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Thoughts about Akechi because he's infected my brain

We really never see the "real akechi" in Persona 5 or even in Royal, I think. That's not to say there aren't honest moments and real emotions, but every moment we have with Akechi is him trying to get us to serve some greater goal of his. In vanilla that goal is obvious: he wants to get close to you to further his vengeance on Masayoshi Shido. In the third semester that goal is less obvious but I'd say he wants you to think he's an irredeemable monster and that you shouldn't care about him so you reject Maruki's deal. Third semester is slightly more honest with Akechi- his convictions and feelings are all real, but he portrays them in whatever way will get you to do what he wants while keeping you at an arm's distance.

I think the only moment in the whole game where Akechi isn't putting up some sort of mask is after you beat him in the engine room. Before he's kinda having a big feelings moment so while it's honest, it's an extreme. After? He has no more reason to act, he just has his one request: destroy Masayoshi Shido in his stead. And you do, for the last request of the boy you never really got to know.

So who is the real Akechi? I don't think Akechi knows himself, I think he's lived so many years with a mask as Shido's Assassin or the Detective Prince or a pleasant boy that he doesn't know which is real. I don't think we'll ever see the real Akechi, not in anything mainline, both because they better not be making another Persona 5 and because there is no 'real' Akechi without the masks, without the deception. His character is like Joker's, he's constantly tailoring himself to be what he needs to be because that's the only way a bastard child like himself can survive. It's why I like wildcard Akechi fics so much, because he's just as malleable as Joker. They're rivals, after all.

Y'all my brother snatched my phone out of my hand earlier during the SINGLE, SOLITARY TIME I was writing a Ryomina kiss- not even anything spicy, just a kiss, and he was like "nope" and gave me my phone back. I was both mortified and annoyed because he said Ryoji's name was a typo because apparently he doesn't know anything about persona 3. I made this to cope.

Y'all it was literally the first time I ever wrote two characters just kissing, how was that when he decided to read my work for the first time????

Sometimes I think my therapist was very wrong and I do, in fact, have ADHD and maybe knowing that fact for certain and getting access to ways to manage it would help a lot actually.

"Oh *****'s such a gifted child, she's very smart and answers all the teacher's questions. There's no way something could possibly be different about her!"

Then the years go by and I get worse and worse in class as teachers start assigning homework and projects but it can't be any sort of neurodivergence because '***** was always such a smart child, she's clearly just not putting in the effort anymore.'

I barely take care of myself because doing things like brushing my teeth or taking a shower or cleaning my room don't... Make me feel accomplished in any way, they just make me feel like I wasted my time and now my mouth tastes like mint and I can't eat or I'm all cold and wet or my stuff is just going to get taken back out anyway. It's probably depression or an anxiety disorder, let's give her some medicine for that.

The medicine helps me with some mild mood swings, but those become a non-issue when I'm out of school and the effort put in driving to the pharmacy and refilling my prescription just isn't worth it anymore.

I should probably go to the doctor, the dentist, the optometrist, but I really don't feel like scheduling an appointment right now, it can wait until my schedule's more free. Then my schedule gets more free and I forget because I always do unless the problem is right in front of me. There's a crack in the ceiling of my room that I should probably tell my parents about but I kept forgetting until my dad walked into my room and saw the crack himself.

Is something wrong with me? Or am I just lazy?

My therapist was probably right. I don't have ADHD, I'm just not putting in the effort.

Y'all ever find a fic that just latches onto your brain and refuses to let go? I have definitely spent a healthy amount of time thinking about Otherworld Messiah I promise. Have some art for this amazing, wonderful fic!

I had a lot of fun drawing this. This style actually feels really comfortable compared to my less cartoony style, it's certainly a lot more fun to doodle in during work!

Here's the timelapse if any of y'all wanna see it, slight flash warning because it goes really fast and switches backgrounds.

I wanna tag the author but idk if they have a Tumblr so just go read the fic, it's a lot of fun!

