pebblul
they/them (I am a minor!!) Welcome to my personal blog where I mostly yap about BSD right now… I also like writing, world building, and media analysis tho!
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Did some rendering practice with my oc Joeii
THEYD HAVE TO KILL ME BEFORE ID DARE STOOP TO THE LEVEL OF USING AI.
NOTICE: As more and more fanfic writers are using generative AI for their works (you uncreative dweebs), I hereby swear on everything I hold dear that I have not and will NEVER use generative AI in ANY of my written work. Everything I post will be organically and creatively my own.
Not that anyone cares, but once on a Friday evening I passed the fuck out so hard I left my sushi out before I could eat it.
I had a dream and at the end of it I ended up on this little island in the middle of the ocean. It had a little palm tree on it and everything.
On the island was a man standing, waiting, with this grin on his face. Just a slightly amused, ‘there you are’ grin.
And y’know what this mother fucker told me?
“I’ve got a message for you, it’s time to wake up.”
AND THEN I WOKE UP?
AND I REALIZED I HAD LEFT MY SUSHI OUT.
Someone please. Please tell me who that man was I am BEGGING.
hey, did you know that the world is a better place because of your creations and art and writing, no matter how niche or how many people see it
whys combat and military gear always got to look so fucking cool when the people wearing them just objectively arent. thats unfair
Currently thinking about how the death of Polites fractured the dynamic of the crew which led to quite literally the rest of the Odyssey in EPIC the musical. The entire crew relied on this man and NO, I am not exaggerating.
Polites served as the temperance of Ody; the diplomatic and optimistic council who was a liaison between the captain and his crew. Why? Well, Polites is never acknowledged to hold any power in the crew (we're talking EPIC canon here) but is clearly respected and valued by the captain. This combination is familiar; the crew is comfortable approaching Polites because he's their equal and Polites is comfortable approaching Odysseus with their problems because they're friends. That is his role.
Now I have my own issues with Eurylochus but I do think he's written well. And I also do not think he is fully in the wrong. HOT TAKE I KNOW, but hear me out: Eury was Ody's right hand. Odysseus is clever but he's also pretty humble (excluding the whole "I am the infamous Odysseus" but Bro had a right to crash out there). Odysseus does not surround himself with "yes-men", he surrounds himself with friends who are willing to challenge him. Case and point; Eurylochus and Polites.
Polites challenges his morals and instincts - Polites is always trying to ensure that Odysseus is doing what is best for himself. "You can relax my friend" is not something you tell your leader to do casually. It's what you tell your friend to do when they're working themselves too damn hard. "Greet the world with open arms" is not what you tell your commanding officer who you're trusting to get you home.
Eurylochus challenges his decisions. Always does, in every scene and NO that is not a flaw. He serves as a point of resistance so that Odysseus is forced to consider every option carefully. He makes sure Ody has considered the worst-case scenario and is fully prepared to back him up when that happens. Bro was ready to burn the Lotus island down if his friends didn't come back. Eury is the guy who's willing to strike first and make the difficult decisions, much like Ody is. He is a good second in command.
The point is: the two filled massively different roles in the crew. Eury is supposed to challenge Odysseus and question his decisions - that is his job; to make sure that his captain is making the best decisions for the crew. Polites is supposed to support Ody; he is a friend, a confident, and a source of trust and camaraderie.
What makes them such a well-oiled machine is that they all have specific roles and they are good at them. Ody makes the plans and decides what battles to fight, Eurylochus takes initiative and counterbalances Polites optimism, Polites offers ethical and moral support while counterbalancing Eury's cynicism. That is why the crew works so well.
Odysseus has someone to rely on and someone to challenge him. The crew has someone to confide in and a second in command to consider their needs. They have a captain who listens to both. Eurylochus and Polites have each other to balance out and a captain who values their opinions.
It works. It's balanced. It's a powerful type of leadership.
Then Polites dies, and so does that balance.
Eurylochus finds himself having to fill two roles. He has to question his captain and calm the crew. He has to place complete trust in Odysseus as Polites did, but he can't. His and Ody's relationship has always been based on challenging one another to ensure that they're considering every angle. He has spent his entire life being critical of Odysseus' plans because he knows that's what he's supposed to do. He doesn't have blind faith, he's a realist - optimism and trust were Polites forte.
Odysseus finds himself without that support and line of connection to Polites. He grows disconnected from the crew because of it and flounders when it comes to dealing with Eurylochus.
