Does Anyone Want To Be Best Friends That Also Live Together And Go On Adventures Together But Like Mundane

"How can you stand the fact that gross, disgusting fiction about (x topic) exists??"

It's simple, I know how to be polite and ignore fiction I'm not interested in, and I don't base my concept of morality on what I personally consider to be icky or distasteful.

GUYS GUYS GUYS CHAT JIRAI YURI GAME INCOMING JIRAI YURI GAME INCOMING WAHHHH (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

IT'LL BE RELEASED ON ITCH.IO

me n who (I can be both)

A lot of folks in the notes are saying how this is social anxiety. Lol whatever op was describing is not social anxiety.

They don't like being perceived. Idk how hard that is to understand.

For me, social anxiety is about freaking out over social interactions. Of course, being perceived and judged is a part of it but it isn't the main thing ykwim?

But its different for everyone let's all remember that.

Omg omg omg. It all makes so much more sense when you realise it's not social anxiety but a fear of being perceived.

Why do you feel more comfortable with a long coat and a mask as opposed to summer clothes?

Why do you DESPISE taking pictures? Especially if it's someone else and not you taking them.

Why do you feel like you have to stop doing whatever it was you were doing when someone passes by?

Why don't you want to tell anyone how leisurely you go about your day, taking a nap, going for a snack, sitting on your phone playing games etc. because you know they will comment on it and even though it's not negative or mockery it's still feels like you've been perceived?

Why can't you make eye contact? Why can you do it only if the other person is looking away but the second when they look at you you stop listening and when you're the one speaking you can't bear to look at them because you know their eyes are on you and they are perceiving you?

Why don't you want to dress excessively or wear nicer clothes? Because you will stand out

People mistake you for shy because you don't speak often, but it's really the fear of drawing attention to yourself more than it is the things you actually say, isn't it?

Why do you hate overpopulated areas even when no one is speaking? BUT you still feel more comfortable when more than one person is in the room (but not too many!) so that the burden of being perceived is directed on someone else and you can safely lay back just observing the scene.

It's all a defence mechanism

needy streamer overload

I bought the game because it was on sale so I don't regret buying it.

and it reminded me of an app called virtual and how you can be a vt-uber and shit. so i said fuck it why not im bored and lonely and might as well be a cute anime girl too.

i redownloaded it

but for fuck sakes its camera is awful at tracking

and im so goddam awful at socializing and i fucking wished it had an app on the pc BUT EVEN IF IT DID MY SHIT INTERNET IS SO GODDAM SLOW AND I CANT DO SHIT JUST LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE

so im stuck here in my room doing nothing but be on my phone and laptop. seeing other people do things i want to do. why cant that be me also. If i can't do shit how am i going to earn money. my anxiety holds me back i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this.

the only friend i have are online but even that is a pain in the ass BECAUSE OF MY SHITTY ASS WIFI THE FUCKING PING IS SO DAMN HIGH SO IM JUST WATCHING THEM HANGOUT WITH EACHOTHER WHILE I JUST STAND BY AND WATCH I CANT EVEN DOWNLOAD FUCKING VALORANT WITHOUT IT TAKING THE WHOLE DAY BITCH ASS CUNT KYS

no matter what your most embarrassing moment in life is, at least it’s not having fucking chat gpt write fanfic for you bc you’re too lazy to do it yourself

•──⋅☾ Arospec userboxes ☽⋅──•

Userboxes for all arospec orientations I could find.

Arospec - aromantic or are closely related to aromanticism when placed on a spectrum ranging from aromantic to alloromantic.

Aegoromantic - those who enjoy the concept of romance but do not have a desire to participate in romantic activities.

Apothiromantic - does not feel any romantic attraction and is repulsed or disgusted by it.

Aroflux - fluctuating between experiencing and not experiencing romantic attraction, or that attraction is being experienced to alternating or changing degrees.

Aromantic - do not experience romantic attraction, or experience little-to-no romantic attraction.

Autoromantic - elicit romantic attraction from themselves, by themselves.

Bellusromantic - having an interest in conventionally romantic things without desiring a relationship.

Cupioromantic - do not experience attraction but do desire a romantic relationship.

Demiromantic - do not experience romantic attraction until they have formed a deep emotional connection with someone.

Desinoromantic - do not experience "full-on" romantic attraction, but do experience "liking" someone instead of loving them romantically; the attraction then goes no further.

Frayromantic - only feel romantic attraction to people that they do not have a strong emotional bond with.

Grayromantic - low amounts of romantic attraction, rarely feel romantic attraction, only feel romantic attraction under specific circumstances, or are not sure if they experience romantic attraction.

Lithoromantic - feels romantic attraction but does not want that attraction reciprocated or loses attraction when it is reciprocated.

Nebularomantic - unable to or has a hard time distinguishing romantic attraction from platonic attraction due to being neurodivergent.

Quoiromantic - not being romantically categorizable, being unable to tell the difference between differing kinds of attraction, being unsure about experiencing romantic attraction or not, and/or not feeling the concept of "romantic attraction" to be relevant to oneself.

Recipromantic - only experience romantic attraction after knowing that the other person is romantically attracted to them—that is, when it is reciprocated.

The whole “jirai = get worse, menhera = get better” is kind of annoying. It’s not wrongbut there’s a lot more to menhera than that.

Tbh the menhera tag has been dead for a while maybe all of us “poser jirais who want to recover” 🙄 should just jump the jirai ship and use that tag. But I’m nervous to say that bc I know that means there will be an influx of people posting triggering stuff & jirai coords in the menhera tags again 😪 Recovery is hard on this website, almost every pro-recovery tag is filled with triggering shit because this website rewards clinging onto sadness & unhealthy coping mechanisms and everyone uses trigger warnings like “TW 4n0r3x!@“ or “tw sl3f h4rn” like…… how is that a trigger warning I literally can’t even read it 😭

Me when i see a notification from him: