If you are a vampire NEVER feed from someone named Richard. 400 fucking years and everyone still calls me Dick Sucker
If we are made in God's image then he must be the devil
As we are a violent, cruel and sorry excuse of flesh and bones that destroys everything bright and beautiful given to us
I wish I was religious
I love the idea of truly believing in something or someone higher than me, having someone to dedicate part of my life to and look to for guidance.
Unfortunately at like age 5 i woke up one day and decided I don't believe in anything except science
but religion can be such a beautiful thing and I wish i could push myself to actually believe in anything
honestly don't know what to do anymore
feels like every time I talk i just upset my friends or add little to the friendship
but if I don't talk i'll eventually drift away and lose them
sooo wtf do I do?
People who have read "the song of Achilles" need to read "the silence of the girls" and Homer's Iliad, as in song of Achilles the story is told from Patroclus' perspective, someone who loved Achilles so he's incredibly biased and mainly focuses on how amazing Achilles was,
when actually he's the reason so many died during the trojan was because of his massive tantrum over Briseis (who would not have been like a close friend to them she would have just been a slave for Achilles to use)
Then again after Patroclus dies he commits horrific acts "in the name of love" but in Homer's Iliad the entire plot is off Achilles anger, it starts with his annoyance of being dishonoured and ends with his rage as his lover is killed because of his original anger.
laying in bed at night knowing she doesn't miss me as much as i miss her
she doesn't cry every night, begging for it to end
she doesn't lash out at everyone around her because she's so upset and angry with the world
she isn't in therapy because we're not friends anymore
She doesn't want me back and she never will
Distancing yourself from your friends so it will hurt less when they inevitably leave you <<<<
bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.