This is seen clearly in the song: Luck Runs Out
Eury was not in the wrong for pointing out how fucking crazy it is to casually ask the Wind God for some help. Sure let's go knock on a god's door and ask for loose change; HELLO!? There are so many ways it could've gone wrong and it has always been Eury's job to point such flaws out. It's what he's always done - probably what he's done for Ody throughout the war.
But Odysseus? He just lost his best friend and his mentor. His entire support system is crumbling, so being challenged by the one person who he needs to have his back pushes him into a dangerous space as a leader.
On the one hand, he cannot afford to have Eury question his every move, especially since Polites isn't there to challenge him for Odysseus. Especially now that he doesn't have Polites instilling trust in the crew - he can't afford Eury's challenges to eroding what trust remains in his disheartened crew.
On the other, pushing Eurylochus away and demanding staunch obedience from him is so out of character for their relationship that all trust between Captain and SOC is suddenly up in the air.
That is why Eurylochus opens the windbag. Not because he wanted "treasure", but because the captain who demanded he "be devout" is not the captain he's followed all this time. The captain who sits awake for four days, eyes following every crewmember with a glimmer of distrust is not the Odysseus Eurylochus knows.
Eury knows Odysseus with Polites. If Polites had been alive, he would've been able to quell the crew's distrust because he would have had full trust in their captain. Odysseus would've been able to trust his crew because he could trust Polites. He cannot trust Eurylochus to have that same blind faith, because Eury doesn't have it; and the crew knows it.
Everything's changed since Polites
It's not a throwaway line; it's what the crew whispers to Eurylochus. He's different. He's changed. Odysseus is not the same. Maybe it is treasure. Maybe he's lying to us. How do we know? How do you know?
And Eurylochus doesn't know. He isn't certain. Odysseus is his friend and his captain; that's a difficult power dynamic to balance.
So Eury opens the windbag, because he doesn't trust Odysseus. It's a different sort of mistrust though - not one of constructive criticism from a friend, but earnest dangerous mistrust of your superior.
Eurylochus leads the mutiny, because that was always his role as Ody's right hand; to question and stand against what he felt was wrong. To speak for the crew as another leader.
But Eurylochus never wanted to be captain. He never wanted to betray his friend. He felt he had to - Yes, he was willing to leave crewmates behind in Circe's lair because he has always been willing to make those hard calls.
Odysseus? He so rarely does what Eurylochus wants to do because they are not the same person. Eury doesn't want Ody to be him (Eury has flaws, but ambition is not one of them. He recognizes he isn't a good leader hence he immediately falls back on Ody's judgment after the holy cow bit) - he wants Ody to listen to him and consider his insights. So for Odysseus to sacrifice six of their crewmates without a word to his friend - without consulting anyone - without leaving space for his right-hand man to question him... that is when Eurylochus loses faith in Odysseus. Because that is not his captain. He doesn't know who it is. But his captain would never.
Hypocritical? Yes. But also rather insightful.
And Odysseus? He loses the last pillar of support he has in the crew, not because Eurylochus changes - not even because he changes. He loses it all because it is doomed to fall apart without Polites. It was all doomed to fall apart when they lost their counterbalance.
It is not Ody's mercy or ruthlessness that kills them. It is not Eury's distrust. Both of those existed far before it all went to shit. It was Polites dying. It was the fact that the three of them were so well suited for leadership as long as it was the three of them.
It had to be the three of them.
I feel as though the rise of AI is yet just another indicator that we exist in society that views art as a product and commodity.
Most simply want to admire and consume art whilst holding no respect for the artists and the work we put in to create.
They just want to eat the fruits of a labor that is not their own.
Doodles of this loser
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND SO MUCH IT IS BEYOND COMPREHENSION
Mori finally bans toys from all mafia meetings after Dazai and Chuuya got bored at a very important negotiation and initiated a water gun fight with each other. Bringing game consoles was already pushing it, but the water guns were the last straw.
This backfires however, when at the next meeting they both attend, Dazai once again gets bored and just pulls out an actual gun and starts shooting at Chuuya. Who catches the bullets with his ability and proceeds to pelt Dazai with them in return.
“teenage Dazai this” “teenage Chuuya that”
WHAT ABOUT TEENAGE FUKUZAWA
I know where Ranpo gets it from.
Is it just me or is there a sudden influx of people referring to things as their “spirit animals” again…?
Triple it.
lord take all of my pain and sufferig and give it to elon musk
I talk to myself like that all the time but even that scene was a little odd 💀
See everyone gives Atsushi a hard time for talking to a hallucination.
