Just because you haven't shifted yet doesn't mean you can't Will you trust in what I'll tell you? Just for the duration of this post? You are not broken, not doing it wrong. There isn't anything like "not spiritual enough" or "not aligned enough", "not ready enough" or any of the crap that your inner doubts viciously whisper into your ear at 3AM. You are just a person, just human. Someone trying something so weird, hard, strange and yet something so beautiful like shifting, and something most of the world doesn't even believe in. That takes guts. Shifting isn't a linear, one-size-fits-all thing. Shifting isn't a video game you master by leveling up and spending thousands of hours on it. There is no test, finish line, invisible scoreboard you need to glance at. Just because you haven't shifted yet doesn't mean you are failing. Doesn't mean that you aren't trying hard enough or that you are missing something. Just means your 4D and your 3D haven't lined up yet. But that doesn't mean they never will. Honestly said, you could shift tonight. Tomorrow. Next week. In six months when you least expect it. You could shift in the middle of doing something completely unrelated. The nature of shifting seems to be unpredictable, personal and unproveable until you experience it yourself. Should I tell you something else? Nothing you ever did to shift was wasted. Not the time you spent scripting, visualizing, hoping, crying, failing and trying once again. It all matters in the moment, but once you reach your goal, it will not matter any longer how long it took you. You are not running backwards. You are simply on your own way, and maybe that way is a bit longer. You don't owe anyone a set deadline, not even yourself. Try to take the pressure off your shoulders, you are not a machine that can push itself to the limit forever. You are a soul, allowed to be tired and frustrated, allowed to take a break and come back when it feels right for you. Maybe try tonight. Or don't. Script, or don't. Listen to your heart and body, try when you feel like it, not when you have to force yourself. I promise you are close, the fucking door is still wide open. Your chance hasn't run away, it's there. It will all be worth it.
I struggle very hard trying to put words to the relationship I have with my DR s/o’s. How are you supposed to describe the kind of love where you dedicate years of your life to reaching them before you’ve even met them? How do you describe the kind of love where you literally went to a different reality to be with them? What word can actually fully describe what they are to you? S/O, girlfriend/boyfriend, wife/husband, lover, partner, none of them completely grasp what they are. None of it feels right. None of them have the capacity to portray how much love for them I have or just our relationship in general. I don’t think there’s a word that even could.
✧ To belong !
Uhm so I've been going through it honestly. But I hate it because I'm pretty sure it's all just me and it's in my head as it usually tends to be.
Anyhow, long story short I've been feeling worse than ever and keep contemplating just giving up on everything. It's not even shifting it's just I feel that I genuinely can't. do anything. even the knowledge or the hope that I can js get out of here isn't helping. I keep crashing out honestly. I haven't felt like this in so long I was so sure I would never feel downright bad. I'm genuinely literally just putting pity on myself atp and it doesn't help thinking about it. but I cant ask for help they don't want to reach out to anyone, they wont let me.
But I want to try even if for just one last time to make it through. I would like to shift today, or even just change my state of mind despite it being really goddamn hard for me right now. I just hope it won't be my last time.
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bucketlist of things you want to do/experience in your dr
what everyone thinks of you/thought of you when you first met
favourite memories you have experienced in your dr
favourite posessions (wardrobe, trinkets, etc)
map of your dr
new places - a shop exactly for your style, a restaurant with only your favourite foods, etc
daily life / routine - a day in your dr selfs life
quirky habits
legends / history of the place you live in
school - where you sit, which classes you take (timetable), scenarios, people that have a crush on you, what the teachers and people from your class are like, fun assignments youre assigned, what your bag and uniform look like, what your school looks like, who you talk to at school, map, extra events
events - plan your birthday, a talent show, any extra holidays you made up, a garage sale, etc
✧ To forget how to grief .
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✧ Super cool (though uncommon on Earth-19) creature friends !
pinterest board
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Nyehehe thank youuu
🥨 for baked goods ask game
YAYYY ANOTHER ONE HEYY!!
Another moodboard!!! >:) Here ya go
It's probably somewhat out-of-place in my DR since I do live in Okinawa-
ANyhow, first image (top left) is the general look of our house
The top image to the right of the first image is my room, and the bottom one is like the way to the backyard <3
The middle two images are a window in the living room and the general bathroom respectively !
Bottom two are the living room and the entrance to the kitcheennnn
But iiii had a hard time trying to make it reasonable and not stand out because it wouldn't make sense to have an odd-one-out in the neighborhood... (so sorry this took so long to make vro I promise I didn't mean to take so long--)
(All images found on Pinterest!)
hi im solar im asatru and like reality shifting ok bye :3