially when we are doing the work to pull these murky, repressed and forgotten about stories to the surface. Because knowing our history is important when we are building the new world. When we are doing the healing work of our lineages and as women. To give the women who were slaughtered a voice, to give them redress and a chance of peace. It was not witches who burned. It was women." ~ Fia Forsström, author

No I love yous

I literally went from begging to IDGAF if you leave attitude. I'm tired of the push and pull. So if you don't feel we could work out then ok fine. No one's gonna force you to stay. So I'm glad I toughened up like wow, I can't believe this is me now.

Depression is crazy because If you don’t actively combat it daily you’ll find yourself a week after having the best week of your life laying on the floor for two hours wondering why you can’t get up @le_debut

GISAYANGAN NIMO UNYA MINGAWON KA? BUGOA UY.

I love how dedicated you are in what you do. It's so rare. So attractive.

People are so intrigued with my life. 🙃 Showbiz balita?

Is it real this time or is it in my head?

Don't know if I should fight or fly.

This isn't because of insomnia, it's the trauma.

my thoughts are messy.

what's on your mind?

Not everyone is meant to be in your future. Some people are just passing through to teach you lessons in life.

I choked on my pill. 😂 Jesus.

Saw you in my dreams.

It's too powerful I just wanna die.

too early to sleep but i have nothing left to do.

attachment issues?

August 1, 2021

Wheat cranberry loaf, and cheese for breakfast. :) Plus coffee. What a morning!

I thought looking for a house would be easy. It's taxing. You have to visit the location. Check if you are qualified. Like sobrang daming requirements. Income. Then you have to consider the transpo, if you are conveniently located near the hospital (because I have a child), mall, church, workplace, etc.

8 Things You Unconsciously Do When Depressed 

hahahahahaha!

I’m not in a hurry but it’s just so fucked up lol

I’m kinda scared of being happy for a day, or maybe just for a few minutes. Something may come up and ruin it. 😑

Been home for a few weeks now and I’m feeling better. It’s good to be back in the province vs living in the big city. I mean, life here is different. More on simplicity, picking up veggies from the garden, not needing to go to a shopping centre or what. We just pick food here and cook them right away. Those crops and bananas and green leafy stuff omg I am so over meat. Lol! I’m missing so much on nutrition for the past year 😂

Hope you guys are having a great day!

Note: my mom is not happy about me going out with friends every Friday. Lol mom i’m not dating anyone 🤭

Hahahaha!

Woke up with a blurry right eye

So here comes the tummyache. That was fast.

And it’s good!

I don’t know if peaches tastes good with condensed milk....