Whatever - Blog Posts

i am an artist

although, i haven't created anything in a few years.

i'm an artist, and yet, the only thing i do (CAN do) is pitifully observe

i am an observer, then.

i suppose it's hard to see myself as anything else, considering my singular hobby is perceiving stories.

i read, i watch, i play; i hear stories around me constantly. everything from the niche post to the highest grossing video game, or the strangers on the street to my family-- they all have a story i've seen. one that means something.

funny thing though, i can't read between the lines to save my life. as much as i observe and think about these things on a daily basis-

I never fully understand what it is that i see

maybe its a difference in interpretation between myself and my peers that makes me feel this way (i've always been a part of the crowd)

i'll dont think ill ever know why i don't get it. i cant understand anything, i've lived alone for too long. even before i was alone, i never understood them. I was too awkward. Too forward.

i dont think i'll care enough to know, though. it doesn't really matter to me. nothing ever does in the end.

maybe thats why i dont understand.

we did not in fact make it

CAN WE MAKE IT??!? CAN WE HAVE STROINTS???

Oc-tober day 4

Her name's Akane, meaning "red demon" due to her eye color and the fact that she's completely devoid of emotion 👀

Screw horoscopes, presenting the correct way to determine luck each morning

Oh wow... so many notes 0_o

SU fandom is big

I need for the next month… gonna take a long break… since ahhh my hand is aching… and I was wondering… why… and while on working on my piece… I realised… ah that’s where I press my pen into….

... panna cotta, I hope you like zergs, because if you don't, then pretend that you haven't seen this first work<///3 you know, boo, they say as you name the boat, so it will float, - and we're going to be a niche at the bottom of the sea

I just cannot wait for the day Lindy Ruff is fired.

I am tired of having the tiny hope I have be taken away every damn game.

I am tired of seeing the players, who are clearly just dun not in the sense that they aren't trying but in the sense that they have gotten used to the disappointment that is this season, be exhausted every game, especially when players like Daws, L. Hughes and literally anyone else who is showing signs of stress clearly aren't playing in tiptop shape.

I am tired of Lindy sounded disappointed any time he is on screen, no matter if we do well or not that game, it's consistent disappointment and disinterest when I hear him talk and it sucks.

I am tired of New Jersey somehow finding a way to be a joke even in the sports world with our ONLY major professional, this team is many people only knowledge of Jersey and yet we are STILL a joke or something to just not be respected.

I am tired of every game where everyone is sure this just HAS to be Lindy's last game and yet somehow he is still there the next time we play, that somehow someway he probably won't be fired till the end of the season and EVEN THEN who knows if he actually will me.

I am tired and over it but I'll still be watching the games, I'll still be there when we lose once again, I'll still be there talking to Sky saying shit about how much I hate Lindy and how he is running this team into the ground, I'll still be complaining about Ruff to my parents because they have to know everything wrong going on.

I'll still be here because just because a team is doing shit doesn't mean you should drop it just because of that, that just shows you weren't actually a fan in my opinion.

I have far too much state pride for my own good because I genuinely love this state and love this team, so I'll stick through the good and the bad, continue to be slightly angry with myself for not being able to get into hockey last year when we were badass.

And I'll still be watching and eventually buy more stuff for the Devils because let's be real, the second that sales drop and the Devs aren't as popular the club isn't stay in Jersey, so might as well support the bastards ya know?

And hey, who knows, maybe one day we shall see Lindy gone and this team flourishing, but until then I'll just keep being sorta upset that we aren't doing as well as we can and drinking my problems away (this is a joke and I promise it's just water, Liquid Death specifically).

"we need more ptsd representation in media!!!" and then they complain about atsushi's flashbacks

inconsistent, messy, and from memory

pov me on my phone last year during school wishing it was halloween already (I do this every year 💀)

resisting,,,,

the urge to,,,,,,,,,,,

make,,

fnaf fanart,,,,,,

GAH !!

