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Hold on akutagawa said he'd fight atsushi in 6 months time in (i think) s3.

What if that means for the current tl and how things are going in the plot, atsushi is gonna fight vampire akutagawa?

Cuz i imagine atsushi is gonna keep that 6 months promise.

That's gonna be hella emotional damage.

Nikolai sending this to his friend/victims

Nikolai getting turned into a bird and being a menace in the Decay. No one is safe from him he’s either pecking or ripping strands of hair out of his coworkers for his nest. Fyodor tries to put him in a cage but he escapes because he still has his ability. Later sends him to Sigma’s casino. Nikolai is now dive bombing Sigma’s employees as well as the guests. Only way Sigma can stop him is feeding him piroshki. Later on Sigma gets him a bird house styled to his liking does Nikolai behave. When Nikolai turns back he keeps the birdhouse as a gift and keeps it in his room as a memory he enjoyed.

(This was discussed in my discord chat about a pic I found online)

My new headcanon is that neither Atsushi nor Akutagawa know how babies are made.

Yosano: and they were totally doing it!

Atsushi: doing what?

Yosano: the deed!

Akutagawa: murder?

Ranpo: they don't know

Yosano: you two want some sex ed classes?

Atsushi: excuse me? That sounds like a bad word!

Akutagawa: I am not coming to whatever that is, we are not children

Dazai, with shining eyes: you see when two people really loovvee---

Yosano and Ranpo: *restraining Dazai*

HEAR ME OUT

We all know of the ever changing color of Chuuyas eyes. And this is a perfect moment to perform some of my super special ultra expert self projection!

Basically, what if Chuuyas eyes are also a personalized mood ring? And I don't mean that as in the labs did something to make them change with his ability or something (though I do love the idea), I mean they just change colors every now and then. Like one day they're grey, and then a or so week later they're a bright ass blue.

Imagine Dazai, who has only seen Chuuyas eyes in their Muted grey and blue tones, walks over to tease him while they're outside on a sunny day, then gets blinded because what the hell why are your eyes bright fucking blue?

Chuuya, however, just wants to know why Dazais giving him a weird look because he doesn't bother keeping track of what color his eyes are that day. They just do whatever they want and frankly Chuuya gave up trying to coordinate his outfits to fit so he stopped caring

Not normally where I post my art but I finished a rough design for Atsushi in my Love Can End Even This Pain fanfic, an AU both lovingly and very uncreatively dubbed the Mentor!Chuuya AU where Chuuya finds and takes Atsushi in instead of Dazai

Below the cut is my re-written design notes and some other thoughts I have on him in this!

Design Notes:

-Atsushis black streaks are way more obvious in this AU than they are in canon

-His hair in general is also both fluffier and longer because he’s a tiger why wouldn’t he be blessed with the floof and I also just like drawing the floof

-Atsushis color palette leans into more colors while also still being pretty muted. In future plans he will have an outfit with his classic black and white combo, but that’s a spoiler so gotta wait for that one ^^

-Chuuya stitched a little tiger decoration on his sleeve for shits and giggles when he noticed how much Atsushi wore that shirt specifically (note; this builds on my hc for Chuuya that he knows how to sew from his time in Suribachi with the Sheep; I’ll expand on that when I draw Chuuya design!)

-I hc Atsushi having some sensory issues, so his clothes as a whole are pretty baggy so they don’t rub against his skin. I also hc Atsushi as being someone who likes to have himself pretty covered when given the choice, so he gets a shirt underneath his short sleeve one

-Probably me projecting my own love of boots onto him, but Atsushi almost always wears a pair of military style boots. In my defense, they’re pretty practical for his fighting style

-He keeps pocket watch on him! This is due to his past at the orphanage and a little something I’m excited to write in the fic that happens later on

Gen Thoughts on him:

-In this, Atsushi is more skilled in fighting than in canon because of Chuuya training him. So, he’s also more muscular too

-In one of the chapters I touch on Atsushi having binge eating disorder, and this was one of my major hcs of his. His past really builds up on this, as well as his larger than life appetite. As Atsushi recovers from it, I imagine he would be more of a snacker. Just always eating something small while still having his regular meals. If I’m being honest, I don’t intend for him to fully recover from his general food anxiety since a part of the hc is him not understanding when he actually is hungry, so he is muscular but also skinnier than normal

