Ana Recovery - Blog Posts

Some things about me:

• I’m about to turn 19.

• I live at home with my parents in a two bedroom house.

• I’m an art student.

• I can’t afford to pay for college.

• I can’t afford to pay for rent.

• I can’t afford to buy my own food.

If you want to know my story, please keep reading my blog.

If you want to donate, my PayPal is https://www.paypal.me/honeyperidot, I don’t have a bank account for myself but I send all money from my PayPal to my friend and she withdraws it and helps me buy what I need.

I only use the money for necessities. I appreciate every single person who donates or reblogs.

Just clearing any confusion - this is not a safe space for pro ana accounts. As a person struggling with an ED, my blog will NEVER tolerate the romanticization and normalization of any type of ED. Mental illness is not to be desired, it's awful, and it does not make a person anything other than miserable.

Stay YOURSELF. Stay curious

that felt amazing to do, it hurt a little bit since I destroyed my safe space that I could rant to. But I have friends that are worried for me- my therapist is too- and I don’t want to actively be recording my downfall.

next up, my likes :(

update

I will be deleting all forms of ed and Ana shit on my account today, it’s time to commit to recovery. Even if that means getting rid of my save space

yk what, fuck the Ana lifestyle I don’t wanna panic every time I see my weight go up. I’m healthy at 114 pounds and that’s completely fine, all that weight is muscle mass from sports. I think it’s time for me to go into recovery

Sending all the love to fat people with anorexia. Sending all the love to fat people with bulimia. Your eating disorder is just as serious as it would be in a thin person, and you deserve just as much support and help in your recovery. I know you don't get that experience when you get sick, and you definitely don't get to experience those positive healing vibes when you choose recovery and stop losing weight. Just know that I see you, that I know it's not fair, and that I believe in your immense worth and the worth of your recovery journey.

You deserve to eat because you exist, that’s all there is to it

I’m sitting here laughing now but it’s crazy how my attitude switches up in just a few days. Like how was I trying to run a little ed blog like 4 days ago now everything’s all good and I’ve decided that hmmm maybe I don’t want to starve myself, or at least don’t need to as I’m only a teen and with that still developing so why ruin my bodily functions and even more so what do I get out of hating myself. I have had on and off disordered eating habits for a while now but I think I genuinely have the drive to keep pushing and take care of myself even when I don’t want to this time, and I know it will take a while to love or at least like myself, so I’m trying to start now. I feel as if I can consider myself lucky to not have fallen into severely disordered and extremely damaging eating habits and since I am overweight with a bit of a slower metabolism I think that gave me some wiggle room as well which I’m thankful for as I was able to not get sick. Kinda a bunch of yap but yea and PLEASE EAT SOMETHING FILLING AND MAKE SURE TO DRINK WATER‼️🫵🏾🫶🏾

Trying to become obsessed with self care the way I was obsessed with self destruction.

I just want you all to know that there is life beyond your eating disorder. There is hope.

Your life will not always be numbers, body checks, obsessing over every little detail, binges or restriction, pain and suffering. I know it can feel like your ed is your home, who you should be, who you are. But it's not.

It may feel like you've lost yourself (or you've found yourself within this disorder), but I can promise you that you WILL find the real you again. You were not put on this earth to be sick. That is not your purpose in life.

It could feel like without this, there's nothing to you, that this is the only thing you can do right. It's not. There are so many wonderful things that make you you, and one of them is not your eating disorder.

In a weird way, it's kind of comforting, isn't it? It always trips me up to think about, but sometimes it feels like coming home after a long day and being able to drop your bags. But the thing is, there's no comfort to it at all. Our disorders are fantastic liars, and they've tricked us into think we need it, that without it, we're just a shell of a person. You don't need it, you've never needed it, and like I said previously, this disorder is not what makes you who you are. You do. Not anorexia, b.e.d, bulimia, orthorexia, or ednos.

You deserve a life not centered around food and the rules you've created. You deserve to be able to think about other things. To enjoy life again. Please don't let your ed tell you any differently.

Please reach out if you need someone to talk to or if you'd like to send an ask. I wish you all nothing but the best ♡

Never forgiving y'all for normalizing eds

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

"No matter how bad you think you look, someone's always gonna think you're hot." -Paraphrased from a woman thrice my age.