Reading this and then reading the comments and reblogs feels like people are deliberately missing the point and continuing to describe the places where shuake's 'toxicity' is on display. Mainly, the interrogation room. Y'all, y'all, they're enemies in the interrogation room. Akechi has no choice but to kill Joker in the interrogation room, because Shido wants Joker dead. The interrogation room and all the lying and manipulating each other outside of it all happen because they are doomed. They're both pawns in a twisted game, manipulated against each other to suit their respective roles. We never technically see them in canon outside of some sort of doomed context (even in third sem) but they still manage to make each other better even when they're doomed. Akechi gives up his revenge plans for Joker, and Joker lets go of an 'ideal' reality with Akechi to respect Akechi's wishes. They both improve after meeting one another, it's definitely not toxic.

common misconception is that shuake is toxic: WRONG. they are doomed. it is not them that fucks up their relationship; in fact, they actually are shown to improve each other rather than detriment. its their circumstances that fuck them up so so bad. literal god pit them against each other. they love each other but the world does not love them

A Hero's Spirit was the first of those for me. Then This is an Adjuration. Both high quality Legend of Zelda fics that I would highly recommend to anyone that enjoys Zelda

reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

Please tell me about your cursed Akechi AU

if anyone asks me about my cursed akechi au, i will post a long af explanation of why it is cursed and why it Haunts me to this day.

Hey guys *shoves my 7 other WIPS off to the side*

Anyone wanna join me in writing some existential dread fics where game protagonists don't have control over their own choices? I feel like the Undertale/Deltarune fandom has a monopoly on these kinds of works and I think more video game fandoms should make their silent protagonists into vessels for all the whump and angst in the world

Ok but Akechi had to get that Joker plush custom made, it's not like Joker's appearance is public. He had to find a person both able and willing to make a custom plushie, then he had to give them some sort of reference to make the plushie based off (which,, he probably had to give a description because cameras don't work in the metaverse. A very detailed description, because the plushie is accurate.) He probably paid a lot of money because custom plushies aren't cheap, I feel like this information is very important for everyone to know

Anyway amazing comic 20/10

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I physically can't not reblog this, you've forced my hand with the sheer amazingness of your art. The characterization, the pacing, the artwork, the colors and poses and backgrounds and anatomy,, it all just- oof ouch my heart. Beautiful, amazing, everyone needs to see this

there's a friendly face at the end of the road

aftermath

ERMMM this takes place after long winter au third semester.... it could honestly vary but i think sometime btwn 5-10 yrs. sumire is abroad, akira moved back to tokyo after finishing hs/college, goro is. around

SORRY ITS 5am again so ill make this quick . again

QUICK DISCLAIMER this is kinda like a lot of me projecting LMFAOSDOGKJSDHFK@#)40 so like dont read into this tooooo much bc idk royaltrio cld be insnanely ooc here but. YEA.

started thinking abt akira constantly calling up goro and sumire even after 1) goro dies (so they think) and 2) sumire distances herself post-third sem. i elaborate on this on my shusumi fic........ sorry subtle shilling

^ tldr i think these 3 kinda drift apart after the snowglobe world crumbles, that false reality that ironically brought them so close together..... back in reality, things feel Different (but this is Our reality right? why does it feel so strange now?) and so. well its just not the same, no amtter what

the. the “the love was there. it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. there were just too many forces against it. but it still matters that the love was there” tumblr post

even though they loved each other and knew it too, there was also some sort of looming feeling that it won't last - but it does, still. it exists, in some meaningful sense-

akira sees and thinks about sumire and goro in everything he does, his day to day life, worries about them, wants to tell them about all he's doing, wants to hear about what they're up to. so he does so by leaving voicemails (although in this case sumire changed her number LMFAO. he does it anyway)

in the same vein, sumire thinks about all the things she'd like to tell goro, but with no address to send it to, it's useless. but she writes them anyway - more and more as a solace to herself, conversing with the memory of goro in her head, making him live on in that sense. and with akira i think it's a little more subtle. here she's trying to find a coffee shop that measures up to lebalnc, and of course she doesn't. there's only one leblanc and only one akira. but yeah like in sumire's case she kinda goes these "roundabout" ways in her Missing Them. theres also the added thing of her wanting to be more independent (from goro and akira and kasumi and tokyo and etc etc etc. also elaborated on in said fic)

