Quick Correction:

I’ve been fed forcefully.

I feel violated.

Ended my 2 days fast with a carb binge.

Good job me, really. That’s great.

Don’t you feel disgusted by your body? By your lack of control?

Don’t you feel disgusting in general?

Look at the skinny girls and boys walking around, basically disappearing in their clothes during winter and being fresh and clean during summer. Then look at you, feeling constricted by your own clothes and being all sweaty.

Now put the food down.

Or don’t.

Your choice.

Imagine going <500 kc4l since the beginning of August without a single binge, and when you binge for the first time your mom goes “I should have had you do push-ups instead of sleeping, omg”

Thanks mom

Life is good🎀

No one’s forcing me to eat, I’ve been relaxing and my stomach doesn’t hurt anymore; I think it was the sight of food to make me feel sick honestly, and if I ate it I just had to p since I felt REALLY sick.

Back on track, let’s see if I manage to hit my <60 this weekend🩷

I’ve been hungry since the day I was born.

I’ve been hungry and hungry and hungry and hungry and hungry and hungry and hungry.

I am hungry. I spend my life going around places, foaming at the mouth like a starving hyena.

All it’s left to do at the end of the day is staring at my body in the mirror and wondering when will this end.

Drinking coke zero gives the impression of you eating junk food, because everyone thinks about “coke” but not the zero🩷

Remember to be gentle 🩷

Remember that your body is not a machine but a living being, so don’t ask it too much in too little time.

When you’re done exercising, take it slow🩷 For example, during summer the days might reach scorching hot temperatures: when you’re done don’t chug ice cold water and go for a cold shower, give yourself time to regain some sort of balance first. Drink, slowly, ambient temperature water instead and, in order to avoid thermic shock, divide your shower in two moments: start with lukewarm water, soap up and then rinse with colder water. Stay hydrated at all times!

Why it’s important to take it slow

Giving the community I’m (mostly) talking to, your body will most likely be already under some kind of pressure, such as high calorie deficit and intense exercise even with ungodly temperatures. You need to take care of yourself in order to reach your goals with the least damage possible⭐️.

You got this🩷

So, my diet finally came in and it’s basically eating the minimum amount of anything so it feels like ⭐️⭐️! I’m so happy and I frel like it’s the start of a new chapter after a very bad downfall🩷.

Starting again at 67 kg Saturday, keeping you weekly updated 🩷

Getting to a point where even only seeing a picture of food makes me feel nauseous and sick.

We’re getting there angels.