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chronically-ouch

3 weeks ago

The Premium Package: Bonus Round

Bloodwork came back positive for GAD65 antibodies. So now my rheumatologist is assuming not just neuropsychiatric lupus, but also Stiff Person Syndrome and GAD65 autoimmune encephalitis, based on my imaging and other test results.

I guess we’re just collecting neuroimmune disorders like trading cards now. Got brain fog? Muscle spasms? Random hallucinations? Congratulations, you might qualify for the rare holographic edition.

At this point, it feels less like getting answers and more like unlocking increasingly cursed DLC. The collector’s set is not supposed to be this complete.

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chronically-ouch

1 month ago

Welcome to the Premium Autoimmune Package

Hi. I’m not new to being sick, but I’m very new to being taken seriously. That only happened because my body is currently collapsing fast enough that doctors couldn’t look away anymore.

I live with overlapping autoimmune diseases, but recently I got upgraded to the “CNS involvement” tier. Think brain inflammation, spinal pressure, hallucinations, cognitive fog, and one healing spinal fracture I didn’t even realize I had. I thought it was just my usual back pain. Turns out it was… a broken bone.

I’ve been hospitalized twice in the last month. A spinal tap showed my brain pressure was way too high, 32 cmH₂O, where normal is typically between 10 and 20. My spinal fluid was full of immune cells , 40% of them, when 0–5% is normal. My MRI has white matter lesions. It’s not MS. It likely neuropsychiatric lupus. It might be a weird intersection of multiple things. No one’s totally sure yet.

What I do know is I’m on IVIG now, possibly headed for a brain shunt, and trying to stay out of the hospital. Also, I’m trans and had to pause testosterone because of clot risks from treatment. No, there’s no workaround. Yes, it sucks.

This blog is my space to document what it’s like to be visibly declining after years of being invisibly sick. No pity required. Just here to tell the truth about what it’s like to have the Premium Autoimmune Package, full access unlocked.

Current Working diagnoses:

• Neuropsychiatric Lupus (NPSLE)

• Myasthenia Gravis

• Psoriatic Arthritis

• Intracranial Hypertension

• Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome