Not Shifting Related - Blog Posts

TW: "sewerslide" mention!!!

Venting lmao

Uhm so I've been going through it honestly. But I hate it because I'm pretty sure it's all just me and it's in my head as it usually tends to be.

Anyhow, long story short I've been feeling worse than ever and keep contemplating just giving up on everything. It's not even shifting it's just I feel that I genuinely can't. do anything. even the knowledge or the hope that I can js get out of here isn't helping. I keep crashing out honestly. I haven't felt like this in so long I was so sure I would never feel downright bad. I'm genuinely literally just putting pity on myself atp and it doesn't help thinking about it. but I cant ask for help they don't want to reach out to anyone, they wont let me.

But I want to try even if for just one last time to make it through. I would like to shift today, or even just change my state of mind despite it being really goddamn hard for me right now. I just hope it won't be my last time.

Hey, don't kill yourself, Matchablossom heavy in the OVA

I WAS SO SCARED THEY WERENT GONNA RELEASE IT ON CRUNCHYROLL TODAY BUT I CHEKCED THE OFFICIAL IG AND THEY DECIDED TO RELEASE IT BC SCREW IT AND NOW ITS RELEASEDDDDDDD

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ok I'm safe chat

update I had a misunderstanding to understand and though not everything is understood I don't have to permanently delete myself for now :p

For the ask games I'm sorry that's gonna be a while btw‼️ trust yall will hear my yap soon, so don't let go of that breath buddy you're not freed from my rants/j

I felt so overwhelmed today honestly... like I just didn't know how to react to anything at all. I didn't like to feel the contact on myself but I dismissed it for light dizziness or something. Now I want to isolate myself but it wasn't even that big I just idk

I feel guilty too chffvhgvhfhyfg

MY IDIOT AHH ACCIDENTLY POSTED THE UNFINISHED ANSWER OF AN ASK OHHHH MY DAYS💔 WHAT DO I DO--- I DELETED IT AND NOW ITS GONE HELP ME NOOOOOO

Ricky when I catch you ricky

Ricky when I catch you

RICKY WHEN I CATCH YOU RICKY

Friend and I finished sk8 and now it's to your eternity... jus say you hate me/j

anyone out there still thinking about cindereki...

the unholy trinity of piss-poor caretakers, tag yourself:

tomboy, meaning "this child is clearly queer but let's hope it goes away"

sensitive, meaning "clearly neurodivergent and often distressed but let's keep going until they grow numb"

mature, meaning "traumatized but let's ignore that"