But no one talks about when Tachihara was straight up narrating his every movement in the Sky Casino.
He popped into ah empty room and was just like oh there was no one here. Oh there’s a bomb wow good thing my ability that I totally have stopped me from getting hit by the shrapnel from these coin bombs.
Oh man there’s coin bombs hmm and they seem to be from every currency.
Who are you talking to man? Keep your monologue inside your head.
the greatest love story ever told
This is the first time I’ve made digital art that I’m actually somewhat proud of 💀
I need someone else to hear me out and understand.
Would the BSD anime not have gone hard with a 80s-90s Japanese City Pop themed soundtrack???
Maybe not for the whole thing but still. The atmosphere would be perfect for it, you cannot deny me that.
I think it speaks to something innate about humanity and the societies that exist in BSD, honestly. (And by extension our own world kind of.)
The ultimate goal is power, no matter its cost. Even if that means ruining and ending lives. Even if that means destroying a person’s chance at ever getting to know peace. Even if it comes at the expense of the world itself.
Those that have something that can be used shall be used. Their human attributes and personality just needs to be thrown away first.
But that’s the thing about ability users in BSD, you can never fully separate their humanity from them. No matter what is done, they prove their humanity time and time again, even if they themselves don’t realize it.
Those in power will always fail to use you if you keep sight of your humanity. That’s what separates you from them.
Something something, Mori's immortal army plan and all the trauma it created, being a way for him to prove ability users are useful and worth keeping around.
The hunting dog's being turned into killing machines and routinely undergoing surgeries just to survive it. They are heroes but it's at the cost of their freedom and peace.
The only creations made by ability users that history deems worthy being weapons like Amenogozen and the One Order.
Child ability users like Chuuya, Kyouka and Teruko being stolen away from their family and treated as less than human because they would make a better weapon.
Children like Atsushi and Yumeno being abused and made to hate themselves all because they have an ability.
Ability users bodies being turned into weapons even after death, like the Holy Sword, the Old Boss, Shibusawa and Fukuchi.
Ability users like Sigma, Bram and Mushitaro being used like tools by organizations because of their abilities.
Combative abilities like Demon Snow being passed down the bloodline forcing children to grow into weapons.
Something about ability users being dehumanized and used by non-ability users for years and years, yet they are the ones villainized for being what they were forced to be, every time.
Something about Fyodor having lived to witness all of this and all that came before. Internalizing that resentment towards ability users, perhaps having been the victim of it at least once, and deciding that the only way the evil will stop is if ability users didn't exist.
Japanese BSD Character Names Translated!!!
I’ve been learning Japanese for over a year and a half now, so I thought it would be fun to look into the meanings behind some of BSD’s cast. (Which also doubles as the original authors/poets names.)
Starting with Atsushi, his name is made of three characters: 中 島 敦
The first two, composing his family name, “Nakajima,” means island in the center of a pond/river. So essentially, “island pond”.
The kanji in his first name: 敦 can refer to either industry or the quality of being kind/gentle.
So all together, his name would be “Kind island pond.”
Like most last names, his probably refers to the location where his family is from. Meanwhile the first is just a typical Japanese name with a sweet meaning behind it.
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To quote my mother, who grew up under a dictator:
"Dictatorships are born in whispers."
Pay attention to every bill or executive order. Don't ask how it'll benefit the country. Ask how it'll benefit the one trying to get it passed. You'll start noticing the whispers.
To those who say, "Stop reading between the lines." No. Always read between the lines. Never take a politician at face value. This goes for all politicians regardless of party.
Look at their history, listen to their words, and ask yourself, "How is this benefiting them?"
I know u guys r prob getting sick of me, a fandom blog, spewing doom n gloom but it is so incredibly important for your safety and others to be informed right now. trump wants to own the gaza strip and for Palestinians ‘to find somewhere else to live’. the first migrants have officially been sent to guantanamo bay. the us made a deal w el salvador to deport american criminals to their prison system. the cia has offered a buy out to “trumpify” the organization. we have left the paris climate agreement. elon musk has access to national security details including the treasury. gotten rid of dei and put pressure on corporations to do the same. wants to get rid of the dept of education, osha, federal aid, etc. has tried (and failed) to impose tariffs on our countries long time allies. and this is just name a few. but don’t worry in the fascist racist rapist felon with billionaires backing him and their interests def got this 🙏🏼
Guys beware the “what’s stopping me,” attitude.
It’s all productivity and progress until you’re suddenly a busy person who has 20 obligations, 15 personal projects, schoolwork, a job and a cat.