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Well damn.
Another year goes by and it feels like nothing interesting is about to happen. I mean for myself or my mental state. Or in the very least, be surprised and genuinely move with what goes on in the world. Not having to think about the deterioration of agriculture, economics, entertainment or whatever goes on just outside my window. It also feels like the order of things will just get a tad worse. Maybe I'm exaggerating, maybe I'm melodramatic. I'm scared I'll lose the energy to feel nostalgia about the past, or be thrilled about the future; or even have a sweet, natural high for living in the moment. Now I just feel so crappy that I'm barely having the energy to care even a little. Maybe I'm the one who's falling apart while life and the world is just going on. I'm starting to feel even worse for not looking forward to next year or at all. I can only see myself rotting away, curled up in my shell and be nothing. I'm eventually not be able to care and the people around me will hate me for it. Yeah, maybe I deserve it.
So do you ever zone out so hard you question everything but know you need to be paying attention so you’re like “hey bro, now is not the time to be questioning the sanctity of humanity” or like “dude, can we not focus on how we wouldn’t be here if not for some random walking fish?”
walking through a hallway to the water fountain. I crossed paths with three girls. One had a crowbar over their shoulder.
I give them a look
they look back.
Less than five minutes later, I see them again. They are still carrying the crowbar.
what did they do with it?
I WISH IT HAD ALL BEEN DIFFERENT!!!!!
"Man this existential crisis is great" - Me, because the depth these thoughts are gonna give my fictional oc is crazy
MMMMM midnight thoughts hittin hard tonight bois, glals, and alienby folks!