I Can Hide. I Can Avoid You. These Are Things I Know I Can Do.

i would’ve given you some food if i knew you didn’t have enough. i always have extra

i wouldn't have taken it. ive already taken enough from you.

i appreciate you wanting to help me but i encourage you to wait until you think i've gotten better to try helping.

theres no use in trying to help me if you don't think im changing

im sorry i couldnt face you at all today

you should just block her if you hate her that much?

Wish you luck

I'm planning on it. I just don't know how far she'll go to keep me around because shes obsessive.

Thank you, as usual :)

"Goodnight bro, see you tomorrow"

He doesn't understand how much I needed to hear that, to know that he's going to spend time with me willingly. Sometimes it feels like people only talk to me because I initiate, but hearing those simple 5 words made everything feel okay. I feel like I'm back in 8th grade, making plans to go over and hang out in his backyard I feel like I'm free from all my troubles that came later. I'm free from the changes that I never wanted to make and were forced on me by... some bad people.

I feel like the person I want to be again. I feel like I am who I should be and who I would have been if not for all the shit I've went through.

I hope this feeling stays around for a while.

I hope he says those words again tomorrow. "Goodnight bro. See you tomorrow" Goodnight, bro.

I'll be here, enjoying the feelings those words gave me. It will be a good night.

never apologize for the blog spam it’s your blog :D!!!

Thanks I just don’t wanna flood my followers feeds or whatever (I’m new to tumblr 😭)

"...You're strong. I know you are..."

What an oddly familiar phrase. What an odd thing to tell me.

Thank you, Opal. I'm glad I stopped you back then.

I hope Ch lives.

This is where my life is at this point 😔

J - Just

I - Into

R - Risky

A - Antics

I - I also wanna die and drink and jack off and die and drink and jack off and die and drink--

At Walmart because my mom found me on my walk and brought me an iced coffee and talked me through all of my problems and reassured me and for once we had a conversation without any arguments.

Oh here’s a quote from her by the way

“You’re very gifted at building worlds and personalities”

She meant that because I’m a writer but she doesn’t know that’s my entire life story

At least I’m being myself now, not that that’s working

I regret every second of it and I would never treat anyone like that again.

I've learned from my mistake, I promise I have.

You don't have to believe me.

I'm working to make myself better.

But that doesn't mean you need to make a bad decision.

Make the decision you truly want.

Walking to the one place I want to avoid the most.

School.