-I’m also going to be making him a lot less naive. His environment would shift his morals pretty drastically imo, with them becoming more similar to Chuuya in a ‘I won’t fight unless you pick one with me, but start it and I won’t hesitate’ way. I will, however, be keeping his no killing moral code in place for the most part. In general, Atsushi condones violence more than he does in canon though

-Very tiny and another general hc of mine but he loves music. Almost always listening to it and has heard some of every genre. Several pairs of earbuds and headphones no doubt

-In case you haven’t read the fic yet (please do ik I’m slow to update but I do hold a lot of love for it), Chuuya gives Atsushi a white tiger plush named Shiro. Atsushi likes to hug him every night because the plush reminds him he’s not alone. Atsushi will also sometimes stare at Shiro while talking to Byakko in his head. Byakko does not appreciate being visualized as a toy, but Atsushi figures out how to brush him off pretty quickly.

New headcanon that Atsushi isn't actually a fan of his birthdays. Especially right after he leaves the orphanage. I feel like on his b-days there things would get extra bad. The only good thing is that the other kids would avoid him instead of joining in on the harassment from the staff, and even then they'd avoid him like the plague, giving him glances that screamed they were disgusted and scared of him. The staff would double down instead. Because of this Atsushi probably didn't mention his birthday to anyone, and was hesitant about it when any of the other ADA members asked. Ranpo ofc knew, and the first time Atsushis b-day passed Atsushi walked in to see a piece of candy from Ranpos stash on his desk. Now everyone knows when it is because of that, but the most they do is take a bit of the workload off of him (AKA get Dazai to do his own work, which he doesn't argue against aside from some complaining that day), and put something on his desk, because they know celebrations make him uncomfortable.

I have brought to you headcanons for Chuuya, Atsushi, and Dazai!

WARNING: These headcanons are about eating disorders and unhealthy relationships with food in general. I am not a professional and have not had any ED's myself, so these headcanons are based solely off of my research and conversations I've had with loved ones who have experienced them. Please seek professional help if you struggle with any eating disorders and proceed with caution.

EDIT: added all the tags I forgot

1. Atsushi has Binge Eating Disorder. Since the orphanage restricted his food so much, he eats uncontrollably a lot and tends to starve himself a bit in between binges. Kyouka knows and tries to help Atsushi, but I don't actually think a lot of the ada members know. Atsushi hides it well and Kyouka respects Atsushis wishes to keep it under wraps. Dazai probably thinks something is up but isn't sure, and Ranpo probably knows about it, but neither say anything to avoid making Atsushi uncomfortable or nervous. Atsushi doesn't really eat in front of people either. The only exception is snacking when he gets super bad hunger panes (I'm talking not going days with eating little to nothing, usually that happens because of mission). Even then he will only binge or really eat in general until he's alone.

2. Chuuya used to have ARFID (Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder). Because of him living in the slums until he was 15, he got used to ignoring hunger panes and limiting how much he was eating because of a lack of food, so when he was accepted into the Port Mafia, he brought those habits with him, and would only eat a certain amount at specific times, usually when he was alone. He probably only ate certain foods like bread, canned products, mostly things that wouldn't expire or would provide a lot of energy without eating much. Koyou, Dazai, and the Flags all helped him work through it so he doesn't have it by the time Canon rolls around and is careful about maintaining a good relationship with food for their sakes. Koyou also checks in on him whenever they meet up.

3. Not really ED related and I've seen this one a lot, but Dazai has days where he has a food aversion because of his depression. The thought of or seeing food makes him sick, or sometimes it's just days where he doesn't feel hungry at all. The days range from being able to eat if its his canned crab, to only drinking a glass or two of whiskey if anything (I imagine that whiskey is a kind of comfort drink to him because of the days where he drank at bar lupin with oda and ango), to refusing to eat and drink anything, whether it's his safe/comfort food or drink or not. Kunikida knows this and it's the main reason he checks in on Dazai to see if he's eaten. I don't think Kunikida is entirely aware of his safe food and drink, though, so if it's one of those days, Kunikida will just take a lot of time gently urging Dazai to eat something. Ranpo also probably knows about it and will sometimes throw a piece of candy Dazais way on those days. The combined efforts usually convince Dazai to eat a bit of canned crab, though it's always alone. Chuuya also knows and will get on Dazai about not eating. He'll also prep some canned crab and keeps a bottle of whiskey at his place just in case. Sure they're not healthy at all but it's better than nothing. The food aversion days were more frequent and worse back when he was still in the PM, and he's gotten better with them now. Though they do still happen every now and then of course.