And starving yourself can make you feel euphoric, like a drug addict or an alcoholic. What you crave is the numbing of the things you don’t wanna feel
No way, I'm actually so mf done. Okay, so yesterday, I was hanging out with my friends, and they know that I’m insecure about my weight and stuff. Not about this and my ED or whatever, but they know to some extent. So I'm sitting there, and I pinch my friend as a joke, it’s a thing we do to each other every time we see a yellow car. I pinch her, and I was standing beside someone else. She yells at me, and I ask her how she knew it was me. She told me I have fat fingers. wtf? Yeah, then she proceeds to tell me that the girl next to me has skinny, small hands. I wanted to cry more than I ever have, I think. I think what kills me over everything else is that she knows I'm insecure. I've opened up to her. I honestly feel so sick.
i just wanna be pretty, is that too much to fucking ask? why didn't the gods bless me with this ethereal beauty i see in everyone else? why didn't my proteins synthesize me to look prettier, to be prettier?
i'm crashing out
my biggest toxic trait is binging and calling it a metab day
March absolutely sucked. Praying for an angelic Ana April.
(Wishing you all one as well)
I think I’m officially back on that grind 350 cals for all of today
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72 hour fast starting today, I’ve decided.
I hate boys almost as much as I hate food!
(He got a new gf)
Success doesn’t care how you feel right now.
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I think my dad might be catching on 😔
He’s been making me eat dinner and watching me?