I still think we were meant to be, just not forever.
-My midnight thoughts.
you can never replace anyone, can you? I mean you can try. you can try like hell. you can try and forget but its always there.
I just wanna get away from it all, ya know?
What happened to me...
It's infuriating how I have all these demons in my head no one else can understand.
Facts.
I knew it was too good to be true. I just knew i couldnt be happy for long.
Kissing you was the best and worst desision of my life.
I dont even know who I am anymore its like I have no control of my actions, thoughts, or feelings. I'm so fucking done with everything in life and i wanna end it I wanna end it so fucking bad I don't even care anymore I hate myself so much you don't even understand
Im screaming on the inside, and you dont care.
I'm so sorry. You deserve far better than anyone i can be. I cant give you what you want, but i want you to know that i will always love you. I really tried, but when we met, it was a completely different world.
Maybe someday though, years from now, when i get my shit together and im not suicidal, we can try again