*screaming*

How the idea of randomly posting a goodbye message and offing myself starts to feel past 12 pm

TW - this is a vent poem that contains allusions to topics such as depression, sh, and passive suicidal ideation. It’s not explicitly about religion but it does use a ‘devil’ as a metaphor.

Be safe <3

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There’s a devil on my shoulder

He’s a nasty little thing,

but his whispers are so sweet

A blade tipped with honey, coaxing him to me

I don't remember when he came

Maybe he rode along on the agony of last November

Or maybe he's always been there

Nestled in the back, hiding away in a cloak of laughter

And each day his questions are more and more tempting

When the cloak is stripped away,

When the light of the day fades

I’m left alone to fight this silver tongued enemy.

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Stay safe out there yall, my DMs are open if anyone needs anything.

Remember, it’s never worth it, no matter how tempting it may seem,

having a hard time caring about anything, feels inevitable that i will kill myself

shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up

Can anyone else just like… not handle germs? At fucking all?

I was walking my dog and picked up her shit like a normal fucking dog owner does and then went home and had a 30 minute mental breakdown cleaning my hands until they were fucking raw

What the fuck

nobody:

me: *likes a post*

my ocd: was that post you liked actually good? what if that person is secretly bad and people find out and then you're a bad person by association because you liked their post? what if this post has secret dogwhistles that you don't know about? and by liking it that means you agree with it! reread it 30 times until all the words don't even seem like words anymore and the meaning is mush! what? you can't tell if it is a bad™ post? see, you actually are a bad person because a good person would be able to tell. you are going to hell now! you need to think at least 5 'good' things so you can counteract your eternal damnation!!! now now now now NOW NOW NOW!!!!

*upset after an argument*

“Cmon what are you doing to yourself?”

SHUT THE FUCK UO SHIT THE FUCK UP WHIT THE FUCK UP SHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT THE FULC HO SHE NDJAJSJDNDD FUCK YOU FUCK HOU FUCK YKU UMFJCK YKU

Realized today that I jsut genuinely do not remember the majority of my childhood (…only stuff I remember is trauma tbh)

Most of the happy shit that I know happened was what I’ve been told happened

Do I have any recollection of that??? Noooo

“Oh I’m so excited for my friends birthday pool party!”

My arms/shoulders: 😈

sorry i never replied. everyday is blending together and im losing sense of time