Might Be A Bit Sensitive But It Annoys The Shit Out Of Me When People Throw The Word Anxiety Around And

it’s hard to hate someone when you can remember what it was like to love them. I wish I could erase all memories of you from my mind.

I hate how I want him to miss me.

I hope he misses me.

Sometimes my anger is too much

The way it feels like the way I imagine it might if you smashed all the glass in your house from screaming and then used those shards to construct new eyes by digging them into the already existing ones.

The same way i imagine it might feel if I pressed nails into every inch of my skin

Like open heart surgery without any anaesthesia

Like constant electrocution

I’d rather any of those than to feel my own anger over the fact that you never text me back.

they said that if you’re procrastinating then rest one day and just plan everything out and start working the next day but now I’m procrastinating the planning so what do I do now smack my head into a wall or what.

everyday I wonder,

how much longer can I do this ??

and then the next day passes,

and the next, and the next, and the next,

and all of a sudden it’s been three years.

and I am still, just sitting here, wondering,

how much longer can I do this ??

if I think about you long enough or hard enough will I cross your mind?

Feeling evil (just wanna be loved by someone that only has eyes for me)