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Thinking about how every antidepressant I’ve been on has done one of three things:
1) Nothing
2) Worked
3) Made me shit my pants
im about to kill myself. just say gay men rubbing crotches.
“People laying awake at night are either in love or BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!!”
Bro what if I’m laying awake at night reading old men yaoi and thinking about the fact that I am in fact NOT asexual and actually just wish I had a dick????
WHAT THEN????
I am starting to see a pattern in the types of ships I like and in the dynamics/tropes I want to see in fanfictions about them
I am also beginning to notice a pattern in how I identify stronger with one character in the pairing versus the other and the characters I identify with all have similar traits
The dots are connecting and I haven’t seen the full picture yet but I don’t like it
I know absolutely fuck all nothing about severance but “cocky want boing boing” is so fucking diabolical combined with the selfie
Killing myself is not enough
Ha, 69 notes at the time I reblog this, nice
The most intimate experience I’ve ever had with another person has got to be when my friend and I drove around for over an hour and she just patiently listened to my rant about House MD and Hilson even tho she had never watched it and it also wasn’t the type of media she engaged in. And half way through the drive she started constructing a playlist specifically of songs that were so Hilson coded “for inspiration” and once there were a few songs on the playlist we started taking turns explaining what exactly in the song FELT Hilson coded and it’s the closest I’ve felt to being understood
its OK 2 B Ugly AF & get no Game
Final essay in my fan fiction class for the Pride and Prejudice unit was about examining the Pride and Prejudice fan fiction we’ve interacted with and deciding what elements of the origin text and the subsequent fan fiction we would want to “love, marry, or kill” in relation to our own hypothetical fan fiction
(and of course how we would use our work and knowledge of other works to develop social commentary bc most fan fiction makes social commentary on some level)
So I thought a contemporary version of Pride and Prejudice that follows the plot of the origin text but Mr. Darcy is a woman (so we get lesbians) and Mr. Bingley is a really terrible wingman and part of the plot hinges on Mrs. Bennett constantly trying to set Elizabeth up with men bc it would make the family look better in some way but Mr. Bennett is like “have you seen our daughter??? She is so gay you can’t keep doing this”
(which is how we still get conflict related to Mr. Collins and Wickham, who I think I would also make a woman cause it’d be funny)
But anyways I think this would be fun bc a lot of Pride and Prejudice’s conflict comes from societal expectations and stupid unspoken social rules so in a contemporary setting making it really queer would be a good way to uphold this type of conflict without it feeling weirdly outdated
Also toxic yuri :)
I hate finding patterns in my own writing bc what do you MEAN I have 3 different WIPs with scenes where person A has an “oh. Oh” moment about being in love w person B while talking to a therapist????
And once something with that type of scene gets published (either on ao3 or professionally) I CAN’T USE IT ANYMORE
This is one of many examples of writing super hell
Whenever I get too obsessed with a show i literally start dreaming fake episodes and then have to wake up and check to see if it was a real episode or not
So when I was deep into 9-1-1 a few years ago (mostly for Buddie) I had a dream where Buck was having a panic attack or something and Eddie was holding him being like “you’re safe, you’re okay, I got you” or whatever and then Buck just like…kissed Eddie???? And then I woke up
But now with what I’ve been seeing online about the most recent episodes I feel like this is a plausible scenario????
Am I a prophet????
Guys I’m really enjoying getting back into fanfiction but if I keep seeing fics that are unbelievably canon compliant and painstakingly follow plot timelines down to the episode WITH THE ONLY FANON THING BEING A SHIP and it’s tagged as an AU I am going to start cyber bullying
Went to a zine fest and took a picture of a bumper sticker that said “honk if you love old man yaoi” so I could show it to my friend and as I was trying to text her a picture of it SHE SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE BUMPER STICKER and the caption was “this you?”