goro! i think there's smth so poignant about visiting your own grave (i wrote sumire doing htis in another fic. thats an aside) hair cut, mask on, no gloves, he's a different sort of goro akechi but not really in any meaningful sense either. he's just different. sumire leaves the scarf (i think w sumire, she learns from goro like. omg im blanking on the word. LIKE reliability..? thinking realistically? smth like that.) so shes subconsciously thinks oh ill get him something useful like a scarf to keep warm (and a lil more subtle on the love aspect). akira gets him a lovely bouquet, straightforward and honest w his love/adoration, never afraid to spell it out. smth abt goro needing to live a new life now but also he keeps looking back - but this time, there's love when he looks back. there's still love

a kind of "youll always have home with me" sentiment btwn these 3. even if we never return there, youll still have a place in my heart

like "i dont think ill ever have that kind of love again. but i had it once. and even if i couldnt keep it, its still important." THIS IS HARD TO EXPLAIN

anyway tldr theres just some sentiment w royaltrio w Wanting to move on but also holding onto your past, and learning how to reconcile with the horrible parts but also the tender and lovely parts. sometimes there's stuff you gotta leave behind and grow past, grow around, even if it's good. even if it's good, you still have to push forward. <- a lesson that i'm trying to teach myself currently so thats why this is very. projecting. LMFAODSJKHJKSDKW sorry im crnge goodnight

these notes are horrible dont read these.

I know Ren is the player character and somewhat kinda a self insert but I will never understand fanfictions that make him hate people he clearly obviously canonically does not hate and, in fact, absolutely adores. The two biggest offenders for this are Morgana and Akechi.

Morgana and Ren are absolutely inseparable, Ren couldn't do anything when Morgana wasn't there. Ren takes care of Morgana, lets him sleep in his bed, comforts him when he has nightmares. They're brothers, your honor. If Morgana were human his last name would, in fact, be Amamiya before he inevitably gets folded into the Sakura family with Ren.

Akechi was literally Ren's greatest wish, like yeah sure you could interpret that platonically somehow, I don't know exactly how you would do it, but Ren does NOT hate Akechi. He wants Akechi to have a shot at life, he doesn't want to forget him. They are in some very complicated vaguely homoerotic rivalry and both are absolutely giving their all to it.

Various persons 3 reload prompts and things I want more of because I have been inhaling persona 3 fics at the speed of light and I have ideas even if I don't want to be the one to write them (yet, maybe I'll get around to it, don't worry about that.) May include crossover suggestions because those are half my life.

Nyx isn't necessarily a bad mom per say, she's just.. a goddess. She neither understands nor tries to understand humanity in all its intricacies, being so above them all. But.. she did try to offer Ryoji some small kindness as he existed as human. (We're basically going so hard on the strange family?? dynamics between the weird god-things. I think it'd be fun!)

Ryoji and Minato couldn't really claim to be gods, (well, maybe Ryoji could - Thanatos was the Greek god of death after all) but they're definitely not mortals anymore. They're.. powerful, otherworldly. (Potential badassery or potential angst, depending on how you interpret that. There are some fics that touch on this but not nearly enough)

Minato Arisato had existed during the dark hour for ten years after the accident. Every day at midnight, the world would be enveloped in green and shadows would roam the world. After living through the horrors of the dark hour, it only made sense that Minato would have something to show for it. (More slightly op Minato fics please. Again, I've read a few but not nearly enough! It doesn't help that none of them were finished 😔)

Percy Jackson crossover y'all. Come onnn, it's too easy and I have only found 2 so far. Isekai persona characters in or let Minato and Ryoji be kinda gods.

Follow up to that, it's so easy and fun to chuck characters into unsuspecting worlds via the power of I'm the author and I can do what I want. Isekai the shit out of your favorite characters. BNHA is my go-to because it's such a fun place to chuck people but like,, why not Undertale? Why not pokemon? Just fuckin yeet them into your favorite media franchise.

