Maybe In Another Life I Can Be Gentle. Maybe There My Soul Is Kind.

:/

“always a death knell, never a dove”

sad sad girl, smoking to lana all on her lonesome

I just feel so ugly inside and out.

it just hurts to have such a strong word used against you. and not even any gesture apology has been given, how hard is it to send a three sentence paragraph? put a playlist together? apologize?

8.21.23 - Second First Day (excerpt) I wonder how life would be different if he was just a little nicer when I was a kid. I tend to think about this a lot. I wonder how he can even bear looking at me, how he does not realize the extent of his damage- how he ruined a everything for me. I wonder a lot of things about him, fully knowing that I will never get any answers.

i'm sorry for the awful audio of the spoken word, i am not sorry for my emotion.