I know no one
and
I do not know myself.
I dine alone and I have no cutlery
to hold my appetite
as I attack this platter of death and misery
with my bare hands
and leave no crumbs.
and I've only lost.
This Morning: A Thread (TW: Suicidal ideation)
My brain: Ugh, not again
How and why am I still alive?
Because I just fell asleep, it's normal
I don't want to be here.
I don't want to be here.
I cannot unalive myself here. I need to wait until I can.
I need to study, get my degree, get a job, start living alone.
Only then will I be able to end it.
Alone, alone, alone.
Yes, only a few more years.
Let's start the day.
If my mental illnesses weren't enough, the seasonal cold has been sitting on my head making my mind even more cloudy and jammed. How is any of this fair?
I can't form so much as a tear
but I seem to be drowning still.
✨️finally gone manic after being unable to want to breathe for years ✨️