I Hate The Fact That I’m More Traumatized By The Little Things Than The Big Ones.

i fucking hate it here

I’m not allowed to go to therapy and i needed a void to scream into so this blog came to be

About me

- he/him

- I’m a minor, nsfw blogs fuck off

- I’m not as emo as i seem (usually)

Asks are open for vents or advice (tho I might not always be able to give it, I’m here if you wanna talk)

There’s gonna some be fucked up stuff on here yall. Have nowhere else to yap abt it.

Gonna tag triggers as best I can but lmk if I miss one ever pls

genuinely what the fuck is the point

A relapse doesn’t erase the progress you made by staying clean.

If you’ve been clean for a day, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for a week, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for a month, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for longer, I’m proud of you.

If you relapsed after being clean for a while, I’m proud of you for staying clean however long you did. A relapse isn’t the end of the world. I’m still proud of you for everything you did to try to stay clean.

If you have tried to stay clean and failed, I’m proud of you for trying. It’s hard, I know. Don’t give up. I’m proud of you.

No matter what, I’m proud of you. I’m proud of you for everything. I’m proud of you for being alive right now. Don’t say you don’t deserve this, because you do. You very much do.

Thank you for existing.

TW - this is a vent poem that contains allusions to topics such as depression, sh, and passive suicidal ideation. It’s not explicitly about religion but it does use a ‘devil’ as a metaphor.

Be safe <3

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There’s a devil on my shoulder

He’s a nasty little thing,

but his whispers are so sweet

A blade tipped with honey, coaxing him to me

I don't remember when he came

Maybe he rode along on the agony of last November

Or maybe he's always been there

Nestled in the back, hiding away in a cloak of laughter

And each day his questions are more and more tempting

When the cloak is stripped away,

When the light of the day fades

I’m left alone to fight this silver tongued enemy.

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Stay safe out there yall, my DMs are open if anyone needs anything.

Remember, it’s never worth it, no matter how tempting it may seem,

Ok so when I act ‘normal’ I’m not autistic bc I show no signs of it but when I do ‘act autistic’ I’m possessed by a demon.

Right.

*screaming*

WHY DID I DO THIS I DON'T WANNA DO HW FFFFFFUCKKKK IT

i must not kill myself . killing myself is the myself killer