Truly 😔

read shuake and maruki is mischaracterized read any other ship and akechi is mischaracterized why can't i ever win

I'm a literal cat on his way to steal yo girl

Oh yeah so it turns out working a job while still living with your parents, specifically when one of your parents works the exact same job, fucking sucks. Like, I told my workplace I couldn't do 6 am shifts, they scheduled me for a 6 am shift. I would honestly just skip the shift as a 'fuck you I set my boundaries' but they can literally call my parents on me. I am currently staying up late and eating unhealthy food in hopes that when morning comes I will be deemed too sick to work this fucking shift.

Honestly I would rather be fired than work for a place that doesn't respect my boundaries with shifts but again, parents. This job is hell and I hate it and I hate working for a corporation that treats me like a robot.

Heck, maybe the thing already does exist, maybe it's completed, but I need more of it! What I'm saying is that my fanfiction is not born out of love but out of frustration. Is that unhealthy? Maybe. But does it work? Absolutely.

Anyone else have all these ideas for fanfictions you want to see but you can't really find anything that fits the criteria anywhere? Or at least none that are completed. And you know you could try and write it yourself but honestly writing another story sounds like a pain and you really don't want to?

Like, y'all, I don't particularly enjoy writing that much, I like writing concepts for scenes and saying how things will play out but when it actually comes to formatting all that into a story it's not actually that fun. I just get so upset at the fact that this specific piece of fanfiction doesn't already exist in the world (or it isn't finished) that I go 'fine, I'll do it myself.' And I gotta post it for people to see because other people might be looking for that specific thing too!

Anyone else have all these ideas for fanfictions you want to see but you can't really find anything that fits the criteria anywhere? Or at least none that are completed. And you know you could try and write it yourself but honestly writing another story sounds like a pain and you really don't want to?

Like, y'all, I don't particularly enjoy writing that much, I like writing concepts for scenes and saying how things will play out but when it actually comes to formatting all that into a story it's not actually that fun. I just get so upset at the fact that this specific piece of fanfiction doesn't already exist in the world (or it isn't finished) that I go 'fine, I'll do it myself.' And I gotta post it for people to see because other people might be looking for that specific thing too!

Random bit of Lightning Lore: One time I was sewing because I like sewing sometimes. I had one of those pizza cutters but for fabric and was trying to cut through some fabric with it, like you do. But my middle finger on my left hand was just an itty bit too close to the edge of the ruler I was using to keep my line straight and I sliced clean through the part of the finger where the outer edge of your nail meets skin. There wasn't even any blood or anything, just a clean cut through my finger.

...I honestly can't believe my lore was just an injury story, secondary lore: whenever I'm trying to fall asleep at night I'll usually imagine a self-insert character interacting with whatever story seems most fun to interact with at the moment. Currently it's my Wings of Fire OC Streak existing in the MHAverse and working on the side of the league of villains because she got isekai'd there and AFO immediately asserted himself as the 'queen' of her 'tribe' because hello this is a freaking dragon of course AFO is going to force her on his side. Streak's not happy about it, but she's tired of going against her tribe (OC lore) and doesn't bother trying to leave. That doesn't mean she won't try to spare the children wherever she can because hello those are little dragonets wtf your majesty.

Anyway she keeps referring to Shigaraki as princess because in her mind, calling him a prince would be an insult and it's low-key kinda hilarious imagining how people keep thinking "there's another head of the LoV??" When it's literally just Shiggy who's very not happy about being called a princess.

it's so weird to me that everyone on this website is a human person outside of their weird internet niche so rb this with a random bit of your lore

Imagine being a Persona 5 fan but ignoring the blatant anti bigotry themes in the story. The Phantom Thieves actively fight against an oppressive system that corrupt people in power try to force upon them. The current state of the world is no different and shouldn't be accepted.

Shouta couldn’t help himself, he blinked. And in that one, crucial moment, a demon tore its way into the world.

The being appeared from a tornado of brilliant blue fire, so bright it hurt Shouta’s eyes, roaring a deep, inhuman roar. Claws ripped through the flames, glinting in the firelight as bladed heels dug into the concrete. It had no face, just a mass of fire in the vague shape of eyes and a mouth on a smooth mask under a top hat. Inky black wings flared out from behind the creature, covering the moon and stars in complete darkness.