The singular form of "lice" is "louse"

If the singular form of “mice” is “mouse”, shouldn’t the singular of “lice” be “louse”?

had a friend help share my art, so thanks (theyre kinda just here but im grateful)

the quality isnt the best but whatever (and there is accidendental red marker on wallaces eye;-;)

i don't get how people could think that law is going to be part of the strawhats. he has his own crew. are the heart pirates nothing to them? do these people just ignore their existence, or do they think law is the type to, i don't know, abandon them forever to go be part of another pirate crew? law would never do that, and never in his life has he shown interest in doing that. he's not going to be part of the straw hat pirates. he has his own thing going on, he said it multiple times.

can we talk abt touya's medical trauma more please

i love that i can be cringe on tumblr and talk about my feelings… Whatever

YOU AND ME IN OUR PLAYHOUSE LIVING IN A VEIL WE NEVER NEED TO GO WITHOUT MEMORIES BRING NO JOY OR PEACE WE ARE ALONE AND ALL WE NEED

TUNING OUT OF THE POSION EVERY WAKING DAY INTOLERANCE TO OVERCOME FORTUNES WON BY THE BOYS WITH GUNS WE ARE ALONE, NOWHERE TO RUN!1!1!1!1!1!11

Can someone diagnose me?

I'm aware I have depression. I have cut myself multiple times and often don't have feelings and feel like I'm wearing a strangers mask. I believe I have minor anxiety and probably insomnia since I get 2-4 hours of sleep a night. 6 on rare occasions. What exactly is wrong with me and how do I change this? I'm way to scared to go to a doctor or even tell anyone.

does anyone else have this weird feeling when you absolutely can't recognize yourself or your surroundings? Like, I'm using the bathroom all normal and suddenly "WHO THE FUCK ARE Y--- oh its me"

once I genuinely stayed five whole minutes really fucking confused and scared cause I couldn't recognize me in the mirror for the sake of it and was just staring at it

it's scares me and if I tell this to someone else I'm afraid they think I'm genuinely going insane

like, on one hand I'm a shifter so maybe I could take that as a sign or something idrk tbh, but on another hand I'm just kinda worried I might have some kind of problem or its some kind of trauma response that I can't remember

pls someone tell me I'm not crazy and you guys feel the same all the time so I could stop overthinking it

viewing queer identities as “this is the label that makes me happy and feels most accurate now” rather than “this is who I am, was, and always will be” will definitely take the pressure off, friends. changing your mind is proof that you have one.

maybe Toya is the problem

Vierla doodles….🥀🥀🥀

dunno why but when I think of a possible Gwen Stacy for the noirverse I imagine her as a guy. I feel like if they added a Gwen it would be part of the 2020/fanservice comics, so I guess it's me holding out hope they'd make a canonically gay Peter Parker even though it felt like they really tried going "no! he's straight!" in it.

If any version we're to make him gay, it'd be the og series, but I can't see him being in a relationship so idk. I just don't like what they did to him in the 2020 comics ig. completely stripped him of his character values and traits imo

Been having a lot of thoughts about Gwen Stacy lately, I don't know if I should continue my take on her if she was in the Noirverse. (Her and Harry, I wanna keep their bff streak alive 💔💔)

Gwarry bestfriendism is a need, 6160 did them dirty for making them married.... Should've just made gwen & mj together smh

Spot the difference with the few changes I made that really freshened up the piece /j

a drawing I just did that I will not be finishing because I don't want him naked but I don't want to cover the arms because I like them

honestly despite making a LOT of drawings of him, most are shit or just doodles

Here's my rendition of 2009 and Spider-verse noir in the sims. I love them very much and use them for inspo and references. 10/10, I think everyone should do this.

A few dumb screenshots I have plus grim below the cut <3

riot fest lineup drops tomorrow... got a feeling they're gonna be on it!

COBRA STARSHIP NATION HOW WE FEELING xD