I'm not the past version of myself who didn’t rest,
I'm not okay and I need the help.
My core self was quiet because I was told to be. And hence, this. Sigh. So many to blame but a lot to remedy. First, the need of the hour: removing triggers of all my illnesses. Let's get to that, yes.
Trying to not to be afraid of this energy. One of the days when I feel sorry for myself. Sigh.
Migraine aura + Splitting/ Spiraling = Fucked
as the solitude comforts me,
the loneliness eats me up and
I let it.
Along with bpd, is unreal in another dimension
having bipolar and being told you have it for the rest of your life with no cure feels so unreal to me.
― Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Gentle Spirit
Tw: abuse
Just survived a couple hours with my abuser while casually chitchatting around family. I need to run away.
Mary Oliver