i wonder who i would be if i kept my hair cut short
i wonder who i'd be if i actually transitioned socially
i wonder if i'd be happier as a boy
i wonder if i stuck to using he/they pronouns i'd feel better
i wonder who he would be if i let them stay
Everyday I feel like I'm counting down
9 hours until the day ends
6 days until the week ends
256 days until the end of the year
what's the point in living if I'm just waiting for the end?
Not now kitten daddy's googling his symptoms
you when you get those question on like mental health positivity things where it's like, "make a list of people you trust" or "list all the things you like about yourself"
wtf do you actually write
people I trust: my mum? sometimes? maybe?
things i like about myself: my eyes, my...uh teeth???
like that just makes me seem more pathetic than i already am
panicked in my religious studies exam and used the hymn "I will go lord" as a source of authority
thanks to my amazing Christian school,
I can't remember quotes but I know the entirety of Jerusalem, the lord's pray and most Christian hymns
arguments with my Christian bf:
Him: you're going to hell for not believing in God
Me: Well I don't believe in hell so I don't believe I'm going there
Him: what are you going to do once you're dead and you meet God then?
Me: well I don't believe in him so I won't meet him
Him: but when you do he'll send you to hell
(this is the same bf who says he respects everyone else's opinions and respects my views O_O)
Nobody apologized for how they treated me they just blamed me for how I reacted
If we are made in God's image then he must be the devil
As we are a violent, cruel and sorry excuse of flesh and bones that destroys everything bright and beautiful given to us
do u wanna come over & ignore the rest of the world together