I Kind Of Just Want To Post Every Single Thought I Have In My Head In The Hopes You'll Talk To Me And

None of this would’ve been an issue if I just killed myself at 16

Might fuck around and develop a parasocial one sided relationship with one of my new mutuals because we dont talk and I shake like a scared chihuahua when I try to talk to them, it's all in my head

wanting to feel good and everything around you being bad is exhausting

This is so boring I want cigarettes

more deer pics +bunny for good measure bc im kind of obsessed with them rn

I feel nothing and I feel it completely.

how the fuck do you make friends.

everyone else in my life gets to go hang out with their friends and go home to their partners and i hate it. i really hate to say that i hate seeing their happiness. it's not that i don't want them to b be happy and lead good lives, it's that im a fucking dumb jealous asshole.

everyone makes it seem like them and all of their friends just clicked together. there was no awkwardness at the start and everything just went so smoothly. meanwhile i can't get past the awkward small talk phase with everyone and it's completely discouraging. I dont want to end up alone. i don't wanna be forced into the shadows while i watch everyone else have a life besides me because i just flat out didn't deserve to have one.

tldr someone pls become unhealthily obsessed with me and i will offer the same in return

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P L E A S E stop sending me memes and actually talk to me please please please

you know when you're talking to your friend who you also used to date and they're talking about their new love interests and it's all you can fucking do not to lose your shit and split on them and just listen and congratulate them because logically you love that person because they are your best friend and they also love you but shit just didn't work romantically between the two of you but now every time they talk about it you wanna put scissors in your ears because you feel so fucking lonely and disgusting and unworthy of the thing that everyone else has but you don't??

no me neither