Latest Posts by tokidokioki - Page 2

Do you ever feel like everyone around you is annoyed by you, they want you around cause they'll feel bad if you're gone. But they don't need you and you feel toxic, you're just HERE. Hahaha cause yea I want to die

Sometimes it takes courage to open up to kindness

@ yungflowergun

I'm so fucking sad it hurts. I honestly don't remember the last time I truly ever felt happy even as a small child. I remember feeling depressed but not knowing what that was. I felt such satisfaction from traumatic things, inflicting pain and violence, self torture and hatred. I don't know if I truly deserve to be happy I don't know what to do.

the feminine urge to smoke a cig and then just kms idc

                                                                                            Yet                        I still want some kind of contact. Yet I am the one who can’t let go                                             —into complete silence,                        which seems so unthinkable. What keeps me?                        Is it devotion or addiction? Is it the need for                        intimacy, or the proof that I can survive                        some kind of violence?

— Yanyi, from “Affirmation,” Dream of the Divided Field

these scars be looking a bit lonely 👀

Half tempted to take a whole bottle of sleeping pills. Who cares?

It shouldn't be humanly possible to feel this low and alone.

ugh i feel so pretty and feminine when i st4rve myself

feeling miserable because your hungry>>>>>>feeling miserable because you ate

no matter what I'm doing it's wrong

no matter what I'm saying it's wrong

like what the fuck I just wanna die

the reason why I haven't killed myself yet is

is

um

is

I think I'm just gonna- *stabs myself*

Maybe I’m supposed to be alone. But it hurts.

maybe all the signs were there-

maybe i just refused to see them.

after all, red flags just look like flags when you see them through rose colored glasses.

-why did i believe you when you said you'd never hurt me? c.r.

"be like a star,

distant and dying"

The saddest thing is when you are feeling real down, you look around and realize that there is no shoulder for you.

I already said too much. I already shared too much, and I want all my secrets back. I hate getting close to people these days. I always regret sharing too much, caring too much, doing too much, feeling too much.

The only thing I'm good at is destroying myself