It Is 11:40pm. I Logically Know That My Friends Are Asleep And Not Deliberately Ignoring Me. Does That

i wasn't meant to live this long and that's why i don't know what to do when i feel this awful

I don't know a single disabled person who hasn't been traumatized in at least one way by the medical system. Moreover, how are we supposed to heal from our medical trauma when it is continuously reinforced? I act differently in medical spaces because of my medical PTSD to the point I used to have selective mutism in those spaces (it's much better now). But I was treated horribly because of the selective mutism and trauma responses, making my PTSD worse. How can doctors be okay with re-traumatizing someone who already has severe medical PTSD? How can doctors be okay with not being educated on medical PTSD or gaslighting? How can they be okay with ultimately making our lives, care, and trauma worse??? The lack of understanding around medical trauma is unacceptable, especially because of how incredibly prevalent it is.

FUCK sex let’s plan our double su!cide

I off myself in my head for at least 567 times in a day.

it's pathetic how much i fucking hate you. i can't fucking stand it. i hate that you're out with your fucking friends and ignoring me. you know i want you to be happy but why can't you see how much of my happiness you're responsible for. why the fuck did you get me addicted to you like this and then just fuck off.

so glad you have an entire fucking polycule to lean back on while im drowning for your fucking attention lolololol

"summer is the worst" "no winter is!!!" actually both are. down with Big Temperature. spring and autumn for the win

Trying to explain to people how depressing it is to just no longer enjoy anything and they just don't get it

wanting to feel good and everything around you being bad is exhausting