“YOU DARE HARM MY TRICKSTER?” The entity roared, towering over Shouta like a predator would its prey. Pure dark energy flowed from the thing’s claws, sucking the warmth from the air in an instant. Shouta felt an unnatural fear pierce his being, the kind that made him want to cower and hide and never come out. “BEGONE WITH YOU!”

First official art for A Transfer of Power, A Will of Rebellion! Scene taken from chapter 7, The First Infiltration

I didn't originally want to share stuff from this fic here on Tumblr, after all, this was more a Legend of Zelda/LU account. But then I started posting my Persona 3 Reload reactions and decided yeah, this is a 'whatever tf I want' account, Beyond The Mirror can be my Legend of Zelda account. So, here's what I've been working on lately! Art and writing for this one fanfiction. I'll figure out how to put images into ao3... Eventually. Maybe when I actually get some work done on the next chapter

Have the speedpaint!

Ah. Nevermind. Started episode Aigis.

Smh I thought I was supposed to die at the end of the game, credits are rolling and I am not, in fact, dead. How dare I be misled so, either by the game faking me out or by the internet.

Smh I thought I was supposed to die at the end of the game, credits are rolling and I am not, in fact, dead. How dare I be misled so, either by the game faking me out or by the internet.

I finished Kamiki's social link, and uh

what

WHAT??

Did they just not wanna show him dying or is he secretly a magic being or smth?? Wtf?? I was having a moment and they just,, I'm so confused.

Sooo I was fighting the reaper bc I heard that's how you unlock the final Monad door within the passage. I failed the first time, got everyone confused and waffling about till the reaper finally killed us, but the second time?

Junpei said he's got my back, and he actually had my back! Koromaru ran away after being inflicted with fear, so I thought we would definitely lose. Like, only 3 party members? No way I could win. But Junpei, my boi, my bro, he landed a critical hit, letting me get in an all out attack that ACTUALLY DEFEATED THE REAPER!!

Anyway this pixie just did 9999 damage I'm going to cry

Can Yukari not learn Salvation?? I swear I thought she would be able to she's like,, the healing person.

Sooo.. I got to January 1st in P3R. Man the music and atmosphere suddenly just,, wow. Is that the Tartarus theme I hear? Everything is slightly desaturated, it seriously feels incredible. I'm just taking a moment to hang out in the lobby, listening and exploring the slightly dreary grey world I live in. People may not know the end is coming, but the world feels it. The only spot of color I've found is the Velvet Room, the one place unaffected by Nyx's approach.

It was a bit hard to take the jumble of vocab words that got spit at me seriously, but the art and music really know how to make me care, to make me take this seriously.

Y'all should see how my face positively lights up every time I see the dark hour cutscene when I didn't decide to go to Tartarus because that usually means I get to see Pharos and I love this strange eldritch child. He just shows up, says something vague and ominous, smiles about being friends, and dips. It's amazing, thank you for making sure I know when the full moon is. It's completely redundant because I see the deadline constantly but your efforts are appreciated because you're trying to help you strange eldritch child.

Mmm ok ngl P3R has *not* been doing a very good job with it's supposedly impactful moments so far. Like, some of these moments just don't have the vibes to make them feel like they're actually important, when logically I know they're supposed to be. The characters are all standing around in their basic poses in a basic shot, the music (while amazing) doesn't fit the emotion (like, did they seriously just go straight back to default dark hour theme on 9/5?) and as good as the animations and voice acting are, they're undercut by the pauses from waiting for the player to finish reading.

I watched the first persona 3 movie, and the contrast between the game moment and the movie moment for Fuuka's persona reveal revealed to me just how good it could've been but wasn't. Idk, I keep hearing how P3 has the best story but I'm just not seeing it. Was it better in portable? The story moments just haven't been hitting right.

I FOUND IT

I FINALLY FOUND IT

Hi yes I have been searching for this post for like,, a week now because I wanted to see it again and I just remembered I could go back through my liked posts. This is very amazing art ♥️

black mask redesign i guess