hyperfixation so bad people associate it me with it
This test called me autistic (correct) and touch starved (also correct) and I DONT LIKE IT
where’s that personality test where you pick from different colors and then it reads your emotional state for complete filth
So so so so excited to go back to work bc it means that I can go back to writing fanfiction on the corporate iPad when there aren’t customers in the store
The most intimate experience I’ve ever had with another person has got to be when my friend and I drove around for over an hour and she just patiently listened to my rant about House MD and Hilson even tho she had never watched it and it also wasn’t the type of media she engaged in. And half way through the drive she started constructing a playlist specifically of songs that were so Hilson coded “for inspiration” and once there were a few songs on the playlist we started taking turns explaining what exactly in the song FELT Hilson coded and it’s the closest I’ve felt to being understood
Thing that never happened that would drive me insane: House calling Wilson “pretty boy” to make fun of him bc he likes how flustered Wilson gets about it and one day Wilson calls House “stud” or some corny shit and they just keep going back and forth with those names for several weeks and everyone’s like “please fuck already I can’t handle this” and then they do :)
I need it
YES YES YES THOSE TYPES ARE MY FAVORITE PRE CANON FICS
tell me ur fav hilson headcanons plsplspls i want to know. if you dont have any, invent some
Big neon sign over my head saying “please ask me about my summer plans” because I finally have some and I’m SO FUXKING EXCITED
(Anyways please ask I’m not joking)
I need to somehow incorporate polyamorous ducklings into at least one of the three Hilson WIPs I have going rn (two of them would arguably be difficult to work in due to the timeline)
Very much into hilson fanfics where the og ducklings are just casually in a polyamorous relationship in the background bc it shows how completely fucked up hilson is
Sugar Pills by I DON’T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME is so Gregory House coded send post
Fave headcanon has to be that House bailed Wilson out of jail cause he’s hot but then continued to be his friend out of respect
tell me ur fav hilson headcanons plsplspls i want to know. if you dont have any, invent some
I feel the need to elaborate slightly
Polyamorous og ducklings being stable and normal is hilarious bc why is it that after working together for a few years they are able to be in a decent relationship but House and Wilson can’t manage to figure out their own emotions after knowing each other for over a decade
(Bc polyamorous OG ducklings implies that the fic takes place in an early season)
Very much into hilson fanfics where the og ducklings are just casually in a polyamorous relationship in the background bc it shows how completely fucked up hilson is
Very much into hilson fanfics where the og ducklings are just casually in a polyamorous relationship in the background bc it shows how completely fucked up hilson is
today im thinking about my many many desires. no i wont be communicating them you stupud fuckinggggg idiot
would you let me into your room so i can sit awkwardly on the ground wearing an oversized t shirt and look at your posters like a squirrel searching for threats before proceeding to say nothing and stare at you until you speak to me. would you let me do this
Reblogged one of those dumb good luck posts yesterday and then got an email 30 minutes later saying that I was selected by my professors to go to a writing conference for free (and it costs minimum 875$ to go)
So now I’m not gonna skip shit like this I am superstitious now
so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god
Hype as hell bc I’m going to a writing conference this summer and I’ve never gone to one before so I thought I’d have to prepare a portfolio or something but this one explicitly says not to do that and that we are only working on new material written in the conference’s workshops and I love that for me
Yall I haven’t been in the fanfiction realm in awhile but back in my day (circa 2016-2017) an AU meant that people were ACTUALLY in situations that were completely outside the realm of the canon (marvel characters in a high school AU, House MD but they’re veterinarians, Johnlock but they’re professors, etc)
BUT NOW IM SEEING FICS WHERE IT SAYS THE DUMBEST SHIT POSSIBLE!!! Like when someone kept everything very canon and timeline compliant but made a character autistic in the realm of their fic and calls it an Autism AU! Like I’m pretty sure THATS NOT HOW IT WORKS?????
Or like calling the fic an AU (with no label) but all that’s different is that the ship the fic is centered around is “canon” and like…THATS JUST A NORMAL FANFICTION??? ARE YOU FUCKING DENSE????
But like I said I haven’t really been into fanfiction since 2016-2017 and just got deep back into it in the past month ish so maybe the term has changed but I feel like I’m going crazy someone help me
Trying to talk to my mom about the fact that I have bipolar disorder and am still coming off a manic episode and an example I used to try and show her that I am currently Not Feeling Normal is that I went from being a cunt that needs a nap if I don’t get at least 10 hours of sleep to being wired and completely fine after spending 2.5 weeks only getting 4 hours or less of sleep per night
She deadass looked into my autistic eyes and said that’s because my iron levels are (theoretically) leveling out after several years of dealing an bad iron deficiency “so now I have the energy of a normal person”
This feels like when a person comes out as bisexual or nonbinary and their parent is like “well everyone feels that way, you’re not queer”