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It's so much easier to push people away. I don't want to feel anything. I want to turn off my emotions and self destruct. I refuse to feel grief or any strong emotion that I just don't want to feel. I'd rather not think about any of those emotions and just keep trying to destroy myself. I can't cope with real life. I'd rather make them hate me. My brain is telling me to push them away. And I can't stop it.

Migraine aura + Splitting/ Spiraling = Fucked

What if I told you it's all in your head and you're not drowning but living, instead?

My core self was quiet because I was told to be. And hence, this. Sigh. So many to blame but a lot to remedy. First, the need of the hour: removing triggers of all my illnesses. Let's get to that, yes.

Mary Oliver

Fucked and how. I need a vacation. Getting it. Then back to the bullshit which is my life.

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This. Oh man, this.

Until you live with bpd you'll never know what it's like to be too much and not enough at the same time.

Three days of no meds and sleepiness and full stomach. I wonder how it would be when I start taking my meds again from tomorrow.